I'd Give Eraserhead

The shower doesn't help clear Hitoshi's mind.

If anything, the steady onslaught of water pattering against his back serves only to monotonise the entire experience until he's been standing long enough for his fingers to have pruned, absently staring at the tiles and reliving the past hour of his life in painful clarity. Mind rewinding and replaying the events—the flutter of your pussy cumming around Aizawa's thick cock, the easy dominance which laced his voice, how his Sensei had eyed the cumstain on Hitoshi's pants in shameless amusement—over and over and over.

A film reel of every moment Hitoshi succumbed to his arousal, every fortified defence that fell under his watch.

Hitoshi rubs the wrinkly pads of his fingers together and shuts his eyes for a deep, measured breath before turning off the shower and stepping out. He avoids looking in the mirror, no matter how fogged up it may be. The last thing he needs to see is a post-orgasm flush to his face when he already feels as though he's being held together by nothing more than sheer willpower alone. Drying himself off with brutal efficiency, he leans into the darkness that the towel provides while he tries to gather himself into a human being again. He scoops the leaking desire up. Brushes away the mist insistently clinging to the corners of his mind. Steadies the gentle tremor of his hands—present since Aizawa guided him towards the corner-chair where two large hands eclipsed his shoulders, pushing him down, down, down—and pretends it all works.

In the end, he figures the best way to dispel the uneasiness swirling in his gut will be to seeyou. To make sure you're okay and settle whatever dom-part of his brain has been knocked loose during the scene. He wraps the towel around his waist and pads back into the bedroom, content with his newfound plan and the sense of control it provides his skittish mind.

However, that loose part of his brain? Yeah, it must be hanging on by a scant thread, because he didn't account for Aizawa's presence. And thus, Hitoshi's steps falter right at the threshold to his bedroom like he's seeing his Sensei for the very first time.

For a second, he can't breathe.

Some vital part of him feels left behind in the humid air of Aizawa's bathroom. Another is still sitting in the chair. He thinks he might be losing the final part right now as crimson eyes flicker up, assessing. Aizawa remains silent, sitting by your side, yet Hitoshi is rooted to the spot. Toes curl into the carpet, fingers clutch the edge of his damp towel with knuckles bled of colour. He isn't sure what his expression is at this moment, but it can't be anything good. Not with the way his heart is thundering so fiercely in his chest, he half expects it to break free from its bony cage and hit the ground between them.

"Shinsou," Aizawa finally murmurs in greeting, and his name slices clean through the tethers binding Hitoshi in place.

Hitoshi inhales before forcing a languid smile. Like someone who's just cum and is happy about it. Not whatever pointless conflict is currently waging in his brain. Not the way in which his disquiet only seems to worsen as he observes Aizawa—shirtless, midnight hair cascading over his broad shoulders like the boughs of a willow tree, grey sweats hung sinfully low on his hips. His phone rests in one limp hand, open on a social media app that Hitoshi doesn't currently have the mental capacity to place, and his other hand strokes along your spine. Though it slowly draws to a stop when Hitoshi utters a small, "Sensei," in reply.

Crossing the space with a measured steadiness, Hitoshi pauses by your side, knees knocking into the mattress's edge, and casts his eyes over your blanket-covered body. Aizawa's hand is splayed wide in the dip of your back, right above the swell of your ass. For some reason, Hitoshi lingers on the sight. There's a strangely possessive air to the action. A hand in Hitoshi's home; the spot he brushes when he passes you in the kitchen; or presses to coax you through a crowd, into his body after a long day, along the muscles of his thigh when you're too desperate to do anything but rut against him like an animal in heat.

Hitoshi nibbles at his bottom lip. Aizawa's eyes are on him, burning like a brand and impossibly tangible in every sense of the word. Yet he feels removed from it. As though the knowledge of his weirdness—because he knows he's not acting normal; after all, who lingers on their scene partner caring for another like this?—is secondary to the tacky, syrupy slowness of his thoughts. As though he no longer cares if Aizawa believes him to be wrong. Or bad. Or silly. As though the only thing that matters to him now is seeing to it that you're alright—you are—and the unfailing presence of Aizawa's hand on your body, like he's trying to keep you tethered to him and the world, even in your sleep. Meanwhile, Hitoshi feels a heartbeat away from floating up into the aether.

Distantly, he realises something isn't quite right about the feeling. That it's eerily similar to how you've described your existence during scenes with him, after them sometimes, too. The recognition crawls through his honeyed mind, sinking deeper with each step until it submerges entirely, disappearing from Hitoshi's consciousness. Because Hitoshi is a dom, through and through. So realistically, he knows his brain must be protesting his lack of control, his lack of aftercare, his lack of a hand in the divot of your spine. All normal, dom-concerns and nothing that won't wear off once his hindbrain chills the fuck out.

This panic is merely transitory. As all things are.

"Shinsou," Aizawa repeats, drawing up from his relaxed slouch.

Hitoshi lifts his head in muted acknowledgement but doesn't turn to his Sensei.

You're clean. Aizawa's doing. You're warm and buried under a soft, thick blanket. Aizawa's doing. You're safe, watched over like a baby. Aizawa's doing.

Fingers itching to also do something, anything—to be a useful dom, to fulfil his obligations and wrap up the scene properly, to move through the motions until his brain finally realises that it's over—he gently combs through your hair. Then, Hitoshi's hand drifts down your spine, feeling each bump through the blanket. Venturing as close as he dares to where Aizawa's long fingers stake their claim, and ignoring whatever voice tells him to touch.

"Sensei," Hitoshi echoes. The word, intended to be a comfort, a one-word I'm fine, leaves his mouth in a whisper.

Aizawa's still staring at him, but he can't bring himself to bristle—to feel anything but wrong and weird and off-balance. Like he's drifting out to sea with each passing breath.

His fingers trace back up your spine, across your shoulder, up the one arm you've splayed out on the bed in your sleep. He notes the softness of your skin under the pads of his fingers. The smattering of fine hair. The bones of your wrist, your knuckles. He quietly eases his fingers beneath yours and holds your hand, loose and barely-there—he doesn't want to wake you, but he needs to hold you so bad the desire feels like it may split him clean in half, cracking his ribcage like a geode. There will be no shimmering crystals inside him. In fact, he fears there may be nothing at all. His thoughts feel so far from his brain it's a wonder he's still… him.

"What's going on in that head of yours?" Aizawa asks lowly, voice sliding over Hitoshi's skin like a satin-soft ribbon. Like the smooth, unforgiving grip of his capture weapon. He has a sudden urge to laugh at the question, but can't quite remember what's so funny about it. All he manages is a shaky exhale. "You're not usually this quiet with me."

"I…" Hitoshi's tongue is heavy and uncooperative in his mouth. In the end, all he manages is a subdued, "It's not you.

Aizawa doesn't reply, and when Hitoshi finally glances away from you, his Sensei's penetrating gaze is enough to make him cower.

"I'll be okay in a minute," he adds after clearing his throat, trying to dispel the airy quality it's taken on without his permission as he glances away again.

So much for impressing his Sensei. Showing him how well he handles his scenes and how carefully he looks after you. All he's doing instead is demonstrating his idiocy, clutching onto your hand like a lifeline and skating around whatever prying Aizawa is attempting, despite the endless well of good faith Hitoshi knows it's coming from.

"Alright," Aizawa acquiesces easily, letting the topic drop.

What could be seconds or hours later, Hitoshi's stare, anchored on your peaceful expression, is disrupted by a fond exhale. What there is to be amused about right now, though, Hitoshi has no idea. A phone drops with a soft thud onto the mattress behind Aizawa, and he leans back onto his hands casually, a big palm withdrawing from your body.

"Come here."

Hitoshi's body jerks, familiar with acting upon his Sensei's words before he even registers doing so—the heat of a battle is no place he questions Aizawa's command—before he remembers he's still holding your hand. For a split second, he's torn between the pain of letting you go and the wrongness of disobeying a direct order. A request? A question? Thinking back, Hitoshi can't actually recall what tone his Sensei used, though it doesn't seem to matter to his body, every muscle drawn tight in anticipation of following through.

"She's fine, Shinsou."

Hitoshi glances down to confirm his words.

You are fine.

Clean. Warm. Safe.

Hitoshi loops the words like a mantra, clinging to the little comfort they provide.

Aizawa pitches his voice down like he's soothing a spooked animal. "I'll look after her."

Is that meant for him?

Turbulent waters peter out into calm.

When has his Sensei ever lied to him?

(Never, the traitorous voice in his head whispers.)

Hitoshi brushes a thumb over your knuckles before drawing back his hand. There's a hesitation as he turns to Aizawa. But then the corner of his Sensei's mouth is twitching up, and Hitoshi is moving, taking a step, two, halting awkwardly in the space between Aizawa's feet. There's no hand in his own to ground him anymore, nor the mattress bumping his knees. He feels himself float higher, all the while Aizawa doesn't move an inch.

"You feelin' okay?"

Hitoshi nods, tightens his fingers in his towel, tries to quell the urge to curve his shoulders inwards and cover his bare chest. His bare-everything, really. The towel feels like a meagre cover, and even though Aizawa is only wearing sweats himself, the air of confidence his Sensei exudes is making Hitoshi feel small in a way he never does. Hitoshi's damp skin breaks out into gooseflesh.

Aizawa's gaze flickers down to his towel, back up to his face. "You enjoyed the scene?"

Another nod.

Because he did. He came in his pants like a goddamn teenager; of course, he enjoyed the scene. Got off on seeing his girlfriend fucked by another man, doubly so because it was Aizawa. Which he didn't particularly want to unpack right now, but now the aforementioned man is tilting his head slightly and staring up at Hitoshi, dark hair slipping off his shoulders and into the air behind him, and he can't help but notice just how much he did love it. His dick twitches at the memory of Aizawa's crimson eyes flashing to his as he came, how he reduced you to a crying, sobbing mess with a speed frankly terrifying to Hitoshi.

"Are we…" Aizawa visibly cycles through different dialogue options before settling on, "…okay?"

Hitoshi startles at the notion that Aizawa would even ask that. Unfortunately, this only deepens the frown forming on his Sensei's face.

"Are we okay, Shinsou?"

"Yes!" Hitoshi blurts, a hand reaching out to… he doesn't even know what, really. The smidgen of panic creeping into the edges of his brain helps clear the fog a little. Hand lingering in the air between them, faint tremors wrack his fingers before dropping uselessly to his side. "Yes, we're— we're okay, Sensei. More than okay." He swallows back another admission. "I promise."

Aizawa nods to himself now, and Hitoshi notices the relieved way he relaxes his shoulders, face smoothing out into his familiarly neutral expression. There's a tiny smirk on his lips, though, like his Sensei's thoughts are meandering from worry into something Hitoshi can't quite place.

Hitoshi shivers. Flicks his eyes between Aizawa's. Tries to match his shallow breaths to his Sensei's slow, even ones.

"Do you want to kneel for me, Shinsou?"

Instead, Aizawa decides to derail it all.

Hitoshi's mouth opens and closes around words he can't find. The tremors in his hands worsen, and he takes a halted step backwards. Just one. Like he can't decide if running would even be worth it. Who then has to ignore the traitorous arousal pooling in his gut at the thought of being caught by his Sensei—at the capture weapon wound tight around his torso, arms pinned to his side, at hearing the exerted puffs of Aizawa's breath as his Sensei leers over him in victory.

"No, I…"

Leaning forward, Aizawa braces his elbows on his thighs, staring up at Hitoshi in a way that shouldn't be intimidating, yet it is.

"Doesn't have to mean anything." Aizawa shrugs carefully, as though toeing a thin line Hitoshi can't see. His head dips meaningfully as he studies Hitoshi's petrified expression. "And it doesn't make you less of a dom."

"I don't need to kneel," Hitoshi stresses, taking another step back.

"I know that," Aizawa replies easily. "I know that, Shinsou. You don't need anything. Anyone. You don't need me, and I've had to force myself into your life and fight to keep my place." A humourless laugh that only serves to confuse Hitoshi more. Hitoshi's eyes flicker to you. "I see you because I'm the same… That doesn't mean you can't want, though."

The ground feels liquid beneath his feet, and Hitoshi's stomach swoops—insides lurching up into his throat in place of all the words he wants to yell, all the denials fighting their way out.

Hitoshi flashes Aizawa a warning glance. Takes another step back. "I don't want to kneel, either."

Clearly contemplating his words, Aizawa stares up at him. Hitoshi shifts, uncomfortable as some of the fog bleeds away to awkwardness, to memories of exactly how he reacted to his Sensei fucking his girlfriend in a way he'll never be able to take back. Never be able to hide or deny. It's all out there—every mistake he's made this evening. And you're fast asleep, satiated, exhausted, drifting through dreamland and unable to help.

Hitoshi has ruined everything.

Both his relationships. The respect he's spent a decade cultivating with his Sensei, with the only man who's seen through to his core and decided to stay, who's raised him, cared for him, loved him. You—who's been by his side through his highest of highs and his lowest of lows, who's endlessly forgiving, patient, and all manner of beautiful qualities Hitoshi could never hope to deserve, even given a millennium to try.

Fog creeps back into his brain, pervasive, leaving no crack, corner, or crevice untouched by its wispy fingers.

Breaths come quicker, come shallow. Barely reaching his lungs before another takes its place.

Prickling numbness coats his fingers and creeps up his arms.

Then, voice cracking over the words, "Why do I want to kneel, Sensei?"

Aizawa's expression turns kind.

"Shinsou…"

"I don't…" His mouth flaps like a fish out of water. A hand squeezes his towel until it hurts. "I don't understand… What is wrong with me? Why did I have to… to," purple hair twisted between fingers, "to be like this."

At once, the air is suffocating his lungs.

"I'm sorry," Hitoshi gasps helplessly, the stirrings of a sob marring his words. Panic sweeps him under, and his eyes dance everywhere but Aizawa. "God, I'm so sorry, Sensei."

Say something, Hitoshi thinks. Say something, say something, say something!

Yell at me. Snap out of it.

Leave.

Don't go.

Aizawa rises from the bed.

Flinching like he's been struck, Hitoshi feels the big hands on his shoulders long before they make contact; as though the few deafening heartbeats it takes for Aizawa to cross the space contain a thousand lifetimes. Aizawa cradles his trembling form like he's trying to hold him together. Better Aizawa attempt such a feat than Hitoshi, who couldn't hold anyone together right now, last of all his splintering mind. A mind that prides itself on breaking you down and putting you back together; a mind recognising it is falling apart, yet able to do nothing but helplessly watch.

Steering him like a tugboat, Aizawa drags Hitoshi backwards step by step. Hitoshi follows dazedly, putting up no fight against his Sensei.

"Back to her."

The first words to leave Aizawa's mouth. His familiar smooth drawl is an immediate balm on Hitoshi's panic. The side of his knee bumps the mattress's edge as he obeys, turning his back to you. A brief jolt of uncertainty strikes through him. But it has no time to settle.

Pressure on his shoulders.

Deeper this time, as though Aizawa is trying to burn the shape of his fingers into the muscle Hitoshi has built there. Hitoshi stares at his Sensei uncomprehendingly.

What does his Sensei want?

There's a suspended moment of silence—anticipation hanging heavy in the air. Aizawa fits his palms to Hitoshi's shoulders and depresses them with force anew. Hitoshi feels their comforting weight and considers asking if he can stay beneath it forever.

"Shinsou," Aizawa repeats pointedly, drawing him back to the present.

"Sensei," he replies, voice small against his will. A call to a summons. An echo to a shout.

Exhaling a short breath, the corner of Aizawa's lip twitches up. Before Hitoshi can process what's happening, a foot catches the back of his knee, and he meets the ground with a harsh thump, knees knocking into carpet with surprising force. The impact reverberates up his thighs and straight through his core.

Against his will, Hitoshi moans.

Aizawa's eyebrows rise into his hairline. Hitoshi hears the incriminating noise bounce off every wall in the room and slap him across the face some long, viscid seconds later. Wincing, he quickly ducks his head in shame. Blood burns in his cheeks. What the hell is wrong with him? First, he's arguing his insistence against kneeling and the next moment he's moaning when his Sensei forces the choice upon him. Some fucking hero he is…

Some fucking Sensei Aizawa is, too.

