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May mga tao kang nakilala sa isang bahagi lang ng buhay mo. Sandali lang, pero sapat para may bakas sila sa isip mo. May tawanan, may kwento, konting tampuhan, konting pagkakaintindihan.

May mga nakausap ka sa Tumblr o sa dating site, kahit type niyo lang ang isa’t isa at hindi nagkapalagayan. Siguro hindi kayo nakatadhana sa isa’t isa. May mga nakilala ka dahil pareho kayo ng trip, hilig, o libangan, pero magkalayo ang mundo niyo. May mga nakilala ka dahil pinagbentahan mo siya ng gamit, o ikaw naman ang bumili. May mga naging katrabaho ka, pero nauna siyang nag-resign. May mga naging klasmeyt ka sa isang subject, at pagkatapos niyo lang magtapos, nawala rin siya sa kwento mo.

May mga nakilala mo sa isang event o meetup, exhibit, concert, community gathering, pero hindi kayo naging close. May mga nakilala mo sa online forum o group chat tungkol sa hilig niyo, pero lumipas ang panahon at nag-iba ang priorities. May mga nakilala mo dahil kaibigan niya ang kaibigan mo, o kaibigan niya ng kaibigan mo, small talk lang pero may kwento. May mga nakilala mo sa short project o collaboration, pero pagkatapos ng deadline, nawala rin. May mga nakilala mo sa klase o seminar, sandali lang pero may alaala. May mga nakilala mo sa mga lugar na madalas mong puntahan, cafe, bookstore, library, ngunit hindi nagtagal ang interaction. May mga nakilala mo sa fandom o hilig na pareho niyo, pero hindi na naipagpatuloy ang conversation. May mga nakilala mo sa travel o trip, train, bus, plane, sandali lang pero may kwento kayong napag-usapan. May mga nakilala mo sa social media sa pamamagitan ng mutual friend, pero hindi niyo na na-develop ang connection.

Ngayon, iniisip mo minsan: kamusta na kaya sila? Siguro may ilan na abala sa trabaho o sa school, pero naiisip pa rin ang mga kwento niyo na dati. Siguro may natututo ng bagong bagay, naglalakbay sa lugar na pinangarap, o tahimik lang sa mundo na may sariling paraan ng pag-alala sa nakaraan. May ilan na nakahanap ng bagong gawi, bagong libangan, bagong mundo na hindi mo na bahagi. At may ilan rin na natuto sa mga sandaling iyon, mga kwento, tampuhan, at tawanan, at dala niya iyon sa mga desisyon niya ngayon.

Lahat ng sandaling iyon, parang dumarating lang at dumadaan. May pakiramdam, may kwento, pero nagiging memorya na lang.

Kaya kung umabot ka sa bahaging ito dahil hindi ka tinamad basahin ang gawa ko, puwede mo akong kamustahin. Malay mo, baka nag-usap na tayo dati. Siguro isa sa atin ang hindi nag-reply kaya naputol ang ugnayan. Pero wag ka mag-alala, kapag nag-mensahe ka ng "Kamusta?", hindi kita sasagutin ng "Ayos lang, ikaw ba?" kundi ikukwento ko pa kung kamusta na ako talaga.

I created this account four years ago. I’ve been on Tumblr since I was 15 and this is my third (?) account which was supposed to be a private one. I don’t usually publish posts here just because I don’t think they’re worthy to be read.

And if you’re wondering why I don’t use my previous accounts, I unfortunately forgot the login credentials haha. As of writing this I have yet to finish reading 117 pages of cases for my class tomorrow plus a pending report. I don’t even know why I’m doing this instead but I promise to go back to reading after writing my thoughts.

I suddenly had the urge to start publishing my posts again after years of not doing so. And although I have no idea who’s going to read what I write, it gives me a sense of comfort that someone’s here. Someone wants to know what I have to say. I’ll probably just rant, or maybe not. Sometimes I’ll write what I feel, sometimes I’ll write about other people; just like how I used to in my previous blogs, you won’t really know.

i discovered two shows this month: great pretender and restaurant to another world !

★ great pretender

this anime is about a young man who regards himself as the best con-man in japan-- only to be conned himself! the series follows his [unlikely] con adventures along with like-minded people.

the visuals in this show is fantastic. the colors are vibrant and they’re totally my jam. case in point:

once i start a case, i tend to binge it until the end haha. it’s very intriguing to know how it would end, because there are always wild cards around. although sometimes, just don’t think [logically] too much and just enjoy how the con unfolds~ xD

★ restaurant to another world

this anime is exactly what the title is-- a restaurant to another world. every saturday, the door to western cuisine nekoya (that’s what the restaurant is called) opens to a different world much different from planet earth. in that world, elves, dwarves, magicians/sages, humans, and half-humans exist, who would enter nekoya to dine. it’s pretty much just that; so yes, it’s a slice of life reverse isekai with lots of good food! aka a relaxing show uwu

i initially discovered the original light novel of the series (the anime is an adaptation of it) through the seven seas monthly licensing survey and decided to try it out. i like it so much that i’m on a quest to find physical copies of the light novels! it seems like volume 1 is out of print everywhere, so i decided to get the ebook instead. if i have extra funds by the end of the month, i might go ahead and import volume 2 *w*

★ ☆ ~ ★ ☆ ~ ★ ☆

to you, who can't sleep at night doubting your worth;

to you, who only want acceptance and belonging, but was given the opposite;

to you, who only loves deeply but got tears in return:

you are enough. you are worth it.

not because someone made you feel worthless does it mean you really are,

only you could determine your self-worth.

most of the time, those who make us feel down are the ones who aren't worthy of our time

they know our worth, but doesn't acknowledge it.

but, if ever, someone doesn't really see our worth

it may be best to just let that someone go,

you'll never stop asking for your worth as long as you have that someone around you.

let us stick to those who are always after what's best for us

for they are the ones who really are worth keeping

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