#becomingme

never looking back. no plan. no direction. learned to tread the thin line between unshaken trust and blind carelessness. hurled my limbs into the lungs of uncertainty. and rose upon the wings of courage. faith wove feathers upon my spine. and carried me home. and it was here, i retraced my roots. reawakened my origins. it was here, i fell in love. with the soft flicker of light whispering through roadside fields at dusk. the feeling of collapsing into bed at night after racing through forests barefoot until the last sliver of sunlight melts beneath crystalline coastlines. the bond i have to this place is indescribable. it cannot be touched by words alone. i learned to see every inch of my being through the eyes of unconditional compassion, and this illumination gradually grew until it became my living reflection in all that surrounded me. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #ocean #freedom #poems #vegan #becomingme #love (at Glass Beach)

Just a lonely brown-eyed boy 🤷🏻‍♂️

Pre T vs 2 months. So excited for more changes in the future. . . . . . #pret #comparison #testosterone #hrt #vitamint #hormones #thisiswhattranslookslike #transpride #ftm #ftmsupport #ftmfitness #ftmmagazine #ftmtransition #ftmtransgender #transgenderftm #trans #transguy #transman #transition #transgender #transgenderpride #lgbt #lgbtq #queer #happy #becomingme

Almost a week into my journey to becoming the man I was born to be and I couldn't be more content with my life. I have a girl that I am crazy about that supports this journey and wants to be on it with me. I have a best friend that has supported me through all of the bad and the good decisions that I have made over the last 8 years that is just as excited as I am about this journey. I have a family that supports me even though they don't completely understand it all yet. But mostly, I'm happy, I'm healthy, and I'm finally transitioning. It's been a long wait, but the wait is over, now I'm just waiting to watch my appearance shift into what I should see when I look into a mirror.

I’m tired of waiting to be perfect. So here’s a beginning. I want to find my voice that had been buried and silenced, thinking that I am not worthy and that I have nothing of value to offer. I am scared. The fear of failure has stopped me so many times from doing the things I want. I'm afraid to be judged but I know nobody really cares about what I do, nobody is really watching me. I'm just scared by the idea of it. This is going to be the place where I share my thoughts about the things I've loved that I kept hidden because I didn't think I had the right to enjoy them at my age and by what I haven't accomplished yet in life. I wish for myself to have a good year. I wish to be focused to reach my goals. And not to self-sabotage. I wish for myself not to listen to my limiting beliefs that I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not good at writing, I'm not good at speaking, I'm not good at making friends, I'm not skilled enough to be successful, I've been left behind, I peaked at highschool, I'm a disappointment, I'm a failure. Starting today, I will be kinder to myself. I will love myself not because I have the perfect body, the perfect career, the big house and nice car, the perfect relationship, or the perfect life. But because right now as I am is worthy to be loved. I don't have to prove anything to anyone or to myself. Even if I'm imperfect, I'm still worthy. And life is still long (based on average life expectancy lol), I still have lots of time to do what I want in life, to be the best I can be, to learn the things I want, to enjoy the things I love, and to experience the things I want. Happy birthday to me! May you have good health and good life. May you create all the things you want. And may you have the freedom and security that you want in life. Love you, you crazy amazing person!

At 21, I didn’t have it all figured out, and I still don’t. But I’ve learned to appreciate the beauty of not knowing. Life isn’t about arriving at a destination - it’s about moving forward, even when the path is unclear.