"Oh?"

Let the ground swallow me, Hitoshi begs. Let it swallow me and be done with it.

"Shut up," he grits out, forcing the lingering remnants of the moan from his voice until it hardens like cooling sugar, one wrong move away from its brittle exterior shattering into innumerable pieces.

Aizawa hums. "I don't think you should be telling me to shut up right now."

Hitoshi hates how his skin breaks out into gooseflesh at his Sensei's degrading croon. Hates even more how he can feel arousal stirring in his gut at the sight of Aizawa's bare feet in his vision, the soft sweat sitting on the bone of his ankle, the knowledge that if he looks up now, he'd have to drag his eyes up every godforsaken inch of the man before he could meet his eyes. How he's kneeling at his feet—like a defeated villain, like a sweet pet… like a fucking sub.

Embarrassment swirls around him.

"Fuck off," he bites cruelly, trying to regain some of the ground he's lost.

Hitoshi should turn tail and run, but he can't seem to get his body to cooperate. Legs leaden and heavy, glued to the ground by no more than Aizawa's presence. A hand lands on the crown of his head, and the immediate relief the touch brings, paired with his brain's comparison to an owner petting their dog, brings nothing but misery and strife.

"All bark and no bite."

Aizawa punctuates his words with a gentle ruffle of Hitoshi's damp hair.

Hitoshi wants to bristle. Truly, he does. Instead, he leans into the touch with about as much shame as you had on his Sensei's cock earlier—drinking in the feeling of big fingers engulfing his skull, the pads of fingers brushing his scalp with a gentleness belying the strength of the man above him. Each reply that Hitoshi tries to summon peers out of his mouth before deciding to hide in his throat. Hitoshi wishes he could hide, too. But that would mean leaving Aizawa, separating himself from the soft touch of his mentor and crawling back to the thrum of panic he can feel lying in wait for his walls to fall again—for Aizawa to slip up in his careful defence of Hitoshi's mind.

A decision has never been made so simple.

"You look good like this," Aizawa says colloquially, as though commenting on a particularly sunny day when the forecast had predicted rain. A dash of surprise. An overwhelming sweep of pleasure. The confirmed knowledge that every day can bring the unexpected.

Exhaling a shaky breath, Hitoshi bows his head deeper, refusing to acknowledge his words.

"Always knew you would."

At that, Hitoshi freezes—his muscles drawing taut and still, the breath he was inhaling lodging in the base of his trachea. Yet he doesn't look up. Can't, really. Because seeing whatever expression Aizawa is wearing would surely be his undoing, the gust of wind to topple his wobbling house of cards. Hitoshi immediately braces, prepared for his mind to be unsettled by the statement, for his dominance to feel challenged.

"Sensei," he ends up gasping, voice strangled like someone has a fist around his larynx.

Why does he only feel relief?

Fingers slide from his crown to his nape and settle there like ownership. Hitoshi shivers under them, his body visibly riding the wave of arousal that washes over him. He can feel his cock stirring under his towel, and he clutches it tighter, both fists tight around the waist. It's humiliating, really, the way he's reacting to such a simple touch. But there's a weight behind it that his body and mind aren't used to, a possessiveness potent enough to give him vertigo.

"What is it?"

"I don't…"

Hitoshi swallows.

Then, words tumble from his lips like a malfunctioning speaker, so rapid that each merges into the last until it's one messy string of distress.

"Sensei, Idon'tknowhowtodothis," a shuddering inhale, "I don't know how to—"

Submit.

I don't know how to submit. I'm afraid I'm going to embarrass myself. I'm afraid I'll be bad. I'm afraid I'm going to make you hate me. I'm afraid I'm going to mess everything up.

Most of all, I'm afraid I'll like it.

"You don't have to know, Shinsou," Aizawa sighs, like he always does when he thinks Hitoshi is caught up in the whirlwind raging inside his head. "Just listen to Sensei, hm?"

Hitoshi finds himself agreeing before he can think better of it, head bobbing along obediently. A hot flash emanates from the hand on his nape when Aizawa's thumb brushes behind his ear comfortingly in response, and all it ends up doing is making Hitoshi shudder. Aizawa laughs lowly, the sound curling around Hitoshi's brain and quieting it that much more.

Listen to Sensei.

Hitoshi can do that. Has been doing that since he was fifteen—looking up to Aizawa and hanging onto his every word, working day and night to become an underground hero worthy of the title of Eraser Head's protégé. The request is as familiar as breathing, as easy as Aizawa broke you down less than an hour ago. A day ago? Hitoshi feels like he may have been kneeling at Aizawa's feet forever. Does time always pass so strangely? Like it's stretching and compressing at will, leaving him no more certain of this moment than the last, no more cowed by the next moment than the one he's currently in.

A shuffle of fabric and the hand on his nape rotates, the feet in his vision moving as Aizawa takes a seat on the edge of the bed. Hitoshi sits perpendicular. There's an urge to lean forward, to knock his forehead onto the thigh before him and let his thoughts turn warm and soupy. He sways slightly, as though the indecision is a physical thing. Aizawa widens his fingers—sliding the heat of his palm down to the middle of Hitoshi's bared back, back up the notches of his spine and into his damp hair. Aizawa's fingertips splay across his scalp, and the sensation makes him shiver.

None of this helps the urge.

Hitoshi exhales under its insistence; face screwing up against it and jaw gritting against a low whine.

He can't remember how long he's been like this, how long it's been since he looked at Aizawa. All he can focus on is the thick thigh in front of him, calling his name like a siren's song, and the pleasant static between his ears; as though Aizawa is smoothing his thoughts out into quiet with only the big, warm breadth of his palm gliding from his hair down his spine, and back up again until Hitoshi isn't sure precisely what it was he panicked about earlier.

This is nice, he thinks quietly, right as he gives in—forehead dropping onto the side of Aizawa's thigh. Aizawa tenses under him, just once, and then Hitoshi is drifting. Nasty worries about the scene, about his standing as a dom, about his relationships fading to the recesses of his mind, like they're being leeched out from him by the steadiness of Aizawa, by the strong muscles under his face.

This is nice...

───

Eventually, the fog subsides.

"—sou."

A hand stills on his nape. Warm. Always so warm.

"—insou."

Hitoshi could melt, could sink back into the balmy waters like a stone.

"Shinsou…"

Sensei.

Hitoshi blinks tired eyes open to the sight of the carpet and almost closes them right away, the sweet call of darkness all too tempting.

Where is he again?

"You with me?"

Sensei's house. At his feet.

You're asleep on the bed.

Yes.

Some half-hearted, throaty hum makes itself known in place of his intended reply.

"Not quite then," Sensei chuckles, fingers tightening briefly, digging into Hitoshi's skin—who inhales, as sharply as he can manage, an undercurrent of pleasure snaking back into his veins.

Fingers, limp on his towel, wake up one by one.

"Y'feelin' better?"

Yes.

Another hum, steadier this time.

Another chuckle, louder this time.

Then, fingers smoothing through his hair, behind his ear, along the curve of his jaw. Knuckles settling under his chin, which press upwards lightly. There's little command behind the action, and even through Hitoshi's unweighted, untethered existence right now, he can hear the silent question lingering under Sensei's fingers.

A deep inhale, lungs expanding wide to accommodate. A rush of clarity. Not enough to startle, but enough for Hitoshi to obey, slowly tipping his head back while Sensei's fingers follow, settled in the dip of his submentum as though they belong there.

Maybe they do. Who is Hitoshi to say?

The first thing he notices is light—still low in Sensei's room, the golden spill of a lamp over the bed, a slice of dusk peering through the curtains he didn't close properly, the flash of Sensei's phone still lost in the covers. Then, the curve of warmth on Sensei's stubbled jaw, the molten magma swimming in his eyes and reflecting the lamp's glow, and their meeting with Hitoshi's.

"There you are."

Hitoshi almost buckles at the fondness in his Sensei's tone—at all that love being directed at him with no excuse otherwise to be found. No deflection, no joke afterwards to lessen the heat.

"Sensei," Hitoshi breathes, the sheer intimacy bowling him over. Too much for someone still grasping at the pieces of themselves. Except he finds nothing to grasp—they're already slotted where they belong. All the cracks meticulously filled, and with such care, Hitoshi feels distantly ill.

Fingers pet under his chin gently, and Hitoshi swallows to feel them shift with the movement. Sensei smiles. Hitoshi swallows again, for a different reason this time.

The air feels suspended in softness.

Hitoshi lets his eyes drift again, down the slope of Sensei's nose, across his broad shoulders, his bare stomach—soft and relaxed—the V of his hips, the cock tenting his sweats, the thickness of his thi—

Wait. The cock tenting his sweats?

Why is Sensei hard?

Hitoshi sits up straighter, gaze locked onto the sight in mild shock.

Arousal lances through his gut without remorse. Guilt follows closely behind.

"Shinsou, listen—"

Sensei's dick twitches under the weight of his stare. A weird urge makes itself known, Hitoshi's mouth filling with saliva as he imagines the weight of his Sensei's thick cock in his mouth. The way it might still be covered in you—your slick, Sensei's arousal, Sensei's spit. Hitoshi feels his own cock, softened in the haze of calm he's existed within under the supervision of his Sensei, start to stir in response. Distantly, he thinks about how he's never sucked a dick before. Knows nothing beyond what he's seen in porn back in U.A., and what he likes when it's you on your knees, you swallowing him, your wet warmth hugging his cock like a sin.

Would it be different with Aizawa?

"I…"

Hitoshi flicks his gaze up to see Aizawa wince around a word he never voices. Then, he glances back down. Is he even harder?

"It's… not you. It's just…" A lie kissing Aizawa's teeth, so obvious that Hitoshi would smile if he could find himself enough to do so. "Fuck… Fuck, Shinsou. I'm sorry."

"'s okay," Hitoshi mumbles lowly, distracted and still warming his voice, still remembering who he is and what happened earlier this evening. "I don't mind."

Then, spoken like an afterthought, "You didn't get off earlier."

Aizawa makes a startled sound, half-laugh, half-disbelief. "That wasn't what the scene was about."

Hitoshi lets out an unconvinced hum, eyes still glued to the clear outline of Aizawa's cock through the soft material of his sweats. "Do you want to?"

"Do I want to what?" Aizawa asks carefully.

There are fingers under his chin. Eyes intent on peeling back the layers to his misty expression. Yet all Hitoshi can focus on is the way Aizawa's cock twitches again.

"Do you want to get off?"

An amused smile that doesn't reach his eyes. "No."

"What if I want you to get off?"

"What are you saying, Shinsou?"

I don't know.

"What if I want to watch you?"

"Watch me?"

Hitoshi doesn't say anything.

Aizawa considers him for a moment. Hitoshi can see the cogs turning, whirring their metal paths in his head as he works out every option, every right and wrong path.

Then, with a deceivingly harmless head tilt, "Can you ask nicely for me?"

Hitoshi flushes immediately, right as his arousal begins a slow roil in his gut. Some part of his brain laughs—clearly more lucid than the rest—hysterical and depreciative, at the way it's Sensei's request to fluster him and not the shameless way he was asking to see Aizawa's cock just moments prior.

"Sensei…" he trails off uncertainly, voice wavering.

Raising an eyebrow, Aizawa lets his fingers drop from Hitoshi's chin and he places his palms on the bed behind him, leisurely leaning back and creating a beautiful curve to his body—muscles stretching with the movement, shoulders appearing dizzingly wider.

"C'mon, Shinsou," Aizawa laughs lightly, the sound just this side of demeaning. "I'm only asking you to be polite. I never said you had to behave."

With an embarrassingly telling jolt, Hitoshi turns his head to the side quickly, staring off at the dark dresser tucked in the corner of Aizawa's room and swathed in shadows.

"Unless you want to behave for me?" Aizawa croons lowly, tipping his head to the side again to follow the direction of Hitoshi's gaze. With the older man's movements only visible in Hitoshi's periphery, the sound of his velvety voice, like tumbled gravel, feels much more overwhelming. As though he's pouring his sin right into Hitoshi's ear. "Unless you want to sit still and watch while I touch myself. To be told that you can't touch."

An inferno sweeps over Hitoshi's body, gnawing at his sanity, and he bites his lip hard enough to hurt.

"My capture device is in the dresser," Aizawa tacks on casually.

Hitoshi shudders like the bow of a ship caught in a storm.

"Maybe I'll let you have a taste if you're good."

"Sensei," he gasps, unbidden, turning back to the man.

Feeling no different than a broken record, repeating Sensei over and over and over—in plea, in apology, in call for mercy and damnation both at once—Hitoshi can't help the way his own cock starts filling out. The way he's drawn closer to Aizawa, as though his Sensei has his own gravitational pull and Hitoshi is no more than passing space debris.

Aizawa laughs, the sound decidedly not uncruel. "What is it?"

"I want…"

He forces the words back down. Shoves them so deep they can't possibly surface. Then, Aizawa is moving his leg slightly, until his ankle touches Hitoshi's knee—and this singular point of contact, casual and so utterly innocent, completely undoes him.

"IwantatasteSenseiplease," he blurts in one heaving breath.

"'Please,' huh?" A particular emphasis on the incriminating word.

Hitoshi's mouth opens and closes around a shapeless excuse.

"Thought it would take you a bit more to start begging." One hand coming to play with the low waistband of his sweats, Aizawa's voice is particularly dry when he continues, "You ever sound like this for her?"

Aizawa nods his chin in your direction, and Hitoshi follows the subtle direction—he observes how sleep has smoothed its fingers over your face, has caressed your body until it's all but melted into the mattress.

Hitoshi has, occasionally.

When you feel like being a bit meaner, the bite of your words and the roll of your hips can be enough to make Hitoshi's head feel fuzzy. Once, you edged him. Restraint is unfamiliar to you, but you learned, and quickly. By the time the moon was arching above you both, Hitoshi was a mess. Worse than he's ever been with you. Tears beading his lashline. Sweat sheening across his body. Nothing like the dom you were both used to, yet nothing like a sub either.

Hitoshi shrugs, words evading him. Even if he could find them, he isn't quite sure how he'd explain the intricacies of your relationship to the older man. The gentle push and pull within your roles. How Hitoshi has never been anything but a dom with you, despite what may happen in the bedroom.

Seeing this, Aizawa steels his shoulders.

"Go on, then," Aizawa utters, leaning back on his hands. "Have your taste."

Hitoshi glances between the growing curve of Aizawa's sweats and the knowing glint in his eyes. Shifting awkwardly on his knees, he debates if he should be moving—debates it doubly so when Aizawa's thighs spread wider, as though inviting him to the space between them. Aizawa flicks his eyes down pointedly, and then Hitoshi is shuffling between his thighs before he can process the action. Once he's there, a new heat dances over his body. Anticipatory. Scared. The lump in his throat wars with the blood rushing to his cock. With trembling hands, Hitoshi moves to tug down the waistband of Aizawa's sweats. He's a hair's breadth from the soft fabric before Aizawa is there—one wide hand wrapped around both of Hitoshi's wrists.

"No hands."

Hitoshi makes a weird, embarrassing, strangled noise, his face colouring a beat later. "Sensei, what—"

Aizawa squeezes his hand once, fingers tight on Hitoshi's thundering pulse. "You heard me."

No hands?

The trembling wracking his hands worsens, and there's no way Aizawa doesn't notice a dying animal caught in a trap. Stomach swooping like he just missed a step on a staircase, Hitoshi forces shallow, stuttered breaths, half-convinced they may be his last. Aizawa stares at him with all the calculating air of a predator. Unable to hold his gaze, Hitoshi tears his eyes away with a sharp exhale. This isn't what he wants. To degrade himself in front of his Sensei. To undercut all the work he's put into being a dom. A good dom.

But then Aizawa's cock twitches once more, and Hitoshi is leaning forward anyway. Closer, closer, closer. Until he can feel his warm breath bouncing back off the jersey fabric. Until all that's holding the fragile seams of their relationship together is the scant coin's width of air between Hitoshi's lips and Aizawa's cock. So he stops there. Unable to quite breach that distance, not with all it might spell; a relationship changed forever. A boundary never to be uncrossed. One more reason he won't be able to act normally around his Sensei ever again.

