Sep 5, 2023
Bipolar makes me so unpredictable. I don’t know whether I’m going to wake up depressed or manic. How do I function as an adult when I can’t even count on myself?
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Bipolar makes me so unpredictable. I don’t know whether I’m going to wake up depressed or manic. How do I function as an adult when I can’t even count on myself?
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I really thought my mental illness would just phase out when I turned 18 💀
me (refuses to accept the fact i probably have ADHD) : hmm i wonder why i do [specific thing others dont]? imma search it
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me:
Anxiety
If I stop moving/ stimming, then the anxiety overwhelms me. It's been going on for almost a week now constantly and I'm exhausted.
This was going to be an ask for @onemorecoffee123 but it got too long and I think a lot of you guys could benefit from reading it. Just a little advice.
I’ve worked in mental health and it’s hard because a lot of people who are really struggling depend on you. You say your CPN is lovely, but at the same time not helpful. Maybe help her out. Don’t wait for her to ask how you are, just tell her. It’s her job to listen, not talk. To be blunt there’s not a lot she can do, I’ve had CPNs and most of them have been a disappointment. I wanted them to help, but they didn’t. Sometimes even made me worse because I felt helpless and hopeless afterwards. But next time you see a MH prof. take control of the situation. You tell them everything, they are not mind readers and they will believe whatever you tell them, because you are an adult. If you say you are okay (when you’re clearly not) they will believe you. It’s hard, but you have to be honest. They are bound by confidentiality on a need to know basis. I learned all this through 15 years under a CMHT. You have to shout and spell it out, or you fall through the gaps. Remember, there is no magic drug or words that will make you better (I wish there was!), but you have to help them to help you. Sounds weird, I know. But try. For your own sake. You are worth the effort. Stay strong. Xx
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“Things seem to be going well for you”
Yeah...no.
That’s because I only post photos of myself when I’m happy or feeling inspired, or eating wonderful food and travelling.
But truthfully I spend most of my time eating cereal from the box while watching reality television to numb any feelings of how inadequate my life is.
Yeah...no.
@finding-mollies-marbles
Anyone else afraid of the outside world?
That’s where everything happens that’s not safe. It’s away from my comfort zone and my safe zone. It’s scary and it creates panic attacks. I’m scared about being away from a toilet. I’m scared about being away from home. Im scared about just being away and all the noises and everything that’s out of my control
Everything scares me and I can’t control it.
Saw my psychiatrist today and he’s actually over the moon with my progress, he didn’t think it would be this positive so quickly, and thankfully isn’t changing my meds just yet. Last time he said he would change the meds that have been making me gain weight, but he wants to see me again in about 2 months so see if I’m going to continue to stabilise with the newer meds, which I suppose is both good and only bad in the fact I’m going to continue to struggle with my weight for a little longer. And in fairness I’ve been eating better, exercising when I can and walking Luna, so I’m trying. We also spoke about some other symptoms and he wants to rule out some things so I need to have some of those tests on my brain to check for abnormalities/ rule anything like that out etc. Because my case is so unusual, and unique (not necessarily textbook) there are a lot of things I need to work with my psychiatrist. Straight away he could see that my cognitive symptoms are beginning to improve so I guess that’s what he wanted mostly. My mood has lifted, and my creativity is coming back a lot better than usual I think. Because my group therapy is coming to an end he will be requesting that I try CAT therapy before we go into psycho therapy as they don’t think I’m ready for that still, even though I’ve attended all of the groups they asked me to. I want to begin volunteering soon, too. I have some details of a horse riding place locally that my nurse has suggested a few months ago so I think I’m going to ask my support worker to look at that with me. My nurse is also going to ask if I can join a small arts and crafts group whilst I’m waiting on other therapies to start and stuff.