finding solace

"You were the first person I felt so unsure of, but yet so overwhelmingly sure of at the same time. That was the scariest part I think, I had no idea what I was doing, yet I knew I just wanted it to be you"

And in those silent moments I wondered if love was something I'd ever learn how to navigate. I hate failing. Waiting and trying always tested my patience yet here I am, risking failure, learning to accept the discipline from waiting and trying. All because I want to keep you.

When the waiting stretches longer than it should and the silence grows teeth, should I keep on holding space for something that might never fully arrive?

The sail stood still amidst the howling wind. Thunders stroked the sky in flames of blue, at sync with the waves crashing as darkness consumed my sight of the coast. Does it end here? I wondered. But peace came in the middle of nowhere. Peace despite not knowing what lies ahead. And until I find what I'm desperately looking for, and if I ever do find it, I'll hold on to this just a bit more.

She walks on eggshells around people, but never around him.

If there's one thing people should know about me, I like to disappear a lot. I need my own space, my quiet time. I go out but only for people who are worth investing time for, those who don't drain my energy. Hirap ieexplain nito sa mga bagong tao na nakikilala ko haha.