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hot take in a roundabout way i think that's also why so many of us opt out of becoming parents ourselves
Does anybody know how to fix it
Start disappointing people and not backing out of it when they are upset, reject feeling ashamed of everything including of yourself, start saying No to things you do not want to do not just things you're scared of, do more of those things you're scared of but wish you could do, make your own plans and execute them, decide to do or not do something without basing it on who will Dislike it.
Free Will takes practice, and the chance of making someone somewhere Slightly or even Very Disappointed In You. But you're an adult and you can't be made to stand in a corner anymore.
me every single day: even the people you love most will disappoint you and anger you and upset you because it is the nature of all humans to be flawed and your love is not the thing that will make them flawless it’s okay
me the second my best friend and i disappoint or hurt each other: I Want To Fall On A Sword And Die So I Do Not Have To Carry On In Agony
Putting the term "Catholic guilt" on a high shelf where fandom can't reach it until everyone learns how to identify characters who are very very clearly coded as Protestant.
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

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Disabled adults fuck. Disabled adults SAY fuck. Disabled adults watch porn. Disabled adults drink. Disabled adults do dangerous things for the fun of it. Disabled adults do stupid things.
Adults with Down Syndrome fuck. Adults with Down Syndrome SAY fuck. Adults with Down Syndrome watch porn. Adults with Down Syndrome drink. Adults with Down Syndrome do dangerous things for the fun of it. Adults with Down Syndrome do stupid things.
Autistic adults fuck. Autistic adults SAY fuck. Autistic adults watch porn. Autistic adults drink. Autistic adults do dangerous things for the fun of it. Autistic adults do stupid things.
Adults with Cerebral Palsy fuck. Adults with Cerebral Palsy SAY fuck. Adults with Cerebral Palsy watch porn. Adults with Cerebral Palsy drink. Adults with Cerebral Palsy do dangerous things for the fun of it. Adults with Cerebral Palsy do stupid things.
Neurodivergent and disabled adults are ADULTS.
Also 'survival of the fittest' is a process that is supposed to render an entire species better at living in their environment, allowing ultra-rich do-nothings to arbitrarily starve the people who do the actual work is not a survival strategy it's suicide
People demand fans of colour to be soft & gentle & have articulate thought out criticisms at all times. Never be wrong never be loud never be mean you have to coddle White fans and creatives, otherwise you're part of the problem. Never mind that your whole experience in fandom has been one macroaggression after another. Never mind that fandom can never be your escapism, because the discrimination you face in real life is often present in both the media you love and the fandom you participate in. Never mind that even when you are soft & gentle & articulate people will still get angry. Just shut up and let White people go to their beautiful fantasy world where people like you don't exist
This is a really valid point and everything but until like the fourth line I thought this was a discussion of like.... people who were fans of colours vs like.... dressing in all black I guess??
...its been a long day.
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I finally wrote up the article on inertia surfing that I've been meaning to put on my website for like two years. Here it is on Tumblr, but also here's a link to the page on my website if you want a printer friendly version or an easy way to share it with a non-tumblr-user.
General reminder that I've got a dedicated page on the site for the ADHD management techniques that I've found helpful as an adult with ADHD who has to manage my own time and motivation and is completely sick of searching for help with getting things done only to find articles for the parents of ADHD children.
Inertia Surfing
ADHD in motion will stay in motion, unless it gets stuck on something and turns into a barnacle.
Inertia Surfing means riding a wave of action or productivity - you started by rinsing the coffee pot and then you decided the dishes needed to be done and while you were in the kitchen there wasn't a good reason not to sweep and as you put the broom away you took the vacuum out and did the floor in your bedroom, which got you to put away your floor pile of clothes so you also got together a pile of donations and took them over to the thrift store while you returned your library book and went grocery shopping on the way home, then put the groceries away, grabbed a drink out of the fridge, and sat down on your couch wondering when the spirit of helpful elves decided to possess you.
Inertia Surfing can be involuntary - perhaps you are cleaning your entire house at midnight because you're hiding from an email - but it is also a state that can be induced and maintained in the right conditions.