Yet still, the urge breathes.

Simmering beneath his skin like a pot about to boil over. A lid begging to be cracked. Steam desperate to escape.

Hitoshi feels it all, and still, he cannot move.

There's a brief moment of insecurity—how must he look, frozen before his Sensei's crotch—but it is largely outweighed by the trepidation lining every terrified heartbeat. By the familiar voice, loud in his head, calling for his Sensei to help him.

"We don't have to do this, Shinsou."

A measured pause suspends Hitoshi above a pitch-black chasm.

"You have nothing to prove." A warm voice melting down into reverence. "Not to me."

The words sink into Hitoshi's core like the first rain after a dry season, penetrating the parched soil. And he falls.

Hitoshi's lips meet his crotch. A smooth kiss of cotton, followed by a staticky brush of tongue. Barely any pressure behind it, yet Aizawa moans like he's been slapped. His hips are remarkably still, like he's making a conscious effort not to move and scare Hitoshi away. Hitoshi brushes the tip of his nose up Aizawa's length, before tilting his head and opening his mouth wider, caution flying out the window. He licks once, harder, before closing his lips around the middle of Aizawa's cock and wetting the fabric there. Sucking it into his mouth. Absorbing the hitch in his Sensei's breath like that alone could sustain him for weeks.

Quietness seeps back into his brain—arousal right behind it, though the pang of heat is strangely distant as his awareness narrows down to Aizawa. To the hand still clutching Hitoshi's wrists, trapped between the mattress edge and Hitoshi's chest, and the way it flexes rhythmically. Head canted sideways, he shoots a glance up at his Sensei, only to find him already watching. The barest glimpse of his gentle Sensei is visible under his dark expression.

Aizawa grits his jaw. "Just like that."

Licking his way up Aizawa's cock, Hitoshi's hands twitch with the need to touch as they twitch from the strength of his Sensei's grasp. He laps, sucks, kisses along his cock until the fabric is dark with spit. Suckles at the tip, pressing his tongue into where he thinks the slit would be and watches victoriously as Aizawa exhales a sharp breath. Hitoshi can feel his mouth, covered in saliva, and can feel the drool leaking from the corners.

Beneath it, a weirdness settles in his gut. Like he hasn't quite recognised yet how he's slobbering all over his Sensei—on the man who practically raised him—like a dog who hasn't learnt control. He can feel it brewing like a hangover. A tomorrow he knows he might regret—a today he can't bear to let end.

Hitoshi lets his eyes flutter closed instead, sucking at Aizawa's tip through the fabric like he can taste the bitter tang of precum if he tries hard enough. Aizawa's hand tightens around his wrists before dropping away entirely.

"Hands behind your back," Aizawa rasps, a hint of panic in his voice.

Without hesitating, Hitoshi obeys. One hand coming to clutch the wrist of his other at the small of his back.

"Good."

A pleasant shiver rushes down Hitoshi's spine at the roughness of his voice.

"Keep them there."

Hitoshi mouths back down his cock, drawing wet patterns with his tongue, dampening the grey fabric. Aizawa pants above him. There's something oddly soothing about having his mouth occupied—about not being expected to speak because he's busy pleasing his Sensei. About being able to switch his brain off until all that's bouncing around the quiet is Aizawa, Aizawa, Aizawa.

Inhaling deeply, Hitoshi can smell the heady musk of Aizawa's crotch and the cologne clinging to Aizawa's wrist, clutching the comforter near his hips. He inhales again. And again. Committing the scent to memory, engraving the satisfaction of knowing Aizawa intimately on this new level onto his heart. Hitoshi shuffles on his knees again. Stiffness brightens his awareness a touch.

Making sure his head is ducked down, Hitoshi fixes his eyes on Aizawa's crotch and whispers a small "Sensei…" that goes unheard, lips brushing against him over the word.

Under him, Aizawa's hips strain for stillness. Hitoshi's fingers twitch behind his back in response, and he squeezes them into fists so tightly it hurts, nails digging into the soft flesh of his palm. Breathing through the dull bite of pain, he reminds himself that it's only Aizawa.

Unsurprisingly, this isn't helpful.

Only Aizawa?

As though this isn't the only person next to you who knows Hitoshi inside and out. Someone shy of a father but much more than a mentor. A relationship like muddy water—like fog concealing a winter morning. There isn't one word, nor one label for them. No box he can shove himself and Aizawa into will be a perfect fit.

And maybe that's why he's here on his knees—mouthing at Aizawa's clothed cock like a dog.

Because life isn't simple. Hitoshi and Aizawa aren't simple—never have been. And while Hitoshi's stomach is flipping every two seconds, brain melting under the pressure of his humiliation, there's no denying this is right. Beyond all the wrongness. Beyond the weirdness, the awkwardness, the tense line of Aizawa's body and the halted way Hitoshi touches…

This is right.

If only his body would get the memo, though, faintly tremoring as though caught in an earthquake. Jaw sore already, and expression drawn tight.

"Fuck," Aizawa groans finally, the sound like a bird's first flight. "That feels good."

Hitoshi exhales something shaky as he kisses back up his shaft.

"Where'd ya learn how to do this, hm?"

Hitoshi tenses for a brief moment, trying to parse whether Aizawa is being flattering or sarcastic. Does Aizawa know? No… Why would his Sensei have any reason to know such intimate details about his sex life? Before today, it was a topic he'd rather die than bring up around Aizawa. A beat later, he realises that he's still frozen, but it's too late. He relaxes his body and licks over his tip again, but Aizawa taps a knee into his shoulder gently, immediately checking in.

Hitoshi winces.

"You okay?"

Hitoshi nods stiltedly, unwilling to remove his mouth from Aizawa's cock. Not if it means speaking. Hitoshi doesn't want to speak right now. Doesn't want anything more than to lap at the damp fabric of Aizawa's sweat, to smell the tangle of delicious scents invading Hitoshi's brain, and to maybe, just maybe, get a proper taste.

If Aizawa lets him.

"You have… You have done this before, haven't you, Shin?"

Hitoshi watches the tan, scarred hand tangled in the comforter tighten in his periphery.

At the nickname, Hitoshi fights back a moan, throwing himself back into his task—suckling at the head of Aizawa's cock, licking the underside, following where it curves slightly to the right near his hipbone. His mouth drifts up to Aizawa's waistband, and right as teeth bite the fabric—yanking it down, determined to get Aizawa in his mouth before he can question Hitoshi anymore—does his Sensei speak.

"Shinsou."

Hitoshi can't even bring himself to hum. On some level, he hears the words. But answering seems so unimportant right now in the face of Aizawa's cock, and Aizawa's laboured breaths. Sensei won't mind, right? No. Surely not. Hitoshi is making him feel good.

With barely a second to brace himself, Hitoshi feels a big hand thread into his damp hair at the back of his head and tug. Not meanly, just firm. Pulling Hitoshi away from his crotch and baring him in one smooth motion, his neck a long, pale line. He swallows and feels the sensation with uncomfortable tautness. Panic pulls at his chest at the suddenness, at being dragged from a nice thing so quickly, at having Aizawa's cock almost in his mouth one moment and then being humiliatedly exposed the next. Saliva coating his mouth, his chin, his cheeks. He must look awful. A mess. Like a child.

Hitoshi pulls against the hold immediately, drawing up tall. The hands behind his back fly up to clutch Aizawa's. Aizawa told him to hold them there, but that was before—before he was forced from the peaceful place he'd been existing within. Before he felt like a lamb before the slaughter, forced to meet the deep red of his Sensei's hard stare.

"I asked you a question," Aizawa utters lowly.

Hitoshi swallows a gasping moan when Aizawa's fingers press against his skull. "Sensei."

No other word encapsulates all that Sensei does. No word contains such multitudes as this title—the love, the fear, the honeyed plea that is a flashing neon sign for all its subtlety.

Sensei, Sensei, Sensei.

Hitoshi could repeat it ad nauseam.

"You're not going to get what you want until I hear your answer, Shinsou." Aizawa tilts his head back an inch further. Hitoshi can feel Aizawa's pulse beneath his fingers—smooth, steady, calm. It only makes him panic more. "Have you given a blowjob before?"

There's something strangely formal about the question. Hitoshi would laugh in any other circumstance, but hot and flustered under the spotlight, he's not finding this particularly funny. Not with his pride on the line, too. Because what the hell is his Sensei going to think of him if he says no? That he's some bumbling blowjob virgin? That he's been begging all this time to suck him off when in reality he has zero clue how to make it good? Hitoshi is quite convinced that it would be more humiliating than remaining silent and accepting whatever punishment Aizawa deems necessary. Even if that means stopping whatever… this is—a scene, sex, a new brand of bonding between them.

Hitoshi's gaze flickers askance, guilty. Lips still parted around his panting breaths. He never noticed that Aizawa had a vintage All Might frame on his dresser.

"And to think you were being so sweet earlier."

Hitoshi couldn't find any words even if he wanted to. Nausea brews low in his gut.

"What happened to him, hm? How do I bring him back?"

Being referred to like that only seems to worsen Hitoshi's stonewall, but he doesn't know how to explain as such to Aizawa. That he doesn't know how to give a blowjob, that he's as much out of his depth as Aizawa is in his. Being forced to answer doesn't feel good either. Hitoshi can feel his pleasant buzz quickly fading under Aizawa's hard stare, and he keeps his gaze fixed on the uncharacteristic mess littering Aizawa's dresser.

Aizawa sighs heavily.

Hitoshi jolts like he's being reprimanded. Like he's a child back in U.A., getting caught under Aizawa's feet, getting in his way on the field. He hasn't cried for years—not since he scrolled past a particularly heartbreaking video of a stray cat being recused, fed, and given a new, loving home—so why the hell are his traitorous eyes beginning to water?

Gritting his jaw, he tries to force the swirling mess of emotions Aizawa is drawing forth back down. He pulls on a thread of anger he can feel singing through his veins, because it's easier. Simpler. Weirdly familiar, even though everyone in his life knows him for his level-headedness, for his similarly calm nature to Aizawa. They don't know, though. Not like you do. How Hitoshi carries such anger, it threatens to swallow him whole. Rage at the hand he was dealt, at the divisive nature of his quirk, at the way he was treated so early into his underground career while barely breaking adulthood.

At being humiliated again and again and again. At being disregarded. Mistreated.

At being feared.

And fuck, he knows Aizawa doesn't fear him. Has never feared him.

But the disappointment? It's almost worse.

Hitoshi spares the briefest of glances at Aizawa, just enough to see the way his mentor's eyes have widened slightly, before using his hold on Aizawa's wrist to wrench his hand out of his hair. It goes easily, almost as if Aizawa had been barely holding on in the first place.

"Stop," Hitoshi says quietly. The one syllable lined with years of hurt so heavy the request drops between them like the swinging anvil of a battle-hardened command.

Aizawa is uncharacteristically frozen. One hand caught in Hitoshi's grip, the other still tangled in the sheets. It takes him a moment, but then that hand is raised too in a poor imitation of surrender. "Okay."

Hitoshi sucks in a deep breath, trying to level his panic back into calm. Trying to suppress his anger back into that little box he keeps tucked away in the dusty corners of his heart.

"I'm sorry," Hitoshi says after a moment.

The air between them loosens.

Aizawa shakes his head. "I'm sorry, Shinsou." Regret lines his tone. "I shouldn't have pushed you. Not today."

Hitoshi's mind latches onto not today. Is Aizawa expecting a repeat of… this? Hitoshi, on his knees. You, asleep on the bed. Something in his chest loosens. Hitoshi hasn't ruined anything, not yet. So he cradles Aizawa's apology, lets it smooth his anger into a tiny ball, then locks his outburst back in the box.

"C'mere," Aizawa murmurs quietly, the hand raised in surrender slowly lowering to the side of Hitoshi's shoulder.

Hitoshi lets his Sensei pull him up onto his knees. Aizawa leans forward and maintains eye contact until he's carefully knocking their foreheads together, eyes shutting.

"I'm sorry," he repeats, low and reverent.

Hitoshi studies the blurry sight in front of him, Aizawa too close to truly drink in. After a beat, Hitoshi lets his eyes flutter closed, too.

"'s okay," he murmurs back.

Aizawa makes a half-hearted noise in the back of his throat, a wordless complaint at Hitoshi brushing away his apology so quickly, but says no more on the topic. Seemingly content to bask in the silence for a moment. Hitoshi's nose brushes against Aizawa's. Straightening, Hitoshi feels heat crawl up his spine as the hot puff of Aizawa's breath hits his mouth.

A line.

There is a line.

A big, bold line.

Hitoshi scrambles away from it with all the composure of a deflating balloon.

Aizawa feels his hesitation; of course, he does.

He pulls back to look at Hitoshi with a small frown. "What's wrong?"

Hitoshi shakes his head quickly, physically trying to dislodge such thoughts from his mind. "Nothing." Topic change. Now. "Can I… Can I carry on?"

Eyebrows raised, Aizawa flicks between Hitoshi's eyes.

"You don't have to do that," he says carefully.

Hitoshi almost laughs. "I know."

Releasing Aizawa's wrist, Hitoshi drops both his hands—slowly, giving time for protest—to his Sensei's hips. The touch is unfamiliar, more intimate than is usual between them, and he fights to keep his palms firm against the warmth of him.

"That's why you're going to sit back," Hitoshi takes a breath, "and take what I give you."

Aizawa's pupils widen, swallowing the darkness of his irises with black. "Shinsou—"

Hitoshi feels the sharp vacuum of Aizawa's inhale—his mouth flattening into a line Hitoshi has seen many times before.

Aizawa never finishes his sentence.

Hitoshi bites back a smile.

"Does that sound okay?" An undercurrent of caution is injected into his tone. He'll back off if Aizawa tells him to. Won't hesitate for even a breath.

But slowly, ever so slowly, Aizawa's head dips into a nod—just the one, like it's all he can manage on such tenuous footing.

Accepting the permission, Hitoshi sits back on his haunches and squeezes Aizawa's hips to ground himself. Fingers spread across heated skin and brushed cotton, their tips sinking into soft flesh. They drift down to his waistband and pause. Hitoshi glances up at Aizawa, whose expression is unreadable, but a faint blush dusts high on his cheeks, and a stern set to his mouth belies his nerves. No words are exchanged, but his hips lift slightly, and Hitoshi understands, tugging his sweats down just enough to free Aizawa's cock.

Fuck.

Hitoshi thought he was prepared for the sight—angry and red and weeping onto Aizawa's navel—but that couldn't be any further from the truth. Hungry eyes linger. Thoughts stall into nothingness. Before he can stop himself, he's drawing comparisons.

Aizawa is slightly bigger—thicker, really. Not quite as long as Hitoshi, but it's a near thing, and the knowledge that this is what split you open earlier gives him a newfound appreciation for how long you managed to hold yourself together before you fell apart. How could you not? It must've been almost inevitable, considering his size. Even Hitoshi is curious if he could take it.

Leaning forward tentatively, Hitoshi licks the tip, tasting the bitter bite of precum on his tongue. Aizawa's breath lodges in his throat, and Hitoshi, distracted by the reaction, tucks the waistband below his balls impatiently and kisses the tip this time. He almost moans when Aizawa's cock twitches under his lips. Instead, drooling a line of spit down his shaft, pointless really, because his Sensei is leaking like a faucet, but worth it if only for how Aizawa's stomach jumps at the action.

Hitoshi's hands find their home on his Sensei's hips once more. Palm and fingers against the wide breadth of skin bared, thumb stroking over the bone.

There's no denying the size of him is intimidating, but Hitoshi doesn't let himself overthink it. Simply closes his eyes, opens his lips around the head, sinks a hot, wet inch and brushes his tongue on the underside of the tip. Draws it back and forth. He doesn't know how to suck a dick, but he knows what he likes. Knows he likes it when you focus on the head, when you make it messy and wet and noisy, when you manage to swallow him whole.

