Benica

Not present with me physically

Basically it isn’t the physical human touch that I can feel of yours

But I feel the emotional presence of yours around me

Yeah I am not shattered yet from your painful memories though you haven’t left another choice for me

The memories that are sometimes sweet or bitter inebriation

It’s the part of suffering and moving on

Maybe wouldn’t able to heal mine self completely ever

But your emotional presence still everytime takes me over

When you're about to cry and he does that "hey, hey" thing

2. When you're walking on the sidewalk together and he moves spots so that you're away from the road.

3. When he laughs so hard he throws his head back and pulls you in his arms

4. When he gets nervous from you staring at him so closely and keeps switching his focus between your eyes

5. When it's windy so he holds back your hair while you eat ice cream

6. When you see him looking for you over a crowd of people

7. When you give him a claw clip to hold on to and he's super intrigued by it and opens and closes it shut for an hour

8. When he guides you through a crowd with a hand on your back

9. When he bends down to hear what you're saying

This pain is significant that I’m being separated from you, this hurt is insignificant that the one making me leave is you

Tere bichadne par likh raha hoon taza gazhle, yeh tera gham hai jo mujhe mashhoor kar raha hai

I’m writing new poetries on your absence, I’m being celebrated for this sorrowfulness