Getting Started
First, note that it is not always possible to inertia surf. If you are burned out or you have looming deadlines you are probably not in a state for sustained, varied activity so much as either lethargy or panicked unidirectional action. That said, anxiety and depression can be emotional motivators for inertia surfing, and inertia surfing can help to relieve anxiety and depression. You don't precisely have to be feeling well to inertia surf, but you have to be feeling right.
But, if you're in the right state to get started (you're not exhausted, you're not avoiding an imminent deadline, you don't have any looming obligations and it's cool if you fall headfirst into action for a few hours), the way to get started is by finding the one thing in your environment or situation that is currently most annoying to you. Perhaps you've been meaning to bake for a day or two but the sink needs to be emptied first. Perhaps you want to mow the lawn but first you need to move your car. Perhaps you've got a powerpoint you need to finish at work but you need to read someone's email before you can update a slide. In these examples, it's not the baking, powerpoint, or lawn that are the barriers, it's the sink, email, and car in the driveway. If you've figured out what the barrier is, write it down or otherwise fix it in your mind (I'm going to write it down. I'm going to forget if I don't write it down.)
Once you've identified the annoying little lever, think about things that are in proximity to the project. If you empty the sink do you also need to empty the refrigerator and wash tupperware containers? If you're going to move your car anyway do you need to go anywhere with it first? If you finish the powerpoint do you have other emails you could read after? Think about the thing you want to do and the surrounding things that touch on it, if you empty the containers in the fridge does that give you space to clean the shelves? Think along that path for a little while - making a list as you go if lists are helpful to you - and think if there's anything that could stop you as you're following that path. Do you need to eat breakfast? Do you need to go to the bathroom? Is it five AM and you've got work at eight AM and should sleep for a couple hours? Before you start the ball rolling, make sure that you're going to be in a condition to lock in for at least a couple of hours. Eat something, fill your water bottle, take your meds, write your list.
You want to avoid Speedbumps that might slow you down, so plan some entertainment or Background Noise to help keep your focus and prevent you from seeking out distractions.
Now that you're prepped and you've got the vague outlines of a plan, focus back on the barrier/annoyance/lever. Think about the first step you have to take to move that lever. Walk to the kitchen. Grab your car key. Open your email client.
Okay now do it.
I know that's easier said than done, and if you aren't able to motivate yourself to take that first small action without some other motivation, consider these as possible motivations:
Future you will be much less stressed if you do this now than if you put it off
Once you are done with this thing you do not have to do other things and can fuck around as a reward
Doing the thing will mean that you have accomplished the thing and you may be given a crumb of dopamine by your brain as a reward
You get to cross the thing off your list
Nobody can yell at you for not having done the thing if you do the thing
Nobody will be waiting on you to do the thing if you do the thing
Doing the thing will prevent the thing from looming at a later date
Doing the thing is productive enough to be a good excuse to procrastinate on another, less appealing thing that you could be doing.
If none of those work, try 5-4-3-2-1-Go. If that doesn't work, try to Do the Smallest Amount Possible or see if you can Start a Timer as motivation. If those - or other initiation tricks - don't help to get you moving, you may simply not be in the right mindset today, and can always try again later. Sometimes the surf is too high and you can't get up on your board. No biggie.
If you ARE able to get started, your next goal is to keep riding the wave.
Keep Going
It is much easier to keep going than it is to start, so from here all that you have to do is bounce from task to task. This is part of why you visualized related tasks earlier and made sure that you were fed and watered and suitably entertained before you got down to the task at hand.
The trick here is to keep yourself from stopping. You are using the inertia to keep you going. You are a monkey in the jungle swinging from vine to vine - if you pause too long between swings you're going to lose your grip on the next vine. What this means is that you have to be willing to step away from a task that is slowing down the inertia. Ten mostly-done tasks is a better day's work than two completely done tasks with the rest not even started.
This means that it's important to figure out when you've hit the peak of what you can accomplish with one task. Maybe your dishwasher is full but there are still dishes in the sink - are you going to be more effective if you hand-wash the rest or if you bounce to another task while the dishwasher runs? Maybe you know that if you run errands when you move your car there's no chance you'll have the energy to mow the lawn.
If you find yourself getting to the end of a task and hesitating, or getting into the tiny details of an unimportant task, take a moment to look around you and figure out if there's some task that could be done quickly and with little effort while you're right where you are. If there is, great, do that - maybe you realized it was time to swap out the hand towels in the kitchen and suddenly you're sorting laundry, maybe you shook out the mower bag and realized the driveway needed sweeping - if there isn't, think about the list of tasks you visualized at the beginning of this wave and consider if there's another one that you can hop to.
I find that I do best maintaining my inertia when I'm doing tasks that are relatively similar - if I get started cleaning I'm probably going to have a good day of cleaning but I probably won't be able to dye my hair because that's too jarring of a switch. If I'm doing a powerpoint I may be able to write emails and create invoices, but I'll probably lose momentum if I have to make phone calls because that's reliant on another person matching my inertia.
If you're not sure how to move from one task to another before the inertia peters out, here are some possible ways to keep things going even if there is a pause between tasks:
Group similar tasks while you are planning your day, write them on a list, refer to the list as soon as you feel yourself slowing down, and go to the next item on the list.
Identify whether a task is a route into a lateral group of tasks - maybe you can go from cleaning the kitchen to taking out the trash to pruning the hedges even if you couldn't go directly from cleaning the kitchen to pruning the hedges.
Look around and grab the nearest thing that needs doing (with the right amount of ADHD there's always something that needs doing) even if it ISN'T similar to what you were just doing. Sometimes simple physical proximity is enough.
How does it end?
The end of your inertia surf is going to depend on you and your tasks and your environment. Maybe it's a good day and you get through your whole list and you don't feel a need to add more so you stop. Maybe you don't want to stop because you don't know when you'll have this time and energy again so you keep going until you're exhausted. Maybe you get through half a task and then get a nuclear distraction. Maybe you get tired way earlier than you thought and don't get much of your list done at all.
No matter how the inertia surfing ends, it's important to check in with yourself after. Make sure you're not hungry or in pain, make sure you're hydrated and you've got time to get to sleep before work. Make sure you've taken any meds you might need to.
And it's important to be nice to yourself. It's hard to get things done and even if you didn't finish what you set out to do, you made the effort. Don't beat yourself up if you didn't accomplish everything you wanted to do, because you Don't Punish Good Behavior. You made the effort. You did a good job. Congratulate yourself and get some rest. Not only because you deserve it, but also because it will mean that you're in better shape to do more next time if you don't kick your own ass for not doing enough.

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𝘎𝘦𝘯𝘶𝘴 𝘚𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘢 of the order 𝘋𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘦𝘴.
The common Archangel.
Humans from the neighboring villages pay tribute to the newly born Cherubs in the form of rye bread and simple cornmeals.
Cherubs stay in their infant stage for over 50 years and need constant attention before reaching adulthood. Their songs are said to be beautiful and differ for each listener.
Angels huddle with their brood under a halo nest adorned with the branches of the most sacred cemetery trees.
Brood parasitism occurs amongst different angel species, particularly from the Genus Bypochtbonia. The angel will snatch the cherub and replace it with a near identical offspring. The angel parents will then raise the parasite baby, unaware of the exchange.
Cherub parasites give out an incessant wail known as the ‘song of flesh,’ persistently demanding human souls to feed upon. Their fits of hunger are insatiable and the angel parents have no choice but to accommodate the parasite to the point of bursting.
Once the stomach lining of the cherub infant bursts, it leaves the nest to hunt for more human souls. Over time, a new intestinal system grows, along with a feathered wingspan to help it glide short distances.
Archangels build large circular structures embedded with reflective glasses and crystals to ward off predators from their territory.
Most ‘ophanim arcs’ are built meticulously from dead trees and woven with vines. The arcs cause a feeling of unease in most life forms.
Rejection sensitivity dysphoria is the weirdest ADHD symptom ever. Like hello yes my weird brain chemistry manifests as Whiny Crybaby Disorder
btw this is not a universally agreed upon "symptom" of ADHD and I think many people would benefit from treating it as part & parcel of ADHD's broad, foundational trait: inability to do emotional regulation. A feeling of total rejection and terror at failure is a treatable and manageable issue. For me, I found it easier to manage once recognized that the reason I was having these reactions is that like many other emotional states, I couldn't "exit" an emotional state related to feelings of rejection once I was in it.