Though Hitoshi isn't sold on the last idea.

Will Aizawa's entire cock even fit in his mouth?

Could you take him?

"Shit," Aizawa pants already, both hands landing on the mattress behind him, stomach stretching deliciously.

Clearly an accident, his hips jump, and Hitoshi exhales in surprise when another inch slips into his mouth. Broad hands press down on Aizawa's hips: Stay still.

Aizawa huffs a laugh. "Shinsou, ah— can you take more?"

Bossy, Hitoshi chides in his head. But he sinks further all the same, feels much like he's a snake unhinging to swallow their catch, a pleasant ache forming on the corner of his jaw, his mouth getting fuller and fuller and fuller.

Then, Aizawa's cock hits the back of his throat sooner than he expected. Hitoshi pulls back with a filthy popping noise that echoes in his ears and makes the tips burn. He coughs, a trail of saliva dripping from his chin.

Aizawa groans loudly when his cock slaps back onto his stomach. "Breathe through your nose, Shinsou," Aizawa reminds him, voice drawn taut. "Go slower."

Hitoshi wants to bristle at the command, but it falls from Aizawa's lips so readily—no ill intent, just his nature raising its face once more; a mentor teaching his student. And while Hitoshi never admitted he hadn't done this before, he doesn't even know why Aizawa pushed in the first place when it has become abundantly clear the older man already knew the answer. So Hitoshi slides one hand from his hip to grab the base of his cock. Catches his breath and brings Aizawa's cock to his lips, sinking down faster than he perhaps should, but eager to hear another punched-out moan.

"Slower—fuckkk—slower, or you'll choke again."

Success.

Hitoshi reins in his enthusiasm. Taking a moment to drag his tongue along a vein, to swallow around him, and listen to Aizawa inhale.

Then, he drops lower again. The tip pokes the back of his throat, and he jolts, choking instinctively but recalling Aizawa's command and taking a deep, shuddering breath. Two. Three. His throat quivers around the intrusion. Meanwhile, Aizawa is half-heartedly groaning above him, the noise noncommittal and airy like he can't decide whether to lean into the pleasure or hold himself back in case it gets abruptly ripped away whenever Hitoshi chokes again.

Hitoshi stays there for a second, letting his mouth adjust to the size of Aizawa.

Surprisingly, this isn't as humiliating as he expected—choking on his Sensei's cock.

Perhaps it's thanks to Aizawa, folding to Hitoshi's command. Or how he can feel how much this is affecting the older man. Hitoshi can hear his shaky breaths and even shakier moans. Can feel both his hips and stomach jumping under his touch. Can feel his dick twitching in the warmth of his mouth every time Hitoshi swallows around him.

I wonder if I can take more?

Hitoshi steels himself, breaths out slowly through his nose, and drops down another inch—the slide of Aizawa's dick down his throat is strange but not unpleasant. Quivering with the urge to gag, Hitoshi focuses on breathing, on accepting the incursion until he's still for long enough to wonder if this counts as cockwarming. Not that Aizawa's complaining—panting like he's run a marathon, despite being held warm and wet and decidedly still inside Hitoshi's mouth.

Surprised at how vocal Aizawa is, Hitoshi tries not to let it go to his head. His Sensei usually keeps his reactions under lock and key. But it doesn't seem that way now, like each new noise is slipping free from his lips against his will.

Hitoshi swallows around him again, and Aizawa swears before pleading, "Shinsou."

Figuring he's adjusted enough, he lifts his head slightly before bobbing back down—not entirely confident in his abilities to take any more of Aizawa in his mouth. Saliva pools in his mouth and slips from the corners, wetting Aizawa's cock until each pass of Hitoshi's head is slippery and easy. Is this how you do it? When you suck Hitoshi off, he genuinely feels like his brain will melt out of his ears, but he's never thought to ask about your technique.

On one pass of his head, he skims Aizawa's cock with his teeth unthinkingly.

Aizawa hisses, a hand spasming on the comforter. "Ow— no teeth, please."

Hitoshi hums in apology. Sets his focus to stroking the length he can't fit in his mouth in his fist, twisting it the way he likes when he gets himself off. Bringing his fist up to meet his mouth when he sinks down, until every inch of Aizawa is covered in him—slick as can be.

"Haah—" A strangled pant, torn from behind his teeth and settling in the air around them with a renewed, balmy heat serving only to make Hitoshi dizzier. As though he can't get enough air in his lungs around Aizawa's cock.

Hitoshi hums again.

I hear you.

Aizawa groans fully this time, his hips jumping. Hitoshi pushes down harder, pinning him to the bed with astonishing ease, considering how strong he knows his mentor to be. A beat later, he realises why—recalls how good it feels when you hum around his cock, the vibrations which shoot straight through his core.

Hitoshi purrs, long and drawn out, lifting to pout his lips around the head of Aizawa's cock, flicking his tongue in his slit, and hoping that this is doing what he thinks it is.

"Fuck, fuck, Shinsou—" Aizawa gasps, chest bowing, knees tightening around Hitoshi's shoulders, voice climbing higher, raspier, into heights Hitoshi rarely hears outside of the heat of a battle. "Ohhh-jesus-haah—"

Out of nowhere, Hitoshi feels the weight of another gaze on him—a sixth sense trained through a decade of underground work. He doesn't remove his mouth, doesn't give away that he's noticed, but he feels it.

You.

Your eyes are intent on the side of his face. On the cock in his mouth.

Oh god.

Now, Hitoshi doesn't hesitate. Not exactly. But his movements loiter, mouth occupied and gaze sheepish when it finally slides over to you.

You're curled up beneath your blanket, eyes wide as saucers. Redness stains your cheeks. Your eyes track up from Hitoshi's face—no doubt a similar shade of embarrassment and slick with spit—past Aizawa's quivering stomach, up to his twisted expression. Hitoshi doesn't know how long you've been watching. Did his sixth sense alert him when you woke up, or have you been awake in his distraction for longer than he wants to ruminate on?

In fact, Hitoshi can't even blame Aizawa for not noticing. His Sensei is usually even more perceptive than he is, but apparently, getting his dick sucked is a weakness.

Who would've thought?

Hitoshi feels a spike of guilt cut for doing this without waking you up to ask for permission first. For all of a prolonged heartbeat, he fears he's messed up… everything.

Then, it dissipates like smoke in a breeze.

You're into it. A bottom lip caught between your teeth as you take in how Aizawa is fracturing. A tiny smirk in Hitoshi's direction when you finally meet his eyes again.

At once, Hitoshi feels bowled over by his love for you.

You're his other half, without a doubt; the key to his lock; the sweet sunshine breaking through his rain. An equal partner in every measure—in his kink and his desires, even the most depraved, filthy ones. The ones most people would shake their heads at. The one where Hitoshi is on his knees and sucking his Sensei's cock.

Seeing your clear interest and emboldened by it, Hitoshi purses his lips on the head and drags them down Aizawa's shaft, kitten licking the heat he can feel pulsing against him.

The bed shifts.

Aizawa jolts, cock slipping through Hitoshi's mouth, and moans before abruptly tensing. There's a split second where Hitoshi thinks his Sensei really will launch himself at you on muscle memory alone, but then he stills, unnaturally so, and those piercing red eyes of his slide over to you.

Better late than never, Hitoshi supposes.

"Hi, Daddy," you murmur, cheek smushed against the comforter.

Aizawa softens instantly, all hard lines and drawn muscles melting from an off-duty hero to yours again.

"Hi, baby," Aizawa murmurs back. "How are you feeling?"

You grin, a small, cheesy thing. "Good. Really good."

Aizawa nods, silent and waiting for a full debrief. Hitoshi watches you bite back a laugh before you actually put some thought into your next words.

"Tired. Sore," you continue, eyes flicking up once like you're categorising your body. "Happy."

"I'm glad," Aizawa returns kindly. "Do you need anything? There's water on the nightstand and painkillers, too. But I can make some food for you now, if you want. I've got clean clothes as well. They might be a bit big on you, but they'll be okay for tonight. I thought you and Shinsou could stay since it's so late and—"

Your grin widens as you cut him off. "Taking care of us still?"

Aizawa doesn't fluster in the face of your teasing. Merely tilts the corner of his lips up and nods. "Of course."

Instead, you blush, expression turning sweet and surprised.

"What would you like, angel?" Aizawa reiterates.

Hitoshi mourns the moment to have been cut short—finds himself desperately hung up on the need to make Aizawa cum—but recognises it's more important to ensure you're okay. He leans back from Aizawa, hand leaving his cock, brushes his dry hand back through his hair, and wipes a forearm across his mouth to clear the drool smothered over his chin.

A beat of silence. Hitoshi watches you without much of a clue where your mind is heading.

Stretching out your arms in front of you, you let your gaze drag purposefully down the front of Aizawa's chest to his cock, bobbing in front of Hitoshi's chin.

"I'd like to see you cum," you state airily, body relaxing back into the mattress after your stretch.

Credit to Aizawa, he takes it in stride.

"Is that so?" he asks, raising an eyebrow, voice dipped in honey.

"Mhm."

"Well…" Aizawa draws his gaze down to Hitoshi, who straightens at being acknowledged. "I think that can be arranged. Right, Shinsou?"

"Yes! Uh… yep. Definitely. Right now… even."

Aizawa turns back to you. "Drink your water first, though."

You laugh, the sound no different from the sunlight beaming through that gap in Aizawa's curtains and pooling across the bed. "Alright, alright. Such a dad!"

Aizawa tongues his cheek, eyes sharp.

Both men watch you reach for the glass on the nightstand, unfaltering under the weight of their stares, and drain the entire thing in barely a few seconds. Hitoshi grins, despite himself. That's one thing he's never been able to beat you in, unfortunately: you have an uncanny ability to chug drinks, and you've won many bets thanks to it.

"There!" You place the glass back on the nightstand with a victorious thump and flop back onto your side. Laughter paints your next words: "Don't mind me then, 'tosh."

Hitoshi shoots you a mild glare, more playful than anything, though edged in embarrassment, and your laughter melts down into a fond smile. You raise an eyebrow expectantly. Hitoshi rolls his eyes, but turns back to Aizawa's cock all the same. Some part of him feels like it should be insecure about you watching his shit dick-sucking abilities. You know he's never sucked dick before. But you gaze at him so warmly, seem so turned on by the sight of him on his knees for his mentor, that any fear sinks to the recesses of his mind.

So, wrapping a hand gingerly around Aizawa's cock, Hitoshi stares at it with renewed confidence while he figures out if he should continue what he was doing before or if he should try a new tactic.

Aizawa leans back on his hands and peers over at you. "I think you're making him nervous."

Hitoshi bristles, tightening his fist and sliding up Aizawa's cock in retaliation. Aizawa sucks in a startled breath, humour draining from his face in an instant, and Hitoshi hears your twin gasp. You hadn't been privy to any of Aizawa's facial expressions earlier; you had been too busy burying your face in the comforter while he fucked and ate you. Hitoshi finds it sweet how clearly enamoured you are with the sight. He repeats the action just to watch you—strokes his thumb over his cockhead, jerks him off a few times, fast, slightly mean. Aizawa's knees tighten around Hitoshi's shoulders again, and Hitoshi catches his stomach jumping in his periphery. But he can only see you. Propping your body up on an elbow so you can see better, lazy eyes widening into something akin to reverence.

Hitoshi wonders what Aizawa thinks about this all.

About being so vulnerable for them.

Does he have qualms about the credibility of his dom image being diminished as Hitoshi does? Or is he so secure in his standing that even this is power to him—Hitoshi on his knees, stroking him, you in post-fuck bliss, staring on with rapt attention.

What does he think of you both?

Is Hitoshi still a student to him?

Are you just Hitoshi's pretty girlfriend?

But then he recalls the stickiness to Aizawa's expression when Hitoshi first walked in the room—sweet enough to trap flies— a big hand stroking your back, how obvious it was that he hadn't left your side once. Aizawa's insistence on giving Hitoshi what he didn't even know he needed.

What are you all now?

Hitoshi traces a vein, brushes his thumb on the underside of his cock, thinks about how important it is that he acts normal tomorrow when all the coital bliss has long worn off. He plays it out: waking up with you splayed atop him in the guest bed and pretending it's normal, padding into the kitchen and shooting Aizawa a normal smile, accepting Aizawa's offer to cook breakfast for you both and eating it all despite the churning in his gut. Saying goodbye after it all, normal, normal, normal.

And maybe, when he passes the threshold to your flat, he will finally fall apart.

But right now, there is no time.

Not when he can feel Aizawa pulsing in his hand and hear him strangling the moans threatening his throat. Not when you're kicking back your blanket and crawling across the bed, sidling up behind Aizawa and shuffling forward on your knees until you sit back on your haunches, thighs spread wide around his hips. Aizawa's stomach jumps when you slip your hands around his waist to brush the quivering muscle there. But he settles back into your body easily and lifts one hand from the bed to tangle it with yours.

Hitoshi experiences déjà vu at the action. And isn't that strange—your hand in Aizawa's being enough to warrant the feeling.

Then, your chin hooks on Aizawa's chin, and the combined sight of you and Aizawa staring down at him, expressions painted with arousal, is enough for the fog to creep in.

"I wanna see you suck him off, 'toshi," you pout.

Aizawa groans, the sound pleasured and tortured all at once.

"Don't want to blow him yourself, angel?" Hitoshi teases.

You shake your head. "Not tonight."

Your words make Hitoshi tense, hand slowing on Aizawa's cock as he works over exactly what you mean. Why do you both keep saying shit like you're expecting a repeat? He knows he's acting blatantly weird again. Hell, he's been weird all night. Can't quite seem to work out how to not act this way. But you're being serious, he realises. Both of you.

This is going to happen again.

Hitoshi's heart lurches up into his throat.

You laugh, fingers flexing on Aizawa's tanned stomach.

Aizawa laughs too, his voice stronger without Hitoshi's touch.

"Hitoshiiii," you whine playfully. "Please? You looked so pretty with him in your mouth."

At that, Hitoshi can feel more than see the blush spreading over his cheeks. Face heating fast at your honeyed tone. Hitoshi wants to speak, but his tongue feels heavy and uncooperative in his mouth.

"You heard our girl," Aizawa murmurs, a lopsided smirk playing on his lips. Heat flashes through Hitoshi's body at the possessiveness of his words. Our girl… Ourgirlourgirlourgirl. They spin around Hitoshi's mind until every other thought is dislodged, floating freely up into the overheated air. "Pretty as a picture."

Hitoshi's free hand clenches into a fist on his thigh, before he remembers he can touch, is touching, and he brings it up to rest it over where Aizawa's hand is tangled in yours—cautiously, like sliding the final glass puzzle piece into a beautiful stained window. Flexing his fingers around you both, he swallows. At your combined heat. At both your expressions, softening. At his own heart, stuttering over a beat. The two most important people in Hitoshi's life, staring down at him as though his being holds the secrets of the universe.

Hitoshi's hand slides down to grab the base of Aizawa's cock, and he lowers his head, finally taking Aizawa into his mouth. He sinks wetly, like a stone dropping to the floor of a tranquil lake.

"Fuuuuuck," Aizawa grits out, the sound protracted like a passing breeze.

Aizawa's cock bumps the back of Hitoshi's throat, and he relaxes the muscles there to take him deeper, until he feels like he's one wrong heartbeat away from choking on the thickness of his Sensei. He forces slow, steady breaths through his nose. Focuses on the way Aizawa's hand tenses under his touch, on the tiny moan you let out as though you're feeling the sensation by proxy.

Hitoshi swallows around him and fights back a smile.

"Shit, Shin-mmmph!"

Hitoshi flicks his eyes up to see you, half-leaning around Aizawa's body to kiss him. It's an awkward angle, but you don't seem to care. In fact, your pretty hand is wrapped around Aizawa's jaw with some force, as though you've decided to take charge. When Hitoshi flicks his tongue over the tip, Aizawa pants into your mouth. You swallow a noise. Let Aizawa swallow one of your own—a tiny, pleased echo.

