#blindspots

now to the real world... i think it's pretty obvious at this point hope is josie's blindspot, she loses sleep researching on how to get hope back, skips dates and breakfasts with her girlfriend for hope.. as finch said, josie is "spiraling". but this episode we also saw how josie is hope's blindspot as well, humanity or no humanity.. the way she stopped when she realized it's not dark josie anymore and her demeanor faltered, she backed off and didn't hurt her & then later only put her in the therapy box, which, as mg said "hope could've dont a lot worse than trapping her in a therapy box… it’s actually the safest place for her".

all while putting alaric in his deathbed & and harming others for way less. if anyone other than josie spoke to hope the way dark josie did, they would not come out of there alive. josie was like the one person to actually challenge her mentally. hope also realized josie is the one person who would never give up on her. she also knows josie got the best shot out of the super squad at bringing her back (hope: "are you gonna bring out the A team or what?" "since josie won't come out to play.." "what took you so long?") yet couldn't find it in herself even with her humanity off, to kill the biggest threat to her humanity-less. even though what she fears of is getting her humanity back.

(also it was so funny when josie told lizzie, smiling "don't you get it? she didn't kill me!" hahaha the bar is in hell, josie is so down bad but she's right. this just proved hope is not too far gone)

Your inability to look beyond what you desire to be true has skewed your capacity to respond with empathy. Your ideology has morphed into a prison. Your heart is rotting from the inside out.

You do not notice. You have covered all your mirrors with cloth. You are dreading the juncture where you cannot refute yourself, where you are made known.

Your luster is fading. It is being replaced by a changeling force. The capacity for evil grows in places where it is least noticed. Your lungs are expanding. Your breath tastes of justice. In your hands is a knife.

Blind Spots: How Knowing About Them Can Help Move You, Those You Know, and All of Humanity Forward

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Have you ever considered your blind spots? No? Probably not, seeing as we are blind to them. What in the world are they, and how do they function; and, even more importantly, what can we do about them? Alright, let’s take a look.

What is a blind spot; and, how do they function?

You know what you know, right? Okay. Let me write it this way. You are aware…

*So this is a sports post but it works for life and medicine I swear. *

Have someone in your life, a friend, a partner, a mentor; someone who sees the things you miss.

Last night I was playing hockey with a really irritated right eye, so I couldn’t see well and had a pretty large blind spot where everything was super blurry. My field of vision sucked and that’s really hard as a goalie.

Lucky for me I had a defenseman who, through what I’m assuming was a perfect combination of hockey sense and having been my best friend for many years, went above and beyond to cover my blindspot both by talking to me (she’s already pretty vocal but made sure to be extra specific with telling me the puck was loose, where it was, and who was around me) and by putting herself exactly where I needed cover when that’s what I needed.

The rest of my defense played well. Really well actually. But only one could read my blind spots. Not even my wife could do that for me last night. I needed someone to tell me what I wasn’t seeing.

And that’s where it doesn’t just apply to hockey. You need someone to see the things you don’t in life. This same defenseman has been my friend for a long time. She knows me really well. She sees my blindspots. When I was dating a girl who was controlling and abusive and I didn’t see it (this girl was so good at gaslighting it’s scary) she saw my blind spots. She and my sister were the ones telling me day in and day out. Because they saw what I couldn’t. When I’m bumming super hard about being “behind” with going to med school. They’re the ones pointing out the things I’m not seeing that made this in between time worthwhile. They often see the things I don’t. Sometimes it’s a partner catching something you didn’t see in an ekg, or stopping you from making a mistake. Sometimes it’s someone who reminds you that you don’t suck when you’re pretty convinced you do.

I don’t think I have actually? I’ve never become obsessed over anybody before as far as I’m aware. I actually think being an sx-blind 5 is a reason, bc as a 5 I want to detach from everything and keep distance (therefore avoiding situations that could involve sx bonding), and since I’m sx-blind detaching from people is natural for me. I know what it’s like to feel very confused and awkward at times when I want to be close to people, but I think that’s just normal “idk how to use this” and not “I’m going to desperately try this thing idk how to use”

I made a tiny post a while ago about the only thing that I consciously think could be me overfocusing on sx would be about how I overanalyze everything related to sx and that’s how I manage to write long posts on my epiphanies related to sx-blindness. I may “overfocus” on sx in a way that’s simply me obsessed with finding out what it is on its own, not really applying it to a certain person or thing and it staying in a purely theoretical space. I suppose in that way it does relate to my type, as an Ni-dom and a 5 that keeps everything contained in an unrealistic headspace.

Which of course could make many if not most of my perceptions wrong but thank God I have high Fe to check myself against real things I’ve observed in other people and relate based on that. If I didn’t have high Fe I’d suck so that’s that

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