Not a republican nor military simp. I just think big dudes in tac gear are sexy. I write darker things so Watch Out. Roachtruther and Fic Writer. I've actually been writing since 6th grade, which is uh. Over a decade now lol
This is my TV-14 (DLSV) blog.
My Main Blog: @tinyduckies (also TV-14 DLSV)
My 18+ AO3: tinyduckies
My 18+ Sideblog: @sideroachblog
Minors can interact with *this* blog and my main, not the other sideblog listed above. I ask that minors don't read my 18+ fics highlighted orange (the others are fine, highlighted blue). Ultimately I cannot parent you and do not care to do so, so if you fuck yourself up reading my adult fics I blame your parents.
Heed the TWs!!
Masterlist Under the Cut
Completed:
1. Roach Wouldn't Really Do It...
GhostRoach ANGSTY Hurt/Comfort One-Shot
HEAVY TW: Suicidal Thoughts
2. Leg Day
18+ Oneshot, SoapRoach Public Gym Shenanigans
3. Exhaustion's a Funny Thing
18+ Oneshot, GhostRoach Totally-Not-a-Date
TW: Mild Homophobia Mention, Alcohol Consumption, Drunk Sex
4. The Apple of My Eye
SoapGhost Hurt/Comfort One-Shot
TW: Mortality, Parental Death/Hospice Care
5. Subatomic
Röanig [RoachKönig] One-Shot, Developing Friendship/Crush, Can Be Read as One-Sided or Mutual Pining
KeegRoach Hypothermia Fic, pt. 1 but can be read by itself.
TW: Head Injury/TBI, Broken Bones, Unconsciousness, Drowning, Hypothermia
7. Rope Training
18+ Oneshot, SoapGhostRoach. Title explains it lol
WIPS:
1. Outside Looking In
18+ longform content, has occasional smut. SoapGhostRoach. Takes place after Roach is rescued from an Ultranationalist prison camp. From Soap's perspective as he grapples with his crush on Ghost while learning more about Ghost's intimacy with Roach, as well as Roach's past first-hand rather than by word-of-mouth.
~90k words, >2/3 complete, updated every month/every two months because I work full time.
Don't read if you hate communication issues/miscommunication in fic.
18+ KeegRoach pt. 2, post-Frozen Solid where they reconnect and focus on getting together while Roach recovers and Keegan deals with his father's shitty behavior tying him to America when he'd rather move on with his life. Has occasional smut.
~16.5k words. I dunno if I'll finish it. I would love to but you know how it is lol
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I wish kinky sex ed wasn't so stigmatized even among left-leaning "sex positive" circles. Everyone's all "uwu I'm a sub I'll do anything you ask" okay mommy wants you to read The New Bottoming Book so you learn how to sub without hurting yourself since your sex ed up to this point is porn and your ex boyfriend Jared who liked to choke you incorrectly
I’m so glad you asked! Let me list off what I’ve got for you:
Books I personally recommend:
- The New Topping Book and The New Bottoming Book, by Dossie Easton and Janet W. Hardy
If you’re having kinky sex at all, you need to read at least one of these two books. Point blank. They’ll teach you the very basics of negotiating properly (which is critical!), and help you identify what you are and aren’t into.
- Mindfucking Mindfully, by Sir Ezra
Where this book really shines isn’t actually in helping you “mindfuck” people, it’s in taking a close look at how to do so ethically. It’s a great answer to the question “how do I get someone to consent to something and still surprise and shock them with it?”
- Real Service by Raven Kaldera and Joshua Tenpenny
This is a slightly niche pick but there simply isn’t a better book on the subject. It’s written from a 24/7 M/s perspective, which is not what I do, but the book itself is an indispensable guide to giving and receiving service. The phrase “if the Master doesn’t want it, it isn’t service” will be burned into my psyche for quite some time. I love this book a lot. Maybe my favorite out of all of these.
- Enough To Make You Blush: Exploring Erotic Humiliation, by Princess Kali
This one’s high on my reading list; I’ve heard it recommended by a number of people whose opinions on these things I trust.
- Pretty Much Anything Midori Has Ever Done
Midori is a great resource for this stuff - I haven’t personally read much of her work, but she’s a well known sex educator and great at what she does. She’s known for bondage, but has a lot of range beyond that.
- This Negotiations Worksheet from Bex Talks Sex
This is what I default to using a lot of the time for negotiations. Forget BDSMtest, you don’t need that, it’s no good. Just look through this worksheet’s wordbank with your partner. Big fan especially of the “how do you want to feel?” section.
Books I can kind of recommend:
- The Ultimate Guide to Kink, edited by Tristan Taormino
This book is weird. There’s a lot of good info for experienced players, but some of what’s written here skeeves me out. I think if I had a top that thought the way some of the tops in here think, they would not be topping me for long. But there’s some good techniques and so on to pick up that I wouldn’t have otherwise. I liked the distinction one of the authors makes between being sadistic in the sense of inflicting pain and being sadistic in the sense of doing something your sub doesn’t “enjoy.”
- The Ritual of Dominance and Submission, by David English
Man, this book fucking sucks. The writing and editing are garbage, and the fear and protocol play described need way more careful negotiation than he ever lets on, let alone recommends. This is some 50 Shades bullshit. The only time I recommend this book is to tops like me who tend to be very affirming to their partners and need a guide on how to really scare them - when their partner consents and when you negotiate it, which this book sucks at teaching you. Really good content on fear, punishment, and protocol play, really terrible presentation of the topic though. Don’t read this if you don’t already know what you’re doing.
- Paradigms of Power, by Raven Kaldera
I love this book. Great book. Very focused on 24/7 M/s play though, and, being an anthology, some chapters are better than others. If you can’t read something and pick out what is and isn’t for you, don’t bother. But some really great inspiration, and generally pretty well written. Big fan of the discussion of leather throughout the book.
Hope some of these are helpful for people ^-^ for the average person reading this I recommend New Bottoming/Topping, but they’re all important parts of my library and I’ve recommended all of them to friends at some point or another.
May I also suggest Hell on Wheels and Kneeling in Spirit by Raven Kaldera, d/s companion books that address kink with a disability. They're a should read for everyone, imo. You never know when you or a partner are going to have changes in your body that affect what you can physically do. Temporary illness/injury and even just age can affect your sex life.
I'd like to suggest Better Bondage for Every Body! It goes really in depth on anatomy, pain processing, self-tying, and has chapters specifically focusing on how to do rope bondage on/for someone who is disabled or has chronic pain, which was really important to me.
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I normally tag these posts “specific ass machines” after a minor meme that blew through Tumblr, but I was tempted to tag this one “specific boob machines”.
how do i say this. if you're a smut writer and you're looking to improve your smut writing you kind of have to read horror books if you intend to improve through reading traditional writing. mainstream 'spicy' romances do not come close to the sheer visceral graphic depiction in horror. like these things are genuinely connected. i cant explain but take my word for it. im saying this as a huge scaredy cat. but you have to trust me
there is really no other genre that so properly covers those big feelings and goes into such detail about the physical sensations like horror does. the blood and guts or the hollowness. it's all parallel to skin and fullness. like do you see what i mean
bless OP for putting into words what i've been trying to articulate. when my brain is in the Writing Place, i end up writing a lot of smut and... horror-adjacent stuff? psychological horror? i read and write darkfic, is what i'm getting at, and i do consider what i look for and what i make for myself to be in that genre. i don't tend to go in for particularly bloody or gory works just because too much of that is my squick, but mild body horror and monsters and psychological stuff gets my attention, especially when you get into themes of perception of reality, autonomy, social engineering, that sort of thing.
having read/written smut and horror separately and together, they're sister genres. the umph that you get from psychological or body horror is made of the same building blocks as effective, filthy smut. my sex scenes have improved as i've written darker stories.
both subjects are about intimacy, what you can do with it, what people are like without it or when it's withheld from them, either between characters or a character's intimacy with themselves. it's the same reason why, say, a lot of scenes of violence in non-horror properties end up feeling sexy or why villain shipping is so so popular.
also, it can't be left unsaid... the physical act of sex is gross (positive, in this context, all of this is positive). it's squishy, awkward, and strange. horror doesn't tend to shy away from the inherent awkward squishiness of the body or the sensitivity and strangeness of the mind and has made a whole genre out of effectively leveraging them instead. writing good porn is the same, just with some of the dials adjusted. sex is already kind of a gross weird thing to be doing, that's kind of part of the point. if you're in the market for writing explicit smut, leaning into that is the best way to make it filthier and more effective.
how do i say this. if you're a smut writer and you're looking to improve your smut writing you kind of have to read horror books if you intend to improve through reading traditional writing. mainstream 'spicy' romances do not come close to the sheer visceral graphic depiction in horror. like these things are genuinely connected. i cant explain but take my word for it. im saying this as a huge scaredy cat. but you have to trust me
there is really no other genre that so properly covers those big feelings and goes into such detail about the physical sensations like horror does. the blood and guts or the hollowness. it's all parallel to skin and fullness. like do you see what i mean
bless OP for putting into words what i've been trying to articulate. when my brain is in the Writing Place, i end up writing a lot of smut and... horror-adjacent stuff? psychological horror? i read and write darkfic, is what i'm getting at, and i do consider what i look for and what i make for myself to be in that genre. i don't tend to go in for particularly bloody or gory works just because too much of that is my squick, but mild body horror and monsters and psychological stuff gets my attention, especially when you get into themes of perception of reality, autonomy, social engineering, that sort of thing.
having read/written smut and horror separately and together, they're sister genres. the umph that you get from psychological or body horror is made of the same building blocks as effective, filthy smut. my sex scenes have improved as i've written darker stories.
both subjects are about intimacy, what you can do with it, what people are like without it or when it's withheld from them, either between characters or a character's intimacy with themselves. it's the same reason why, say, a lot of scenes of violence in non-horror properties end up feeling sexy or why villain shipping is so so popular.
also, it can't be left unsaid... the physical act of sex is gross (positive, in this context, all of this is positive). it's squishy, awkward, and strange. horror doesn't tend to shy away from the inherent awkward squishiness of the body or the sensitivity and strangeness of the mind and has made a whole genre out of effectively leveraging them instead. writing good porn is the same, just with some of the dials adjusted. sex is already kind of a gross weird thing to be doing, that's kind of part of the point. if you're in the market for writing explicit smut, leaning into that is the best way to make it filthier and more effective.
how do i say this. if you're a smut writer and you're looking to improve your smut writing you kind of have to read horror books if you intend to improve through reading traditional writing. mainstream 'spicy' romances do not come close to the sheer visceral graphic depiction in horror. like these things are genuinely connected. i cant explain but take my word for it. im saying this as a huge scaredy cat. but you have to trust me
there is really no other genre that so properly covers those big feelings and goes into such detail about the physical sensations like horror does. the blood and guts or the hollowness. it's all parallel to skin and fullness. like do you see what i mean
bless OP for putting into words what i've been trying to articulate. when my brain is in the Writing Place, i end up writing a lot of smut and... horror-adjacent stuff? psychological horror? i read and write darkfic, is what i'm getting at, and i do consider what i look for and what i make for myself to be in that genre. i don't tend to go in for particularly bloody or gory works just because too much of that is my squick, but mild body horror and monsters and psychological stuff gets my attention, especially when you get into themes of perception of reality, autonomy, social engineering, that sort of thing.
having read/written smut and horror separately and together, they're sister genres. the umph that you get from psychological or body horror is made of the same building blocks as effective, filthy smut. my sex scenes have improved as i've written darker stories.
both subjects are about intimacy, what you can do with it, what people are like without it or when it's withheld from them, either between characters or a character's intimacy with themselves. it's the same reason why, say, a lot of scenes of violence in non-horror properties end up feeling sexy or why villain shipping is so so popular.
also, it can't be left unsaid... the physical act of sex is gross (positive, in this context, all of this is positive). it's squishy, awkward, and strange. horror doesn't tend to shy away from the inherent awkward squishiness of the body or the sensitivity and strangeness of the mind and has made a whole genre out of effectively leveraging them instead. writing good porn is the same, just with some of the dials adjusted. sex is already kind of a gross weird thing to be doing, that's kind of part of the point. if you're in the market for writing explicit smut, leaning into that is the best way to make it filthier and more effective.
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Here are the 2024 vaccine recommendation schedules. They’ve already been wiped from the cdc site. Save them and share widely, especially to your friends with kids.
Violence: A Writer’s Guide: This is not about writing technique. It is an introduction to the world of violence. To the parts that people don’t understand. The parts that books and movies get wrong. Not just the mechanics, but how people who live in a violent world think and feel about what they do and what they see done.
Hurting Your Characters: HURTING YOUR CHARACTERS discusses the immediate effect of trauma on the body, its physiologic response, including the types of nerve fibers and the sensations they convey, and how injuries feel to the character. This book also presents a simplified overview of the expected recovery times for the injuries discussed in young, otherwise healthy individuals.
Body Trauma: A writer’s guide to wounds and injuries. Body Trauma explains what happens to body organs and bones maimed by accident or intent and the small window of opportunity for emergency treatment. Research what happens in a hospital operating room and the personnel who initiate treatment. Use these facts to bring added realism to your stories and novels.