More slick sounds swamp the heavy air. You suck Aizawa's tongue into your mouth, teeth clacking. Hitoshi dips his head down, Aizawa sliding down the back of his throat with only one suppressed gag on Hitoshi's part this time. Another muffled moan, so low and deep it feels like it's reverberating through Aizawa's cock and straight through Hitoshi's spine.

Then, he sees your hand creep into his periphery, past it, until your nails are scratching up Aizawa's thigh. Loud enough for Hitoshi to know from experience that it hurts. Aizawa lights up, his heavy moan morphing into something downright pathetic and raspy as he bucks up into Hitoshi's mouth, thighs shaking.

Predictably, Hitoshi chokes.

His ears fill with the sound of his rushing heartbeat as he quickly lifts himself off Aizawa's dick, choking.

Hitoshi thinks he hears the first syllable of "sorry" from his Sensei, but then you're licking into Aizawa's mouth, and instead he's groaning like he's never tasted anything better. A small, devlish hand slips into Hitoshi's hair and starts guiding him back down before he's even caught his breath. He can feel your nails scratch at his scalp lightly, and Hitoshi shivers, doing as he's told and taking Aizawa back into his mouth in one smooth motion, giving his lungs no time to protest.

His jaw aches. His entire face is somehow wet. And his pulse is thundering like he hasn't taken a full breath since yesterday. But Aizawa is close; he can tell. Has little experience to base it on, yet can read the signs: Aizawa starting to shallowly fuck his mouth, his noises growing louder and gravelly. Not to mention the way Aizawa's cock is literally pulsing in his mouth, matching the erraticness of Hitoshi's own heartbeat.

"Mmmn—"

Hitoshi doubles down, not knowing what he's going to do when Aizawa cums but figuring he'll work it out when he gets there. He leans into the way Aizawa has started to rock up—clearly cautious of fucking Hitoshi's mouth even through his haze of pleasure—bobbing down to meet each haphazard thrust. The hand holding the base of his cock slips down to stroke his balls, slick with saliva.

Another moan, punched out from Aizawa as though it's painful.

He rolls his balls in his hand before sliding a thumb up between them and up to the base of his cock, rubbing small, tight circles.

"Mmmn-mph!"

The hand in his hair vacates, and soft fingers brush his mouth moments later. As though you're desperate to feel the connection, to feel how Aizawa's cock is practically fucking Hitoshi's mouth now.

"Oh my god." Your voice.

Turning his head slightly, Hitoshi glances up to see you staring down at him, lips bright and swollen. Aizawa's head tips back onto your shoulder, and he pants, open-mouthed into the air now that he's free.

"Close, Shinsou, close," he warns, voice worn thin.

Hitoshi hums around him.

He gasps. "Reallyclosefuck."

The deep-seated urge to impress rises in him, as familiar as breathing when it comes to his Sensei. After all, why wouldn't he want Aizawa to be pleased with him? To feel like all his years of teaching have paid off. Hitoshi sinks deeper, pressing his saliva-slick palm to Aizawa's hip in an attempt to hold him down. It's harder this time, with Aizawa bucking like a bull. But he manages—he'd be disappointed if his hero regime couldn't at least let him pin down his mentor.

"Shinsou-ngh! Pull off—" he blurts, panic making itself known.

"Mmm…"

"Shinsou!"

Aizawa inhales a big breath, and like the moment a vacuum sucks in all sound with it, cums silently—mouth dropping open, hips stuttering in place under Hitoshi's hand, cock spurting cum down Hitoshi's throat, thick and hot.

Hitoshi's body jolts in surprise, quickly swallowing. Aizawa's cock pulses in his mouth through each wave of his orgasm.

Hitoshi swallows again.

A third time.

Chokes on the fourth—because of course he does. Throat convulsing around Aizawa's thick cock, entirely unprepared to swallow it all.

Hitoshi tries to stay down, but cum lodges in his throat, and suddenly, he can't even breathe. Panic is one potent drug—shooting through his veins in an instant. Pulling off quickly, his spine rounds as he coughs into the space between Aizawa's thighs, fingers twitching over your tangled ones. Vision blurred as tears sprang to his eyes on reflex. Hitoshi chokes in a heaving breath, thick globs of cum dripping from his lips and hitting the mattress. Hitoshi can barely taste any of it, though, despite the stickiness he can feel on his tongue—the tag of cum, the salt of his tears. Blood roars in his ears.

Luckily, you pick up his slack. Those fingers that had been petting around his mouth, wrapping around Aizawa's cock. Twisting your wrist just the way Hitoshi likes, wringing out the final dregs of Aizawa's pleasure. Hitoshi feels a stripe of cum land across his nose, but he barely flinches, too busy alternating between throaty coughs and swallowing whatever's left in his mouth.

Only when Aizawa hisses do you slow your hand, fingers petting over his cock gently.

Hitoshi finally starts to catch his breath.

"Jesus," Aizawa breaths, head lifting from your shoulder to look down at Hitoshi.

You lean into Aizawa and bite at his jaw, grinning against his stubble when you brush your thumb over his cockhead and hear him hiss again. Hitoshi looks up at him sheepishly, aware he probably looks a fucking sight. And decidedly not one for sore eyes. God, he'd fucking choked on Aizawa's cock and not in a sexy way, not when it didn't really matter, but when he was cumming.

Did I ruin his orgasm? Hitoshi wonders, worrying his bottom lip.

Aizawa lifts his hand from the comforter and brushes his middle finger over Hitoshi's nose. "Are you okay?"

Oh, Hitoshi thinks. Sensei is wiping his cum up. That's humiliating.

"Yeah, I'm—" Hitoshi jolts, surprised at the grittiness to his voice, like stones at the early stages of tumbling. He clears his throat in an attempt to dislodge some of the evidence. "I'm okay, Sensei."

"More than okay," you pipe up cheerfully, finally dragging your hand from Aizawa's softening cock to his thigh, leaving a sticky trail of cum and saliva. "'tosh looked like he had a religious experience choking on your dick."

Aizawa cuts you a reprimanding look. If anything, you preen under the attention.

"Oi," Hitoshi protests, too tired to follow it up with anything else.

"That was pretty good for your first time," Aizawa offers, only a hint of cheekiness in his voice.

Then, his cum-covered finger is stroking at Hitoshi's bottom lip, coaxing it out from between his teeth—Hitoshi didn't even realise he was biting it. And he isn't sure what muscle memory is in operation when his lips fall open, but perhaps it's the assumption that he won't have to speak anymore, that he'll be allowed to just exist in the quiet of this moment.

Aizawa slips a finger into his mouth, and Hitoshi tastes the tang of cum before anything else, yet can't be bothered to do anything but let Aizawa feel.

Aizawa exhales a measured, slow breath at the sight. He pets over Hitoshi's tongue, and the sensation isn't entirely unfamiliar—you've had your fingers in Hitoshi's mouth before, he'd be an idiot if he ever turned that down—but Aizawa's one finger alone is so much bigger. In every way. Caressing his tongue in arching swipes. Intrusive where it begins to feel along his teeth, the cum from his finger melting into the saliva pooled in Hitoshi's mouth.

"And I saw it, too," Aizawa murmurs.

Hitoshi makes a questioning noise, too exhausted to be bothered speaking around the finger in his mouth.

Aizawa laughs. "I saw the type of dom you are."

"Safe…" A finger hooked behind his teeth, a tug that coaxes Hitoshi closer. "Clever."

Hitoshi feels the praise wash over him, warm and sweet. For the first time since he took Aizawa's cock into his mouth, Hitoshi realises he's hard as his dick twitches in time with Aizawa's words.

Aizawa swallows audibly. "Confident."

Hitoshi bites lightly at his finger to lift the air, and it works, Aizawa breathing out a chuckle.

"Well done, baby." Your sweet voice, your bright eyes, your head tilted as you stare down at the way he's sucking on Aizawa's finger fondly.

"Th'nk'yu'," Hitoshi manages this time, a pleasant static settling over his worries.

You're both here—in front of him, smiling down at him—and pressed so tightly together it's as though you fear someone might rip Aizawa away from you. You're both okay. You both enjoyed it. Hitoshi shudders in relief, eyes slipping closed, body tipping forward slightly. Aizawa's finger slides deeper into the warmth of his mouth.

"Whoa there," Aizawa murmurs, a hand coming up to brace Hitoshi's shoulder. "You sure you're feeling alright?"

Hitoshi nods dumbly, content in the dark. "Mhm."

"You think too much, 'toshi," you say quietly.

Hitoshi hears a quiet kiss, there and gone, and Aizawa's rumbling hum.

"Thank you, Shouta. For tonight…" A meaningful pause. "All of it."

"I can't take all the credit," Aizawa huffs in amusement. Then, his voice softens. "But you're welcome, sweetheart. We had fun, huh?"

You laugh. "I definitely did."

Hitoshi blinks his eyes back open. Can't quite find his voice yet, but his gaze slides to Aizawa, and he hopes the older man can read his answer there.

I did, too. Thank you.

Aizawa smiles.

Cheek smushed against Aizawa's shoulder, you peer up at him. "Can we have curry for dinner?"

Aizawa laughs. Soft. Warm. Surprised. Hitoshi's lips curl into a smile of his own, and you look so at home in the divot of Aizawa's body—the sight settling deep in Hitoshi, sealing a gap he didn't know existed—that he barely fights the wave of fondness washing over him.

Then, "Yeah, sweetheart," and a kiss on your cheek.

Hitoshi watches your eyes well up at the gentleness of the action, a tiny pout crossing your mouth.

"I'll make you curry."

‹‹ MASTERLIST

You're calling Shouta "Daddy."

Not even calling, really—you're crying. Big, fat tears which roll down the apple of your cheeks and strike clean through the blush settled on their peaks. The sight is distracting. Hitoshi isn't sure there's enough blood left in his brain to do anything but leer at how Aizawa's form swamps your own—your pretty hands scrabbling at the bicep tucked around your neck, your throat working around strangled, shallow gasps.

He's never seen you from this angle before, so when Aizawa snaps his hips into you, Hitoshi watches both your toes curl and your hips rise from the bed like a wave cresting with some strange out-of-body feeling. As though he’s an incorporeal being merely floating by the scene.

With Aizawa's weight settled atop you, pressing you flat to the bed, there isn't far for you to go.

Hitoshi swallows.

You cry again—a sweet, high-pitched noise of alarm—and Hitoshi's fingers tighten in his pants, twisting the fabric beneath fingers like a child as he’s drawn to soothe the noise through pure Pavlovian response. He has to remind himself that, for once, he isn't in charge of the scene.

Not tonight.

"Daddy."

A brush of lips on your sweaty nape. "What is it, sweet girl?"

Your expression screws up as though it's a slice of paper put to flame. "Please, I— I—"

Heat crawls up Hitoshi's spine at the panic lacing your voice. The lilting vowels and consonants so familiar to Hitoshi suddenly sound foreign. He doesn't recognise your headspace, and if the way you buck under Aizawa's hold like a spooked animal is any indication, neither do you.

Aizawa squeezes your waist with a big hand. "Words."

"Dad-dy," you repeat, a sob fracturing the word in two. "I—" You suck in a quick breath, exactly the way you do when you're trying to suppress more tears.

Hitoshi bites his tongue so hard he tastes blood. Are you okay? Aizawa doesn't appear worried, but he never does. While Hitoshi trusts his Sensei with his life, entrusting him with yours is a different ball game entirely. He finds his fingers itching to reach out and touch you.

"I can't." Shaking your head, you press your cheek into the comforter miserably, and Aizawa lays his cheek atop yours.

"Yes, you can."

"No—"

"You can," Aizawa repeats, nothing but confidence to be found in his tone. He slows his movements down, grinding deep and slow inside until you're able to gulp in a few big, shuddering breaths.

Hitoshi likes seeing you cry when you're feeling good.

This is… this is decidedly not that.

The pout twisting your lips is nothing short of overwhelmed. Wetness clumps your lashes. Splotches of red decorate your face. And yet, Hitoshi feels the arousal rush to meet him like a physical force, sweeping him under as though caught in a rip current and carried out to sea.

Why is he into this?

Why is he into his girlfriend crying because she's fighting subspace as another man fucks her? Not even another man—Aizawa. Sensei, pseudo-father figure, and friend all rolled into one mess of a relationship.

Surely this isn't right.

Then his gaze drifts up to Aizawa, and he realises… maybe it is. Because Aizawa is staring down at you with an expression nothing short of smug, the corner of his mouth quirked upwards into the most irritatingly attractive expression Hitoshi has seen in his life.

And isn't that another realisation…

Hitoshi trembles slightly as the ferocity of his arousal worsens.

He could jerk off. He knows he could. But he's never been great at keeping quiet, and if either of you acknowledges Hitoshi's involvement in this scene, even as an uninvolved third party, he might spontaneously combust in the most humiliating death of all time.

"Words," Aizawa murmurs, when you seem only an inch more lucid than before. Though he punctuates it with a particularly deep roll of his hips, the hand on your waist lifting you slightly to meet him, and you keen like you've been shot.

Because he's mean.

Meaner than Hitoshi thought he would be, anyway.

Yet, you don't seem to hate it. The opposite, really. You raise your hips further—it must feel good, the way his thick cock is splitting you open—and Aizawa switches attitudes abruptly, forcing your hips back down in a blink. Somehow, this makes you moan the loudest.

Hitoshi manhandles you in bed. He throws you around, slaps you when you ask, ties you up and fucks you until you're babbling so good so good 'toshiii. So perhaps it's truly the fact that he's never seen seen you from this perspective that's skewing his own, but he's sure you've never sounded quite so pathetic about it—as helplessly turned on as you do now. As though you're powerless under Aizawa’s touch and enjoying every second of it. The thought sends a fission of arousal lancing straight through Hitoshi's sanity and heat curls into the cavernous reach like a cat. Hitoshi slouches further in his chair, thighs spreading wide and hisses when his hard cock brushes the seam of his pants before wincing at the fact he’s made any noise at all.

You appear to search your brain for a few seconds before moaning another guileless, "Daddy."

"Hm?"

Aizawa is plastered over you from head to toe. You sigh when he presses his knees against the outsides of yours, forcing your legs tighter together. Hitoshi knows from experience you love the drag of a cock inside you like this—how it stretches you perfectly, strokes your pussy just right, the pressure high enough to have your head swimming.

You love how you're forced to take it when you're trapped under Hitoshi.

When you're trapped under Aizawa, too.

"What are you whinin' for, huh?"

"I'm not," you exhale shakily. "I'm not whining."

"Oh yeah?"

You shake your head petulantly.

"Not whining on my cock?" Aizawa slows to a stop and both men watch the way you bite back a noise of complaint, desperate not to prove his point. "Not scarin' poor Shinsou here?"

Hitoshi lurches at the reminder that this is happening. That he's merely sat and watched as Aizawa has fucked you silly. Your bleary gaze falls to Hitoshi, and he tries his best to look normal.

If the small quirk of your lips is anything to go by, he failed.

Your voice is small when you ask, "Y'scared, 'tosh?"

Hitoshi shakes his head, mutely.

Aizawa raises an eyebrow.

Hitoshi straightens slightly. "No, I'm—" He clears his throat. "No, baby."

"Liar," Aizawa accuses blandly, eyes slitting in amusement.

You bristle, the palms you have pressed to the comforter suddenly trying to push you upright; as though the possibility of Hitoshi not being into this isn't funny to you, as though you're being dragged from the space you were so close to with an abruptness that brings only strident. Aizawa stops the motion easily, his chest barring you from getting any further than a scant few inches from the bed. You let out an uneasy noise from the back of your throat.

"Hey, hey."

Your eyes are fixed on Hitoshi. "Let me up."

Hitoshi can't find the words to soothe you.

"Sweetheart—"

"No. Let me up."

Aizawa sighs—quiet and long-suffering—before releasing his bicep from around your neck, grabbing your chin in the same big hand and forcefully turning your head downwards. You bristle at the manhandling this time and try to rip your chin away. He doesn't budge, though, shaking your jaw once sharply.

"Look."

"Shouta," you growl, lowly.

"Does Shinsou really look scared to you?"

For a second, Hitoshi thinks you're going to fight the older man again. Instead, you hesitate and do as he says.

