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SONAMY: Beneath the Surface

A little sonamy comic about dreams and feelings that haven't quite reached the surface yet (❤️´艸｀) Funny how you don't always realize how much someone means to you until they're no longer by your side... (post-frontiers!) Sonic's dense and oblivious to his own romantic feelings... but maybe a little distance is exactly what he needs to start noticing?

and then on the day of the show, my friend asks, "where is the camera I requested?"

gallerist: "you didn't request a camera"

my friend: "I did, and you confirmed that you would have one here."

gallerist: "that isn't true."

and then she proceeded to pull up the email thread, and my friend could see that every single email they had sent had been summarized by AI, and that the gallerist had then had AI write a response to them based on the AI summary, and that the AI had detected that they needed a camera, and confirmed on behalf of the gallerist that they would bring a camera, but because the gallerist had offloaded the work of actually reading and responding, she simply hadn't actually made any note of it herself, therefore didn't bring it, nor did she even know one was needed.

Okay, when? When would he have had time? During the 400 years he was in the clutches of a cult and therefore all he could think about was their programming? Is that when he should’ve worked though it?

And how? Where would he have learned to do that? Who was challenging him? Mind you the nature of his abuse both through Marius and the cult were examples of grooming. Even if he worked through everything at the brothels, which he hasn’t, that’s still hundreds of years he’s got left to sift through and it was all things he was instructed and manipulated into not questioning.

It’s not as if Lestat broke up the cult and handed Armand a series of leaflets about cult deprogramming and recommended a therapist. He just guided him into the leadership position at the theatre where he was just enforcing the very same things the cult was having him do. He has never worked through any of it because he’s never been able to have time or perspective. He is frozen. That’s his entire thing. Trapped in victimhood. Never able to move on.

Not to mention that the extent of his abuse is utterly incomprehensible to the human mind. If we endure too much, we just die. He has to continue. Centuries of damage being done so someone so young.

Quit forcing 21st century standards onto someone from the 16th century. It just doesn’t work. When could he have done any of this? With Louis? Louis who infamously is in deep denial about his own trauma? Who is from the 20th century?

Even comparing the mindsets of Lestat and Armand is absurd. They’re both from a long time ago but Armand has several centuries on Lestat. Do you understand how much change the world can go through in a couple of hundred years?

You heard me right. Two. White. Women.

Which is fucking insane in itself, but on the first day of class one of the professors was reading an article, written by a black woman…and decided that it was completely acceptable and appropriate to drop the n-word (hard r) and every single person in class was fucking MORTIFIED. Even in the context of education, there was no reason for a white professor to so casually and subtly use that word. (They were called out for it immediately after and profusely apologized)

My point is that covert racism is still racism, and unfortunately it is alive and well.

I also have all of the articles and works saved from this class if anyone would like to do some heavy and necessary reading! I have hard copies, but I’m sure I can find the links for the articles as well.

Just after doing a little research on google, I found these articles to be incredibly helpful on breaking down covert racism, racism, white privilege, etc.

covert racism

systematic racism

racism and health

becoming trustworthy white allies

what is white privilege

books on systematic racism, racial justice, and anti-racism

race equity tools

And they have to defend the show because they could get fucking fired if they don’t, actors can’t just talk shit about a project that they are still contracted to, so don’t get upset when they don’t directly start going off about how much they hate the show and the characters and the writing.

Mom ushering her kids away from the 70yo man bowling alone and yelling at a bowling ball bag: