I think chronic/ passive suicidal ideation is akin to the non descriptive feeling of homesickness while you are still at home. A sense of “I want to go home” without knowing what your brain means by “home”. All you know is you long for it
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I think chronic/ passive suicidal ideation is akin to the non descriptive feeling of homesickness while you are still at home. A sense of “I want to go home” without knowing what your brain means by “home”. All you know is you long for it

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Can anyone else relate
it sucks not being able to trust your own happiness because you can’t tell if things are actually getting better or it’s just the hypomania
what emotions are mine? what version of myself is truly me and which version is just the mental illness in control?
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I personally flip between wanting to get worse and better frequently. I am diagnosed by a professional with ADHD. I have medically recognized bipolar 2 and am receiving treatment for it. I also have dermatillomania (I’m a compulsive skin picker)
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Characters I relate to:
I hope everyone who has been demonized for bipolar (type 1, type 2, AND cyclothimia) has a beautiful and wonderful day and your pillow is super cold when you sleep tonight.

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i want to turn off my mind so bad. i’m tired of my thoughts and overthinking.
i’m always saying that my state between hypomania and depression is the worst. because it is. i don’t feel anything but at least i’m not thinking at all