You look.

Your gaze drifts up from Hitoshi's feet. He fights to keep still under the worried heat of it. Only moments before you reach his crotch, Hitoshi realises exactly what Aizawa is playing at and blood rushes to his cheeks. He sits up quickly, flexes his fists on his legs. He can't cover his dick because you're his fucking girlfriend and you've seen it before and more importantly, it would only make him look super guilty.

Like incriminatingly so.

Your eyes land on his crotch.

Hitoshi wants to sink into the floor as he watches your body lock into a kind of stillness he's only ever seen in nature documentaries, right as a predator spots its prey. It's not a dynamic Hitoshi is used to with you and his eyes blow wide in surprise, dick twitching in his boxers. You notice. He knows you do.

Does Aizawa notice, too?

Fuck, he hopes not. This is humiliating enough as is. He knows once the two of you get back to your flat, he's never living this down.

He has no idea what his expression is right now, but it can't be anything good.

"Y'see?" Aizawa asks quietly, right by your ear.

You nod, still staring at Hitoshi's straining cock.

"He's scared because he's never seen you like this."

You swallow. Blink slowly.

"Never seen you fucked into silence."

Some emotion caught between shame and arousal washes over Hitoshi.

Is that true? Has he not been treating you right?

Experiencing a similar awakening of your own, you wriggle under Aizawa. He only braces his palms on the comforter, either side of your tits, and starts up a harsh rhythm again, fucking into you without remorse. You let out a startled moan, collapsing bonelessly into the sheets.

"Guess you needed a real daddy, hm?"

At that, you really do cry. An awful sound, tangled high in pleasure and embarrassment, which snakes across the room to settle on Hitoshi's shoulders like a curse. Aizawa fucks into you as though you're rabbits in heat, muscled limbs weighing your own down to the bed and Hitoshi feels like he's losing his mind a bit, so he can't imagine how you're feeling. Sole subject to his mentor's fierceness. Limbs pinned like a butterfly's wings.

Your eyes flutter. "Fuck-nghhh— yesyesyes!"

"Y'call Shinsou daddy, too?" Aizawa asks conversationally. "Let him treat you like this?

Gasping, your palm hits the comforter once, as though you need some sense of control in the face of Aizawa's onslaught.

Aizawa grins, thick thighs tensing with each thrust. "You shouldn't, you know. It goes to people's heads."

"Ohmygod."

"Feel good?"

"Yeah— yes."

"Good."

A moan lights up the air. Even Hitoshi smiles at that noise—Aizawa wasn't calling you good, but you've reacted as though he was all the same. He loves how you respond so freely to praise, instinct overriding any overthinking. There's something so… sweet about it.

About you, really.

Naturally, Aizawa recognises you for what you are immediately.

"You want me to tell you how good you're bein' for me?"

Expression flashing, you arch deeper into the bed, presenting yourself to him.

"How gorgeous you look right now."

A broken whine. More tears.

"How well you're takin' me."

Your thighs tremble violently, legs bending at the knee and kicking up into Aizawa. You don't seem like you're trying to escape. Not with how you're also biting your lip raw to stifle your moans. Out of nowhere, Aizawa changes the angle, shifting higher up your body to drill down into you and the reaction is instantaneous—like a forest fire to bone dry tinder. Even Hitoshi inhales at the slick noise of Aizawa's cock fucking your dripping pussy, the sight of your brain quieting right in front of him.

Aizawa chuckles, though it's tense, lined by the pleasure he's clearly trying hard to ignore for your benefit.

"You always this sweet for Shinsou?"

It's a pointless question.

You're drooling into the comforter, small fingers tangled in the sheets like you're holding on for dear life. You try to suck in a breath, but Aizawa fucks the answer out of you within a second. You never stood a chance.

Instead, Aizawa turns his head to Hitoshi.

He jolts at being remembered.

Jolts again at the molten arousal in his Sensei's eyes.

"Uhhh, she's usually…"

You let out a high whine, animalistic in quality. Both men glance at you for a second, at the way you're slipping through your own fingers with every thrust.

"…more… lucid," Hitoshi finishes lamely.

"Is that right?"

Hitoshi suppresses a shiver at his gravelly tone. He nods.

Aizawa's lips quirk up.

The new angle appears to be your undoing, because very quickly you're tumbling back into teary-territory—wet lines streaking down your face as you get flung towards your edge.

"Daddy," you sob.

"Daddy's here."

"Da—" you suck in a shuddering breath, "—ddyyy."

"I know, baby."

You must tighten around Aizawa because he releases a low, choked moan and you respond to the sound like a flower blooming in the sun—squeezing around him again, fingers twitching with the urge to touch when you can't do anything but take what Aizawa is giving you.

You hiccup. "I'm—"

"You close?"

"I'm close," you echo.

Aizawa fucks into you faster somehow, and you all but bow off the bed, trapped between sweaty sheets and his hulking body—your orgasm clearly biting at your heels.

Hitoshi would know.

"Ah, ah, ah, ah—"

Can read desperation in your climbing voice. Delirium in your glassy eyes. Mind-numbing pleasure in the severe quakes lining your entire body, as though you can't take much more, as though you'll meet your edge and be lost in its abyss.

"Please, daddy."

Aizawa doesn't say a word, dragging his palms up the bed until he's pressing his big hands over your forearms. You whine, the noise spun out endlessly with each wet schtick of Aizawa's cock slamming into your pussy until it's one continuous mewl, until it's barely anything more than mindless crying. Hitoshi's sanity is in tatters—his mind swimming in the knowledge that all it takes to get you like this is apparently Aizawa's low murmurs and his older cock. Your fingers spasm on the bed and Aizawa slides his hands up your arms, tangling his fingers over yours to press them into the bed harder.

You let out a choked sob. "Please, pleaseplease—"

Aizawa brushes his stubble over your shoulder, biting down lightly on your shoulder.

"Daddy's got you."

You gasp. "Don'tstopdon'tstop!"

Turning your head to the side, you search blearily for Aizawa's eyes. He tilts his own and meets your gaze. Hitoshi watches quietly as your own flick down to his Sensei's lips, as the idea of kissing him crawls into the forefront of your mind, exactly how it always does with him when you're close. When you want to cum with Hitoshi's mouth on yours.

Aizawa watches you carefully. You lean forward, a whine on your lips begging to be pressed against his. Hitoshi waits with bated breath for the moment you both connect. At the last second, you stop. Wide eyes flicker to Hitoshi's, a clear question in them and feeling for the first time tonight like he's back in control, even if for a brief blink, Hitoshi straightens and nods his chin.

"Go on."

You whimper in relief, wasting no time as you immediately turn to Aizawa and kiss him, wet lips parting to lick into his mouth, shame a long-forgotten concept with Aizawa bullying into you. Sensei's eyes don't close fully, but it's a near thing, and he returns your hungry kiss with just as much heat—tipping his head to deepen it with a groan from the back of his throat.

You sink into the kiss like someone coming home, all worries and anxieties and thoughts left at the door for tomorrow. All the matters is now, Aizawa on you, in you, coaxing you right where he wants.

Hitoshi's dick twitches again, and he slides his palms under his thighs.

You press a broken whine into Aizawa's mouth.

Aizawa swallows it easily before raising himself up slightly—cock still fucking your wet heat, fingers still tangled with yours—and breaking apart for a breath. Hitoshi watches a string of spit lengthen until it snaps, hitting your cheek to become indistinguishable from the tears spilling with each thrust. His Sensei pants an inch from your mouth. Then, he's lifting his head higher and waiting for yours to echo his movements.

Inevitably, you do. Your head tipping back to stare at him, cock-drunk.

Aizawa smiles, something small.

"Open your mouth," he murmurs.

There's no hesitation as your lips drop open obediently.

Hitoshi watches, shell-shocked for a reason he doesn't want to face, as Aizawa drops a glob of spit into your waiting mouth.

You light up, moaning louder than he's heard all night, and he finds out why a second later as you cum—body shaking through your orgasm. Face screwed up in surprise, thighs trembling fiercely. Aizawa fucks you through it in a way that can only be described as mean. Quick, fast thrusts that quickly have you gasping, choking air into your lungs, hands pushing up against where Aizawa has them pinned as you ride out the blinding pleasure.

Hitoshi's hips kick up into the air at your broken keens.

Maybe he can touch himself… it's not like either of you will notice right now. And he's so hard that if he doesn't do something soon, he'll have no blood left to drive you both home after this, and surely that can't be safe. Driving with a boner has got to be somewhat like driving while tired… right? Nodding to himself, he frees a hand from under his thigh to drop it down atop his cock. He hisses at the light pressure and grinds the heel of his palm along his hard length, biting his lip.

Your whines get louder as Aizawa fucks you right through your orgasm and into oversensitivity. Hitoshi can hear the wet squelch of your pussy sucking in Aizawa's cock despite your little pained whimpers.

"Shouta," you plead.

Aizawa snaps his hips into you cruelly.

You correct yourself without missing a beat. "Daddy."

"There you go."

Hitoshi shivers.

Then, abruptly, Aizawa slides out of you. Neither of you is expecting it, if yours and Hitoshi's twin inhales are anything to go by.

A whine gets punched out of your chest at the emptiness and when Aizawa lifts his weight from you, it seems the combined absence of everything him is enough to have a fresh bought of tears spilling down your face. You slump into the bed like a puppet with its strings cut and press your face into the comforter pitifully as your body trembles through the aftershocks. Hitoshi watches Aizawa crawl down your body and peer at your swollen cunt. He palms at the globes of your ass. You jolt, clearly not expecting the touch. It's this side of sweet—thumbs stroking at the crease where your ass meets your thighs, long fingers squeezing the flesh like a stressball.

Then, he tightens his grip.

Hitoshi has barely a moment to wonder what he's doing before Aizawa is using his hold to expose your cunt further and lift your hips from the bed slightly. You make a low noise of discontent at being manhandled so soon after cumming.

Even from where he's sat, Hitoshi can see the arousal slicking your folds and the creamy white dripping down to your clit. The longer Aizawa keeps you like this, the further it leaks over your swollen folds.

Luckily, his Sensei has never been a patient man.

The only warning you get is Aizawa gently blowing air on your clit before he's licking a lazy, wide stripe up your core as though mimicking a big cat preening their young.

You light up like a firework.

"No—" you gasp, "daddy, no!"

Aizawa swirls his tongue around your clit and sucks, humming airily. You jolt as though electrocuted. Hitoshi supposes it isn't that far off. Not with the way you immediately tense up, legs kicking out helplessly. Aizawa isn't even holding your down anymore, but you still can't move—boneless and held in place by your hips as easily as one would a child.

"Please, it's too much— I— ahhh-nghh—"

Aizawa fucks his tongue back into you and moans. His clear noise of pleasure only seems to make you panic further.

"No, nonono—"

Hitoshi finds himself leaning forward in his seat subconsciously, following your call like an ancient summons. Something so intrinsically written in his DNA, he can't ignore it.

He should say something, right?

Tell Sensei to stop.

For some reason, he opens his mouth and cannot find the words.

Hitoshi brushes an anxious hand back through his hair, sweeping it off his forehead, and shifts uncomfortably in his chair.

Aizawa's ruby eyes flicker over to him at the movement. Face still buried in your cunt, he leans back enough to bite out a sharp, "Sit."

The word lances through Hitoshi's dazed panic before he even registers it as a command. His spine locks immediately, and he presses it against the chair's back as though cornered by Aizawa’s voice. He hadn't been planning on getting up, despite his ruminations on interrupting, but he certainly isn't going to now. The command pools like liquid honey in his stomach as he silently wonders what the hell is wrong with him.

Aizawa licks at you, sliding his tongue inside again within a blink and forgetting about Hitoshi just as quickly. Meanwhile, he's still reeling from being chastised in this context.

Your cries, somehow, aren't the loudest thing in the room.

Because sure, he's been scolded by Aizawa countless times. Cuffed over the head and yanked back by the collar and levelled with looks that could topple villains. Yet here he is—inarguably aroused by his Sensei directing a slice of that dominance on him.

"Hurts," you whimper lowly.

"I know it does." Aizawa presses a kiss to your clit. "Doing so good, sweetheart."

You settle at once, though not without a quiet sniffle.

Hitoshi feels much like he's drifting out at sea with no hope of finding land. No life raft. No meager drift wood to cling to until he's saved.

He watches you sink deeper while he's drowning himself.

Aizawa leans back and trails a glob of spit onto your pussy.

You moan.

"Daddy," you turn your head, "'s' t'much."

Hitoshi stares unseeingly at your foggy expression, hears through layers of cotton the slurring of your words.

Sensei doesn't stop.

"You're okay," he murmurs into your cunt.

You keen at the vibrations, arms splaying wide, feet kicking out. Pretty face smushed in Aizawa's comforter as though you belong there. If anything, the slack leash on your composure only seems to spur Aizawa on more, who squeezes your ass in two big hands, lifting you higher to eat up into you like a starving man with his final meal. The temperature in the room is rising; Hitoshi can feel sweat beading along his collar despite barely moving; you are covered in a thin sheen of perspiration.

Aizawa almost purrs against you, and your spine arches so deeply it looks as though it should hurt. A drawn-out whine tipping into the first vestiges of pleasure once more.

"Daddyyy—"

You don't sound like you're complaining anymore.

By Aizawa's rumbling laugh into your cunt, it's clear he's realised the same.

Pleasure licks up Hitoshi's spine as he grinds his hand down against his cock, and he exhales a shaky sigh—thighs spreading, spine relaxing from its rigid posture into his chair’s soft back. His eyes flicker between Aizawa's wet face, buried in your cunt as though he's trying to carve a home for himself there, and the way you're gasping and writhing and crying into the comforter, like it's a tennis match.

Hitoshi's dick twitches under his hand when you try to squirm away—clearly panicking as the pleasure creeps back up on you in the face of Aizawa's relentlessness—only for his Sensei to tug you backwards as easily as breathing, straight onto his waiting mouth, two large hands spanning your hips and digging into the meat painfully.

You cry out, hips spasming.

Hitoshi watches through some kind of fog as Aizawa stops fucking his tongue into the mess you've made and drags it down to your clit instead, mouth closing around the sensitive bundle of nerves much like an airlock on a spaceship.

You know you can't escape. Hitoshi does too.

He's not even sure he could escape his Sensei.

But you seem much more confident to try, chest heaving and fingers clutching the comforter like you're holding on for dear life as your hips jolt up and down. Hitoshi's not even sure it's a conscious movement, but Aizawa follows you easily, abusing your clit and your sensitive cunt with his tongue and his mouth and the attractive scruff on his face.

You get no reprieve.

A loud slurp rings in the air, right as Aizawa sucks your clit into his mouth, and you almost yell, a shrill, strangled noise caught in the back of your throat begging to be heard. You turn your head to the side and search for Hitoshi's gaze. Hitoshi takes in your blown-out eyes and the glassy way you stare at him in supplication. His heart stutters in his chest.

"Daddy," you stretch out a hand towards him along the bed, breath hiccuping, "help."

At that, Aizawa stills. Hitoshi tenses a moment later. You don't even seem to realise you've said anything wrong. Fingers lifting to grab at Hitoshi as though pure will could summon him to your side. Sensei lifts himself from your cunt a few inches to utter carefully.

"'Daddy,' huh?"

Aizawa's tone bites at his ankles. The urge to run far away from the older man and drag you with him rises, flash flood-fast.

"Shinsou can't help you, sweetheart. Not tonight."

Your whimper cracks the air like a whip.

"You think he's going to come save you?" Aizawa asks, hands kneading your ass.

You gasp when he slides a thumb between the two globes, only to drag it up and down your swollen folds. He circles your clit once, twice, enough to hear a hitch in your breath, before he presses his thumb inside your cunt and hooks it. Your hips drop down to the bed without both his hands holding you up. His Sensei doesn't seem bothered, though, content to let you flump under his touch.

"He's sat there getting himself off, sweet girl."

Hitoshi's hand flies from his cock and to the safety of the chair seat embarrassingly fast. He had almost forgotten—had been grinding against his palm like a teenager and so wrapped up in the fantasy before him, despite still scarcely believing it to be real.