10 B.S. Medical Tropes that Need to Die TODAY…and What to Do Instead: Written by a paramedic and writer with a decade of experience, 10 BS Medical Tropes covers exactly that: clichéd and inaccurate tropes that not only ruin books, they have the potential to hurt real people in the real world.
Maim Your Characters: How Injuries Work in Fiction: Increase Realism. Raise the Stakes. Tell Better Stories. Maim Your Characters is the definitive guide to using wounds and injuries to their greatest effect in your story. Learn not only the six critical parts of an injury plot, but more importantly, how to make sure that the injury you’re inflicting matters.
Blood on the Page: This handy resource is a must-have guide for writers whose characters live on the edge of danger. If you like easy-to-follow tools, expert opinions from someone with firsthand knowledge, and you don’t mind a bit of fictional bodily harm, then you’ll love Samantha Keel’s invaluable handbook
My one (mild) complaint about the original post is that it mentions these sorts of fantasies being common among both men and women, but only cites data about women. So I did a little googling, and although this wasn’t published when OP first made this post (and thus can’t be blamed for not including it), I did find this great article, from a social psychologist who reports on a survey he did of 4000 Americans aged 18-87 (not just college aged women). He found that (exact quotes from the article):
“61% of self-identified women had fantasized about this [being forced to have sex] before, while 24% said they fantasized about it often.”
“54% of self-identified men had fantasized about this before, while 11.5% said they fantasized about it often.”
“68% of non-binary participants had fantasized about this before, while 31% said they fantasized about it often.”
Interestingly, the same guy also asked people about the inverse, i.e. did they fantasize about forcing sex on someone else, which he talks about in a blog post. He found (again using exact quotes):
“20% of self-identified women had fantasized about this [forcing sex on someone else] before, while 4% said they fantasized about it often”
“38% of self-identified men had fantasized about this before, while 7% said they fantasized about it often”
“38% of non-binary participants had fantasized about this before, while 9% said they fantasized about it often”
I recommend reading both articles, they go into a lot more detail than I’ve reported here. This guy also wrote a book on this topic, though I haven’t read it.
TLDR: you’re not a freak or abnormal, there is no such thing as thoughtcrime.
Captain MacTavish laying on the bed with his legs hanging off
Roach on top of him getting fucked by Ghost doggy style. Ghost is so rough Roach can barely take it--he's shaking, crying, squirting, burying his face in the crook of Soap's neck, calling the Captain "Daddy" instead.
Soap won't fuck him--that's inappropriate, considering the power dynamic, and a line he's not comfortable crossing. But fuck if he won't encourage him, comfort him, lick tears off his cheeks. And encourage Ghost to fuck Roach harder, as well 🤭
Follow up to this. Similar scenario, but Soap is sitting up. Ghost braces himself on the back of Roach's head, forcing it down onto Soap's cock until it's in Roach's throat ☺️
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hi, this is your gentle reminder and PSA: there are ELECTIONS happening in November 4th. PLEASE GO VOTE. Trump is the most unpopular he has ever been, but does that mean your average independent, or republican will vote for a dem this time around-likely no- they probably will just skip the process entirely if they don’t have a candidate they feel strongly about. this is why i’m asking YOU SPECIFICALLY to make sure to go vote. and i don’t wanna hear any doomerism shit about how voting is a waste of time bc of whatever, guys voting is the last of anything we have it is clear most of these people who represent us do not actually care, HOWEVER trump currently has the house, senate and courts and making it even slightly harder to do anything or having a large enough group to speak out against what he’s doing will help hundreds of thousands of people in the US. now more than ever is it important to make sure that they know that we do not stand for this
people getting mad at ao3 for rightfully being firmly against censorship and allowing dark fics that depict taboo subjects in explicit details to be on their platform is so funny to me because ao3 was created specifically to be a fuck you to capitalism and censorship. the point of ao3 is that it’s a place to host and archive any fanwork, which includes fanwork about taboo topics that are not allowed on other platforms like wattpad or fanfiction.net
the whole point of ao3 is that it’s a safe space for all fics, and that includes fics about taboo subjects
ao3 has always been firmly against censorship since the day it was created, that’s why it’s run by fans, for fans, on fans’ donations, why it’s a nonprofit organization, that’s also why it has no ads or algorithms or any of those capitalism bullshit
if you have a problem with that, go to fanfiction.net or wattpad. no one forces you to stay in the house made specifically for the (affectionate) freaks
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