#healingprocess

I have the feeling that my former self has somehow disappeared. Explosiveness and impulsiveness are still part of my character, but I have learned to transform them into a kind of southern temperament 💃

I apologize for many years of online fighting on Facebook. When a person carries so many conflicting emotions inside, while at the same time functioning in an objectively unstable and difficult economic situation, struggle becomes the only possible (anti)modus vivendi.

I still do not know what a stable sense of agency really is. I feel like a small child who is learning manual skills, movement, and an upright posture from scratch.

I am learning how to think rationally, feel in a harmonious way, and live freely, starting from the very basics.

I have a deep conviction that the future will bring very interesting cultural practices, including my own, after Jamalek, my greatest love.

The wounds that was causing pain someday at some point of time is becoming the strength.

The memories the talks who always distracted me are now more keeping me happy and focused.

All the sad songs on mine playlist which made me cry and the rain drops which bought all mine emotional and feelings out of control are now out there rather than breaking mine heart giving me pleasure.

The thoughts which kept me awake all night and the overthinking which was making me insane is now balanced and keeping me sane.

Mine own little habits, the scars of my body, annoying manners of me which always made me hating myself and mine body are now more gearing me up to love myself and prioritise myself first.

All the toxicity, the bad energy and low vibes which always surrounded me is getting replaced by all the good energy and good vibes>>>>

// the more soon you start accepting it

more you’ll get closer to your healing process// 🌸