"Little pervert loves this."

Aizawa nods his chin at Shinsou like he's showing you, despite your face still being buried in the sheets as you whimper lowly at every brush of Aizawa's fingers over your clit, every twitch of his thumb inside you.

"Seeing you crying on my cock," he continues through a small grin. "My face."

At the reminder, Hitoshi's eyes flicker to Aizawa's mouth—glistening with your slick in the low light of his bedroom. He trails upwards and almost exits his own body when he sees his Sensei's dark gaze locked onto him.

How long has he been staring?

Aizawa's next words are directed at you; Hitoshi knows they are, but the way his Sensei doesn't glance away has him twitching in his slacks. "You're stuck with me tonight."

Hitoshi feels a wave of fire consume his thoughts for a rational second.

"Jesus."

The first word Hitoshi has uttered tonight, and great… he sounds like a fucking idiot.

A bleary set of curious eyes flickers over to him. He can feel the blush staining his face and fights to keep a straight face despite the way he can feel precum leaking from his tip and wetting his boxers.

There's a suspended moment of quiet and then a gentle slap echoes in the room.

"Ohhh…" You bow from the bed immediately, back curling up like a cat's.

It takes Hitoshi a second to figure out what happened, but he catches on just in time to see Aizawa's fingers—his thumb still hooked inside you—lifting from your pussy and landing in another wet smack.

"Hh—nghh—"

His fingers smooth over your clit in apology. Three more slaps in quick succession—each wet plap further stuttering the gasp you try to inhale.

You hide your face back in the sheets and release a muffled whine. "Da—a-ddyyy."

Hitoshi swallows. You don't sound like you anymore, voice high and ready and plaintive in a way he so rarely hears—if ever. A part of him wants to panic. But he knows Aizawa has got you. Can read it in the confident tilt of his body, the assured look on his face. If Hitoshi had to guess, he had this scene planned down to the minutiae from the moment you brought it up.

You're only playing right into his hands.

"More?"

You shake your head into the bed and press a dull, pathetic whine there. Aizawa delivers another slick slap to your clit, and you shiver, hips jerking once instinctively.

"Can't think, huh?"

You shake your head again.

"That's alright," Aizawa murmurs kindly, pressing a small kiss to the back of your thigh—right on the crease where it meets your ass. "Daddy can think for you."

Hitoshi watches as those words fall over you like a weighted blanket, the only thing tethering you to this world, he's sure. For your expression loses all its indignant colour at once, smoothing out into a calm ocean. It's almost disquieting. Hitoshi knows you carry too much, knows you struggle to leave it at the door—knows what you really need is someone to force you to drop it. He didn't expect Aizawa to catch on this quickly. As though he's had years to learn you inside and out the way Hitoshi has, and not a matter of an hour, if that.

The corner of Aizawa's lips quirk up, though this time it's less mean and more pleased. Hitoshi swallows at the way you're spread out like a waiting sacrifice. Without hesitation, Aizawa dips back down and licks into you once more, tongue flicking inside you alongside his thumb. Your gasp is muted. All your subsequent sounds too. As though they're being forcefully filtered before they can be heard, and all that's meeting the air is you at your core, peeled back and bare and so raw, Hitoshi could cry.

He doesn't.

But it's a near thing. Especially when you close your eyes and start to bask in the attention Aizawa is lavishing on you, hips drawing back and forth to meet his mouth.

His Sensei hums happily into you.

You whimper in response, as though there's nothing better to you than hearing your partner pleased, than the knowledge that you're doing something right, doing good.

Hitoshi bites his lip. Between one blink and the next, his hand finds its way back to his cock—grasping the shape of himself through his pants and stroking it firmly. His hips jump up from the chair at the first wholehearted touch.

He wants more.

Wants to get his cock out and stroke himself until he's cumming all over the smart shirt he put on earlier this evening when he was still a bundle of nerves at the prospect of Aizawa fucking his girlfriend. But he forces himself to be happy with the heavy petting, instead. Anymore, and it would mean admitting quite how much it's turning him on to see his beloved Sensei turn you into a sobbing mess.

In his eagerness to consume you, Aizawa is near unhinging his jaw—tongue licking wide stripes up your pussy, dipping inside you, curling around your clit. You tremble beneath it all, body melting into the sheets and hands twitching absently at each touch. You seem overwhelmed. Like your edge is approaching closer than you thought it would. Your hips rock back onto Aizawa's face more insistently, and he matches you easily, doubling down his efforts until you're releasing a litany of sweet, short whines consecutively—toes curling and shins kicking upwards at the knee.

Hitoshi can smell the sweat in the air—see the beads of perspiration catching the light along the dips and curves of your body. Aching to taste, his jaw unsticks itself from the iron grip it's been held in, and a small sound of arousal meets the air. Hitoshi winces immediately, but neither of you notices, not when you're a breath away from cumming, nor when Aizawa is clutching you like a meal—all big predator hands and tongue.

"Closecloseclose, 'm close, daddy-nghhh, daddy—"

Aizawa hums into your cunt, pulling out his thumb, petting one hand down your thigh and tightening his fingers there, using his hold to splay you open further. Your hands jerk out. One stretched wide and clutching the bedspread. Another flinging back in an effort to find Aizawa's.

"Daddy," you plead.

Sensei glances over the swell of your ass and sees the request for what it is—touch, connection. A rock in an open ocean threatening to swallow you whole. He reaches for you easily with his other hand, as though the action of grounding you is as familiar to him as breathing. As natural as the tides and the wind and the way a predator plays with its food.

Tangling your fingers together, Aizawa lowers them to the bed and squeezes. Hitoshi's breathing has long since surpassed shaky. He thinks he might actually be dying. Lungs expanding and contracting in short, heaving spurts that bring nothing but madness to poison his mind.

You sob, the sound lined with comfort—you know you're safe.

Daddy's got you.

Daddy's making you feel so good.

Daddy's in charge. You don't need to think.

Hitoshi swallows back a groan, head tipping back slightly as the pleasure surges—as you clutch Aizawa's hand so tightly the colour bleeds into white.

When you cum, there's a strangely silent air about it for someone usually so loud.

Your mouth opens around a moan that he never hears, another gasp cut off at its head. Your eyes open and then widen. Every muscle in your body locks tight—thighs tightening around Aizawa's head, toes and fingers curling. It's the hottest thing Hitoshi's ever seen.

But Aizawa doesn't let up.

Doesn't seem phased by the death grip, nor the way you're trying to strangle him.

He licks you through it, slurping on your clit and flicking his tongue cruelly. You shake and shake and shake. Trembling like a leaf barely clinging to its tree in the heart of a storm. Eventually, you find your voice again. A light, throaty keen tumbling from your lips.

Aizawa doesn't stop.

Your keen turns into a whimper, blown-out like spun sugar.

Aizawa doesn't stop.

More tears fall down your face. Body tensing and relaxing rhythmically, as though you wish to escape, to crawl away from Aizawa, but that endless well of your energy is finally dried up.

A broken sob. Helpless.

Aizawa doesn't stop.

Hitoshi's so close. Boxers soaked through, hard cock pulsing under his hand. Every noise you make has his dick twitching like a reflexive action—like you're both one and the same, one mind in two bodies.

"Da-ah-ddy," you sob, hiccuping over the word. "T'mucht'mucht'much."

You try to lift the hand tangled with his to push at his face, but Aizawa shuts that down quickly, chuckling into your cunt when you let out a panicked whine, too limp to do anything but take what he's giving you.

Aizawa doesn't say anything, keeps his mouth close to your pussy. Eats away at you like oxygen corroding metal—stripping back layer after layer until there's nothing left, until you're twitching like a dying animal, until you're crying out and cumming on his face again. Cunt fluttering on Aizawa's mouth, arousal dripping down the stubble on his chin—the insides of your thighs rubbed pink and raw.

You have nothing left to give after this one. Hitoshi can see it as clear as day.

You're gone.

The cries he hears aren't your own, nor is the way your body shakes through your third orgasm helplessly.

Aizawa doesn't stop.

Hitoshi feels his stomach swoop.

Your hips spasm madly and he uses his hold on your thigh to push you wider, to push you down into the bed and scrape his teeth gently over your clit just to hear you sob.

"Da-ah—"

You try. You really do.

"Da-ddy-ple-ah-seee-uhhh-nghhh—"

Your cries fall on deaf ears, though. And Hitoshi can do nothing about it. Can't help you. Can't soothe you. Can't do anything but watch you fall apart and hope that his Sensei knows how to pick up the pieces after the scene ends.

"Please-ah-ahh-ngh-plea—" you hiccup wetly. "—please."

Hitoshi doesn't even know what you're begging for. If you want Aizawa to stop or keep going until there are truly no thoughts left in your brain. If you're begging for the sake of begging or begging because you really will rupture at the seams, if all your insides will tumble onto the bed in a vulnerable, undignified heap of entrails that Hitoshi honestly doesn't think he's equipped to handle.

Aizawa slurps at your cunt. All it takes is him fucking his tongue inside you, chin brushing your clit roughly, and you're coming again with a sharp, startled cry.

"Daddy!"

Hitoshi's toes curl, thighs tense. He takes one look at the blissed out expression on your face and cums too, thick spurts of release wetting his already damp boxers. Warmth drips down to his balls. He kicks up into his touch with a hiss and notes the way Aizawa's gaze flickers over to him for just a moment before he's focusing back on you, sucking your clit into his mouth as you tumble within moments back into overstimulation. The pleasant wave of your orgasm is barely a wave at all—as though you dipped a toe in the water only to be submerged entirely a beat later, yanked so deep you can't breathe.

You honestly look like you're about to pass out.

"Haaa-ngh-ahhh, st-stop n'moren'morepleaseda-ah-ddy."

Now, you’re desperate enough to try to crawl up the bed, body heavy with delirium, and you try to get your knees under you to move. It doesn't work. As soon as your hips raise up a scant few inches, they drop back to the bed with another brush of Aizawa's tongue. As though that's all it takes to render you utterly useless.

You get an elbow under you—another suck on your clit—and collapse face-first into the sheets.

"Daddydaddyda-ah-ddy," you chant listlessly, as effective as words being carried away by the wind. "I c'n't— can't— nonono, n'moreplease— ple-hah-please. Please!"

Aizawa hums against you and your gasp melds with a low, wounded whine—more pain than pleasure, but Hitoshi can't help the way his spent dick twitches anyway. He's sick in the head like that. Enjoys seeing you writhe and cry. He's never seen you quite this fucked out before, though.

"St-sto-ah-stop," you whine. "Pleasedaddyplease, stop."

Hitoshi wonders where the line is for his Sensei. What would it take to get him to actually stop? Is there a number of orgasms he's going for? Or is he reading your body and listening to your little whimpers the same way animals sense air pressure changes? Hitoshi would've hesitated when you were trying to crawl away from him at least. Aizawa didn't even seem phased. In fact, he's still eating you out like there's nowhere he'd rather be. Perfectly settled on his stomach, lapping at the wet mess of arousal dripping from your core, with one big hand keeping your pussy on his face and the other pressing your weak hand to the bed.

"N'moren'more I c'n't— daaaddyyyy!"

Aizawa laughs again, a soft puff of breath that only serves to make you arch your back, thighs tightening and spasming through a weird, panicked stretch as you relax them right after. You let out a choked sob and press your face into the blankets. You've been crying for so long that your entire face is wet, and Hitoshi stares at the sight in some kind of daze.

Aizawa is tongue-fucking you again. Your chest is still heaving—not even recovered from your last orgasm, or the one before that—and Hitoshi might actually die. He can feel his dick hardening again in his ruined boxers, and the feeling is simultaneously uncomfortable and so hot that he bites his bottom lip until he feels it split. Until there's an iron tang along his tongue. Until he wishes he were the one with his face buried between your legs instead. Until he wishes he were the one beneath—

"Daddydaddydaddy—" you jerk the hand under his again, desperate for something, anything, but Aizawa merely squeezes his own, "—nghhh stopstop, plea-uhhhhhhh—"

Between one breath and the next, you're tipping over into another orgasm, but this time it isn't pretty. You let out a loud, cracked cry—so pitiful that Hitoshi winces in sympathy immediately—and immediately dissolve into shuddering tears, riding out the orgasm through wet, gasping breaths. Hitoshi isn't even sure if it feels good this time. There's been no real break between orgasms, and Sensei has been torturing you nonstop.

Though Aizawa does lap at you more gently this time, tongue licking wide, flat stripes up your pussy. When your whine overflows into anguish, Aizawa finally slows to a stop. Apparently, stopping doesn’t mean not touching you at all. He gives you a brief reprieve, letting you suck in one stuttering breath, another, lets you open your eyes—Hitoshi didn't even realise they'd closed, gaze caught on Aizawa’s vigour—then, he leans forward and presses a soft kiss on your clit: a brush of lips, a quiet, wet smacking sound as he parts, like how Hitoshi kisses the forehead of his cat.

Hitoshi startles at the wall of heat that realisation brings.

You whimper, entire body twitching like a live wire.

A kiss.

Another.

Hitoshi inhales something shaky. More tears stream down your face.

You both know he's winding down the scene now—that you're okay, that you're good, that you got through it. But you're still reacting to every kiss like it's a brand. As though each one could be the promise of more trials and tribulations you won't survive.

Aizawa tilts his head up and kisses your entrance. Places a chaste kiss on either side of your pussy. One on your perineum. Another on the crease of your ass. He loosens his fingers around yours and brushes his thumb over the back of your hand kindly.

"Did so well," he murmurs into your thigh, pressing a kiss there. "So well, sweet girl."

Your sob of relief splinters in two as you recognise the words for what they are—you're done.

Aizawa sits up after placing one final kiss on the globe of your asscheek, and you immediately slump deadweight onto the bed without his hand propping your hip up. You're a mess. Flushed and sweaty and teary-eyed. Trembles wrack your body with every shaky breath you inhale as you try to get oxygen back in your lungs—as you try to slow down the borderline-hyperventilating you've been doing.

Unfortunately, Hitoshi is immediately distracted by Aizawa's cock. Red and weepy, slapping against his stomach when Aizawa shifts his legs under to sit between your spread ones. He rolls his shoulders before brushing big palms up and down your legs soothingly, content to quietly watch for now as you regulate your breathing. Hitoshi watches the exchange with a strange pain in his heart, as though someone has reached through his chest and squeezed it in their fist.

"There y'go," Aizawa says, a palm massaging the meat of your thigh.

You whine lowly, but it's more for the sake of making noise than anything else. This is particularly apparent when you make no move to do anything after—lying like a corpse as though Aizawa literally ate your soul out through your pussy. Leaning down to brush the hair matted to your nape, Aizawa's mouth tips up into a small, satisfied smile. It's fond, too—Hitoshi realises with a start. Undeniably sweet and soft and… affectionate, where he stares down at your spent, quivering form.

Hitoshi feels like he's going to throw up. His dick is also half-hard again.

Predictably, this moment of panic is precisely when Sensei decides to turn towards him.

Aizawa gives him a once-over before quirking a brow.

"You okay?" he asks quietly, as though preserving the peace of your afterglow.

Hitoshi nods. Swallows once against the sand in his throat. Brushes an antsy hand back through his hair to try to burn some of the weird energy simmering low in his gut. He isn't okay, not really, but he can't say as such to the older man.

Aizawa doesn't chastise, but Hitoshi can tell he wants to.

"I'm okay," he corrects, putting his thoughts into words—stomach swooping when he registers the rough notes to his voice, coarse from disuse.

Narrowing his eyes, Aizawa gives him a short nod.

Then, "Go shower. I'll clean her up."

Hitoshi winces. Shouldn't he be the one looking after them both? After all, he wasn't even technically involved in the scene.

"No, it's— it's okay. I'll, uh," he moves to stand, "I'll get you both a wet flannel."

"Shinsou."

Hitoshi's spine locks again embarrassingly fast, despite being only halfway out of his seat. Jesus. He really hopes his Sensei doesn't notice how weird he's being. A bit of weird after his girlfriend just got fucked is fine, but if he realises why he's acting weird…

Hitoshi will die.