imo way too many people are going through life thinking they're just going to be sensitive to rejection for life because of how some people (not OP, but definitely plenty of ADHD influencers) talk about this "symptom." I don't think it's terribly productive that it gets constantly cordoned off as its own thing. like a lot of ADHD, while it sucks to have it shape your life up to the point you realize what it is, it is indeed possible to exposure therapy & DBT your way out of it.
signed: someone with ADHD who used to not be able to take critical feedback from anyone every and is now a freelancer and gets critical feedback three times before breakfast. still workin on it but it's very possible to go from "whiny crybaby disorder" to "mostly functional, if slightly sensitive ADHD adult"
I also think it's worth noting that rejection sensitive dysphoria is most parsimoniously interpreted as a trauma reaction—a learned response to a potential signals of social relationship deteriorating for reasons the ADHD person can't necessarily control. Social relationships are incredibly important to humans, and ADHD (especially undiagnosed and undisclosed) really sets us up to fail. This is especially true given that perceived social blame for stressful situations is a massive factor in transmuting stressful experiences into lasting trauma, and ADHDers are typically judged to be personally responsible for the failures that happen as a result of attentional, time awareness, or memory failures.
What conceptualizing RSD as a category of trauma response to social triggers does is allow us to treat it like any other trauma response. It pulls RSD out of the bioessentialist framework and into the realm of injuries that can be treated, learned associations that can be unlearned. It turns out that the same techniques that help with PTSD triggers, including the same damn meds (hi, clonidine), are effective for helping reduce RSD. (It also explains why RSD is also common in autistic people, who often have a similar history of social error and narratives of self blame, without requiring inherent neurological differences.)
It's a common kind of stress injury, basically. It's not Whiny Crybaby Disorder; it's more like shin splints. Getting better shoes for running, being careful about the ground you run on, and letting the splints heal properly can all help make shin splints go away when you've been running barefoot on concrete roads your whole life.
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we really need to push back on this increasingly common idea that an adult and a child can never have anything in common and should never be interacting outside of very specific, strictly monitored circumstances. growing up my mom would take us to the park and she would also play with the other random kids who were there, I don't think you can do this anymore. I spent most of my 8th grade lunches hanging out alone with my english teacher talking about books and life and culture, I don't think this would be allowed anymore. the potential for someone to exploit a child and do harm will always be there, but I think acting like children can never benefit from a friendship with an adult really just harms children in the long run. as a child/teen who dealt with severe mental illness, to this day I still remember the impact that kind adults had on me growing up.
When I moved to the UK and started going to secondsry school, I made friends with one of the teaching assistants. I called him Jesus... because he had long hair and the historically accurate skintone. It made him laugh, I was like 12. I liked him because he liked metal bands like I did, and we would talk about them whenever we could, or things like Tolkien, whose work we both also loved.
With time he became a trusted adult and I would hug him as a greeting, until he told me that he could not accept hugs from me as it was seen as inappropriate conduct and he had gotten in trouble for it. I was shocked. I to this day dont know if that was the right call on part of the school, and little me was *pissed.*
As I reached 6th form (so around 16-18) I learned a lot of people made horrible assumptions about him even though he had never done anything to hurt me, he was a safe, responsible adult who would quiz me on the Silmarillion because he was baffled I'd read it at my age. He was my friend.
there's a jewish story about a rich man who goes to his rabbi to ask him about building an orphanage, and the rabbi is like "yeah duh go for it!!" and then later the rich guy comes back and is like "actually I've decided not to... I was just doing it for my own image and not coz I cared about orphans" and the rabbi was like "bitch the orphans don't care why you're building the orphanage!!!" and sometimes I wish I could say that to lefties who haven't unpacked their christian upbringing. sometimes motives don't matter!! who give a fuck why a politician wants to do a good thing? bitch the orphans don't!!
This bumps up directly against the deep-seated christian beliefs that a) actually yes the reasons do matter and if you do good deeds for sinful reasons it's just as bad as doing bad deeds, and b) charity should only be the domain of the church. eg it's all well and good for the church to run a soup kitchen, but if some wealthy pensioner who's bored after retirement does it instead? That's suspicious, he's trying to turn the needy away from god, or he's trying to inflate his own ego, or he could even be acting from the pure unalloyed goodness of his heart and love for his fellow human beings, but the devil is still working through him.
And keeping all this in mind I look at the current state of disk horse online and I'm like. huh. A lot of these folks grew up christian probably

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