what I meant when I talk.
the farther that I walked
like a martyr to our cause
I wish I would I could have held on longer
And we didnt become victims
to all of the shit thats hidden
Heart hardened and starved
From the pain of our wrongs
I wish I could find peace
that she seems to be keeping
Not afraid of the hard talks
From the darkness of our flaws
And I don't know what it means
I can hear God calling me
As Im falling apart at the seams
Cuz our stars are so far off
And maybe we didn't handle
And Im still feeling like a target
And its never been harder
Im In a zone with my loss
Tears drop from a blank face
While I listen to our songs
As im crushed by the weight
That's nailed to the cross
I been carrying for so long
Ready to turn my lights off
Been grinding and surviving
To this cliff that I'm on
Even when youre not close to me
And I can still heal the pain
But im right where im supposed to be
Too much weight on my shoulders
To many things looming over me
waiting for her to notice me