He tilts his head, trying to seem nonchalant. "Hm?"

Aizawa only trails his eyes down to Hitoshi's crotch. He's confused for all of a heartbeat before he follows his Sensei's gaze to where there's an absurdly obvious cum stain on his trousers. He tenses his jaw. That's humiliating, Hitoshi thinks to himself dryly. What am I, a teenager?

But then again, this is less humiliating than the alternative: jerking off and having his spent dick in his hand and cum all over his nice shirt, had he not thought better of it.

Thank god he did cum in his pants, all things considered.

Aizawa smirks, the corner of his eyes crinkling in amusement. "Go shower," he repeats. "I've got her, don't worry."

Hitoshi glances down at you and—oh. You're asleep.

Upset expression smoothed out into peacefulness. Face still wet and flushed. Hands still half-clutching the sheets like you're not quite convinced you're safe just yet. He looks back up at Aizawa, but his gaze gets caught on the way.

"But you're still..." he gestures helplessly to Aizawa's hard cock, hanging between his legs.

How the hell do you tell your mentor they're still hard?

How the hell do you say it's okay if you need to go and deal with that?

"I'm okay," Aizawa chuckles. Hitoshi feels his skin break out into gooseflesh "Why don't you both stay the night? I'll get you some clean clothes. Cook you dinner.

Hitoshi bites his lip uncertainly.

"Saves you driving home…" Aizawa adds.

Hitoshi can't find his words. Aizawa seems to notice.

"That was heavier than I was anticipating," he offers lowly, eyes turning kind.

So his Sensei didn't have it all planned out then. Weirdly, Hitoshi feels some relief at that.

"It was," Hitoshi agrees a bit uselessly, still lost as to the turn tonight's taken—the realisations he's been forced to reckon with.

Aizawa nods. "So stay."

He says it like it's simple.

Maybe it is.

Hitoshi stares at his fucked out girlfriend strewn across Aizawa's bed. At his Sensei, hovering over her like a sentinel.

Yeah, Hitoshi thinks to himself quietly, tipping his chin up to meet Aizawa's wine-pool eyes. Maybe it is.

"Alright, we'll stay."

‹‹ MASTERLIST ・ PART II

reflex was a funny thing, even funnier as an excuse of yanking the rising hem further down your thighs. for your own decency, he'd say if you asked. you didn't. but he wasn't your lover, he wasn't in the position for any eyefuls.

still, your thighs were soft.

his spine realigned with the curve of the polyester seat, hands only slightly fumbling to curl around the wheel.

“what am i going to do with you?”

your lips quivered, but they're shut tight. it wasn't yet your part in this song and dance.

a push of the gear, turns of the wheel, and the car too nice to be his slowly exited the club's fluorescently-lit parking lot, disappearing into the sea of sedans and their blinkers making their way out of downtown.

this predicament was conflicting, all because of his stupid heart. it's juvenile for the ‘pushing thirty’ eraserhead, whose life had been—for much worse than better—work, work, and more work. it's the way of grown adults, the way of pro-heroes, and the way of a lone man with his regretful qualifications. he wasn't organized enough to have a list, but he knew his priorities. and it shouldn't be going out of his way to drive his drunken, underdressed former.. something, when he was still on the clock.

your name lit up his screen mid-patrol after what had been months of nothing; no contact, not even a text or scribbles on folded paper slipped through windows. when it ended, it was a clean cut. his blade had been sharpened and thus, his words cutthroat.

“we should stop,” he stated one early night, perched on your balcony. “i'm not someone you should be involved with, let alone long-term. besides the obvious threat my work brings, i can't give you what you want or need. but you'll find someone else. i know you will.”

it took everything in him to not look back as he swung off into the night, leaping over rooftops. but somehow, his resolve held up. and for a while, so did yours. no contact, not even a tearful voicemail begging for an explanation or for his return—nothing. if he felt anything by then, he couldn't have known. work kept him underwater, and he didn't have the time to feel a single thing.

until tonight. until, for some reason, you were stupid enough to reach for booze and your name flashed across his phone with that stupid pop song you set as your personal ringtone ages ago, lulling him to answer. it's stupid; the instantaneous halt of his breaths, the rush of his heart rattling beneath his ribs, his thumbs twitching with hesitation and the worst feeling in the universe. longing. the kind that revived a soul in stasis, breathing it back to painful, lucid life.

bubblegum pop died in his grasp, and with the speed of a man chasing a high, his thumbs rushed to call back. just in case. you could be hurt, you could be afraid—it had to be the only reason you would stoop so low to have broken this resolve. the electric buzz under his skin wasn't because he longed to hear your voice again, no. no, he was just worried.

“baby?”

the night was too eager to take his breath away—or, with the autumn chill, his lungs just gave in to the cold and froze.

“aizawa,” you mumbled, and he's intoxicated. what a voice, singing his name—but he sobered up fast, alert with the realization that he never heard you slur like a drunk. “i miss you.”

your resolve had been doused in god knows how much alcohol, and it was only with plea after plea after sweetened plea, that you finally sent him your location; some club downtown where your ‘work bestie’ ditched you to get laid, so you said. he was lucky yamada's car was still in his possession—borrowed it for an errand and all—made it faster for him to get to you before someone could notice the lonely drunk girl drinking away her feelings and get some ideas. also, he would've been subjecting a poor taxi driver into this tension curdling the air within the vehicle that was a better sound system than it was an ideal ride. he would've felt at least a little bad.

‘cause right now, it's like they were sitting in half-done gelatin, sinking slowly.

his rough voice cut through the thick tension first. “you feeling nauseous?”

“no.” not yet.

dark eyes flitted from the road and to the goosebumps dotting your skin. in the club, your belongings were only a highly impractical tiny purse. the employee at the cloakroom said that the other woman—the ‘work bestie’—had retrieved the jacket you wore coming in. he didn't know what to do with that information other than clench his jaw. in the backseat, your ‘purse’ idly laid upon a few loose strands of his bindings, right beside the pile. “cold?”

bluing fingertips picked at your cheap, peel-off polish. “no.”

he adjusted the heating anyway. he didn't know what he expected; it's not like former somethings were inclined to communicate.

nevertheless, his left hand reached to open the mini-fridge in the center console, remembering the water bottles yamada usually stored there. he had one earlier, on his errands. deft fingers lifted the cold bottle by the neck, offering it in your direction without much of a glance.

“drink.”

the bottle left his grasp at some point, he was rather relieved to hear the gulps of you downing the damn thing.

it was now the part of the song where the dance began. calloused digits tapped impatiently to a rhythm that wasn't there as the tide of cars came to a stop, red bleeding in through the windshield. he glanced, your sniffles slowly died out—each seat was a room of its own, separated by the great wall of the center console. and yet, he was still peering through its window. looking at that tiny-ass dress you wore; lime green, clinging to your body like second skin and somehow holding up, what with those tinier straps. beneath it, a hot pink bra, the lace peeking out from the low cut. you were bright as always even with your messed-up makeup, shiny with body glitter and jewelry. and he's in all black, scruff unshaven and hair untidy. you were beautiful in traffic lights, in fluorescent green and in the moonlight.

it was then that he tore his gaze away. wasn't good for his already poor eyes to stare at the sun for too long, and you were always so blinding.

that was it, wasn't it? your radiance. made cowards like him shrivel up.

pale blue cotton hair wisped in his memory, and he swallowed his bile. post-chorus, he forcefully quelled the deja vu and ptsd warring in his mind. radiance and the ghosts it left, haunting his house for as long as he'd have it.

red turned to yellow and turned green, and the drive resumed.

“did you finally get a car?”

not only did it feel juvenile, but the way he perked up at the sound of your voice—small as it was—asking him a question made him feel even more foolish. he was too old to have the tender heart of a schoolboy. his gaze flickered once, twice. through the curls that curtained your smudged eyes, you were observing the interior, the dashboard.

“no,” he replied. “it's yamada's.”

“oh.” was it disappointment? did the imagination he had little of stretch your tone so far and wide? had it been so long that he forgot how judgement sounded in your melody? “that makes sense.”

“the sound system?”

“the fridge.”

both of you had been sitting in silence, of course you hadn’t noticed. “oh. right.”

“yeah.”

was it still a song or was it simply a verbal no-man's-land where words came to die?

in the corner of his eyes, he caught the way you shifted in the passenger seat, half-empty bottle clutched over your thighs, looking like you were holding your breath—or at least, something.

“i'm sorry i called.”

instead of only his pupils, his head turned just a little bit your way—only for a moment. he was still driving, after all.

“i don't.. i thought she got me a mocktail and i guess—”

his brows twitched together. “you didn’t know it was alcoholic?”

“‘course not,” your voice wobbled. “i told her that i didn't drink. i wanted juice.”

not that he ever really wondered, but you turned out to be a sad drunk. it would've been the slightest bit amusing if it weren't for the fact that your ‘work bestie’ gave you a drink without your consent.

fingers wound around the wheel, his knuckles whitened as he tightened his grip.

“i don't like your friend.”

the tears resumed, dripping more glitter. “she's not really my friend.”

“then don't go out with her again,” he almost growled. “or to clubs. they're not safe.”

“i wasn't with you though,” you murmured, slurred. “thought that was the obvious threat.”

you might as well have shot a bullet straight through his heart.

his jaw clenched, and if it was possible, his grip on the steering wheel grew even tighter.

“yeah, you're right.”

the gelatin firmed up just a little more, and oxygen was running thin.

maybe you weren't sobering up as much as he thought you were—actually, it was stupid that he considered the idea at all. you had never even downed a shot. but his curt, defeated words roused even more tears out of you and soon, your crying resumed, the song yanking hard at his heartstrings.

“you really hate me.”

it's reflexive, a knee-jerk blurt. “i don't hate you.”

“you hate me so much,” you sobbed into the back of your hand, head hung low in shame and melancholy. “you think i'm stupid.”

“i think i want your coworker fired, i don't think you're stupid.” his retort came firm, a warning for any argument that could arise henceforth. but no warning really worked on someone inebriated, and you were still a night away from pure sobriety.

“but you left me,” you cried, tears raining down your thighs. “out of fucking nowhere—you left me, you left me. when i thought i was doing okay—”

every word ran a spike through his heart, like the very organ was beaten down by a baseball bat with nails. bleeding out alone in a foul-smelling alleyway was better, losing a limb would be easier—and yet, he still had to drive home the very source of his well-deserved heartache.

sadness he had long suppressed posed a threat to his poor, dry eyes; prickling and stinging, prying out moisture like he was a wrung-out wet shirt. he let his lungs balloon and swallowed the big, painful lump in his throat—his best attempt at restraint. he worried her brain would assign this as his exasperation, his lack of love and like and favor. if he survived this, he reckoned he could survive anything.

“you did nothing wrong.” he had to tear those words out of his stupid throat, and yet he sounded just as flat all the same.

it did nothing but worsen her pain.

“so you just hated me.”

“no. no, sweetheart. i—” a freudian slip if there had ever been one.

it was the life in his just-reawakened soul, he surmised later on. that was the only explanation that made sense to him as to why he had the gall to try to cut through the great wall of the center console and reach for her hand, needing to intertwine her wet fingers with his rough, dry ones. maybe he was just human, still fighting to breathe past the hurt suffocating him from the inside out.

but he was probably just selfish.

he paused just before he would cross the line, fingertips twitching as they hovered, skin warming with the ghost of your tears in this thick air for one, two, three seconds. only to retract. to settle back and rest on the gearshift.

the thick, heavy air was all he could breathe. cracking a window felt pointless when your apartment was within sight, so he settled. pro-heroes could escape every pinch, so he could be level-headed while time ran out.

‘i love you’, he really wanted to say.

“i didn't hate you,” was what left his mouth. for better or worse, his resolve was returning, rebuilding itself sky-high like the cementoss' handiwork. “i just did what i had to do.”

your head finally lifted, and as he parked by the sidewalk—your apartment building just a stumble away—your gazes finally met. properly, at least.

and for the first and last time in a while that he'd see you again, there was nothing but heartbreak looking back at him.

their song swelled, a crescendo fast and something hard and painful and soul-crushing waiting to hit.

don't touch her, he reminded himself, fortifying his resolve by gripping tightly onto the steering wheel. don't reach for her, don't kiss her—

“i must've been so bad to you in a past life if it turned out this way.”

the resolve cracked and his face twisted in pain—the only glimpse of raw emotion he had truly expressed before you, he considered. his chest heaved, throat winding tight as it ached. his every nerve ending was on fire, his heart rattled so angrily that his ribs felt like they'd bruise come sunrise. if drunk words were sober thoughts, and if you truly believed in what you uttered, his poor soul wished he was under the influence right then and there with you. maybe it would've led to the ending where he was braver, where he was more of a man and less of a coward, trembling before your radiance. maybe it would've led to a kiss and an invite upstairs, to a ring on your finger and a shared apartment, to a brighter life even in his darkest nights.

but he was sober. and his resolve was the bane of his existence. it may had cracked, but it was yet to crumble. he rebuilded. he wouldn't kiss you, he had no plans of leaving the car even if you stumbled her your up to your place. it was for the best. the best heroes made sacrifices for the greater good. he was nowhere near the best, he wasn't as good a person as all might nor was he close as capable.

what he was, was enough for his work. not enough for you—never enough.

“i'm sure you had your reasons.” he crossed the great wall—however, only to unbuckle your seatbelt. “and i'm sure i deserved it.”

reaching for your impractical purse where it had lied by his bindings in the back seat, he held it up to you as he unlocked the car, settling back in his seat.

“i'll take care of your coworker,” he promised. more so warned you, really. he had every intention on digging up dirt on her the moment he was back—people like that were made of patterns, and patterns meant a trail. and when he eventually finds something, he already had a burner email to send it through. “don't go clubbing. if you really want to, do it with your actual friends. and watch your drinks, order them yourself or get someone you trust—”

“you're nagging,” you whined, wiping her own tears.

“—and don't call me again.”

you still hadn't taken the purse from his grasp. at this rate, he might even have to touch you. he shouldn't—he wouldn't remember how not to.

the way your face fell and twisted only worsened the agony in his soul.

“ever?”

“only for emergencies, okay?” he tried to keep his voice level, he really did. you'd be out of the door soon and once again, out of his life. “only if you really need me.”

take the purse and go, please.

another tear rolled down your cheek, but there's a light in your eyes. something firm, unwavering. a resolve. you're sobering up, loading your gun to retaliate. it's passing of the bridge, and the two of you were in the outro.

you snatched the purse out of his hand.

“i hope you sleep well.”

the very short outro.

door opened, you rushed out the car with as little stumble as possible for someone in hot pink heels and partially sober, slamming the door shut right behind you and cutting the song to an abrupt halt—hard enough for him to break out of the spell and wince. the regrets were quick to flood in and faster to suppress. he regretted not kissing you, he regretted nothing, he regretted not touching you, he regretted nothing, he wished he held your hand, regretted nothing, he wished he could leave this car. he couldn't. not for your sake.

he watched helplessly as you disappeared into the entrance, stomping-stumbling in and out of his field of vision. he wasn't ready to move, too stuck in his thoughts and regrets—your words echoing in his mind.

the windows were still fully shut as he drove off; some selfish, idiotic desire to keep the ghost of your presence—the warmth of you in the passenger seat, the indent of your joke of a purse where it slightly rested on his bindings, the bottle you took from the mini-fridge. eraserhead wasn't a pro-hero of superstition, but shota aizawa was a man of despair who threw out his one salvation; a fool repeating a song to relive the feeling of experiencing it the very first time.

“i hope you sleep well.” you both knew he never will.

you had cursed him for all eternity in your drunken stupor.

☾ — ik that i literally had a poll w like four other characters n concepts but my period came early n very painfully so this is what u guys r getting so whoopsies 🤭 thank u for all the love for the katsuki drabbles, i promise i'll write something serious 4 him eventually and that i will follow up on the poll results. if u enjoyed n would like to keep seeing me n my serious writing, once again pls reblog n leave comments to support n encourage me :] i love u thank u 4 reading my shit ♡♡