Primarily a fandom blog; I'm wallowing in GOTG right now but who knows where I'll go. Â Probability of random biology rants: extremely high. Went by Sci for years and still do elsewhere; this is my shiny new fandom pseud because my main one is slowly getting attached to my legal name. My home base is on Dreamwidth. You can find me on the AO3 as grison, too. Non-fannish stuff is at @grison-in-labs. She/her, please.
real sorry for all the new folks following me this week, as I am driven underwater by the weight of lab chaos and have very little energy for much else except sudden hyperfocused text dumps at the moment
hi my bio is about three years out of date, I go long stretches of time posting nothing and occasionally lunge out of the shadows to produce a long and deeply nerdy commentary on some other poor bastardâs years-old OP. Iâm not updating the bio. itâs been a long week and I am tired.
that this has finally happened to me is some kind of regretful cosmic irony, especially because it was really quite well described and explained costuming detail work, and Iâm mad I donât have the specialist knowledge to do such a thing half so well as redhorsedawn did.
those of you who are here from the giraffe thing last week, youâre more likely to luck out and get more of that moving forward; I am in fact a working biolo--aw motherfucker probably Iâm supposed to call myself a neuroscientist now? ew, fuck that. Iâm a behavioral ecologist in a trenchcoat lurking in a neuroscience lab which is pretending real hard that it belongs in the Psychology department of my current institution for funsies. I got a lot of big opinions about biology and animal behavior, and my training and inclination tends to be more on the âhow do we understand animals within their own context, and how can we decode their communication and experiencesâ side of things and not so much the âhow can we use animal cognition as a model to understand humans?â side. most of my actual day to day work right now is either coding or ferrying tiny little mice back and forth from their home cages to the place where they get to play video games in exchange for slurps of milkshake. they seem to like that sort of thing. me, I like the coding better, but weâve been pretty short staffed lately.
I am interested in a bunch of other shit that isnât so much about animal behavior or brains too in terms of nonfiction and am equally likely to lunge out of the bushes to rave about: sexuality, gender shit, disability, human history and how it relates to these things, human social and community dynamics, asexual community history (motherfucker I was there when we argued about the shade of purple to put in the ace flag; you bring ace exclusionism into my space and I will make fun of you as publicly as I know how) and occasionally how to spot TERFs/why radfem shit is enticing. I do not tolerate TERF shit, and I do not bother with DNIs: my version is that when TERFs reblog my crap I make them wish they had a DNI for me. the thing about posting all my non-fannish stuff to @grison-in-labs is a lie; I always forget what goes to what blog and confuse the streams, so unfortunately the only way to interact with me is to put up with an occasional firehose of content. sorry. I also canât tag for shit.
those of you who are here from the âno actually Jaskier is a fairly burly dude who merely puts deliberate effort into being perceived as small and non-threatening and fuckableâ side of things are--well look my fannish posts tend to be few and far between unless Iâm actively trying to riff with someone or interacting. if you want that shit you gotta talk to me and my entire workplace is currently a rolling tire fire, so.... yeaaaaaaah, Iâve been distractable. uh, my partner @coffee-mage-sans-caffeine is writing a big olâ Witcher fandom novel, and I beta for my buddy @abeautifulblog sometimes. I fear writing fiction myself and generally donât bother, but I will meta until the cows come home; lob me a fun idea and Iâll chew on it with delight. I can overthink anything.Â
generally if you talk to me and are friendly I will talk to you and be friendly back; I do not count followers and will not notice if you read this whole thing and fuck off into the night, but I wanted to let yâall know what you were getting into. again though: I cannot consistently remember tags, I am sorry, but I am rolling in with metaphorical Starbucks--worst fucking nerfed ADHD ever I swear to fuck--and doinâ my best here. I do believe very strongly in de-escalation; if thereâs a conflict and you didnât mean to make one happen, and you try to communicate with me in good faith, Iâll try and listen pretty much every time.
motherfucker, the pizza is burning. should probably eat.
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Once again yelling on my soap box about how you donât GET to love my posts on the beauty and complexity of butch identity and queering masculinity if you donât support trans men and transmasculine people.
Butch identity doesnât just go hand in hand with trans manhood and transmasculinity: they are chosen family, theyâre friends and comrades, lovers and beloved.
If you deny the lived experiences of trans men and transmasculine people you donât get to pretend like you see the beauty in the complexity of butchness.
Fuck you, fuck off, you donât get to claim you love me while you hate my closest kin.
wish online communities discussing autism in women weren't like, doing their best to contribute to the false perception there's a distinct Autism For Boys and Autism For Girls, when the whole time it's just social enforcement of gender roles influencing behavior
there's this weird thing people fall into online a lot, where people assume that if the [perceived-to-be-inferior] version of [activity] is discouraged then people will, naturally, do [perceived-to-be-superior] version of [activity] instead. When really it's just as (or more) likely that if [perceived-to-be-inferior] version of [activity] is discouraged people just won't do it at all.
audiobook listeners are not necessarily people who would otherwise do a lot of traditional reading if audiobooks did not exist, many are people who simply would experience zero books. Booktok romance readers would not necessarily be reading the classics if booktok did not exist, many of them would simply not read. Fanfiction writers would not necessarily be novelists if fanfic wasn't an option, many would just be people who didn't write. You know?
the weird looks i get from people when i say i feed my dogs purina is so funny like im sorry im not jumping on the salmonella train or the "give your dogs REAL food that makes their pancreas kill itself" train
"b-but purina is owned by nestle" don't make me tap the sign
nestle owns fucking everything and the simple reality is that most of the brands of anything, not just pet food, that are anywhere close to affordable are owned by the same 5 evil megacorporations
and in the case of petfood, the smaller brands not owned by evil megacorps are often not researched as well.
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if your main position is "i don't know how you people can support harm reduction. as for me, i'm for harm abolition. no i don't have a plan. no actually i mostly just bitch at people advocating for harm reduction as a way of making myself look pure" your opinions on political strategy are irrelevant and you yourself are beneath contempt you need to examine your beliefs, your need to feel righteous, your actual impact on the world, and how you can go about making an impact that aligns with your beliefs.
If you really believe harm is bad, and eliminating harm is a worthy goal, you have to start with small steps: eliminate a small harm, not all harms all at once. Reduce a great harm a little, perhaps by helping one individual impacted by that harm, and then another individual, and another... You cannot tackle all harm at once; you must take smaller bites. Set this reality against your need to feel right & correct & pure & perfect. Reducing some harm instead of all harm is not failure! You are not a failure! You may fail now and again, but failing once or twice or ten thousand times doesn't change the fact that you can still try again and succeed! You are not a failure even when you fail to reach your impossible goal of perfection.
You may not be able to complete the work of eliminating harm. But you can do your part to work toward that goal, reducing harm where you can. Your work layered with all the work of everyone who came before you, everyone who works beside you, and everyone who picks up the work when you set it down--all this work layered into making things besmal--that's a goal both possible and worth fighting for.
whenever i open my notes and see someone say "i love my iud" "im being sterilized tomorrow" "i got an abortion recently im so relieved" "im pregnant and im so glad it's my entirely my choice" im like peace and love on planet earth we are all such beautiful friends...
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You gotta read and watch some old books and films that arenât 100% modern politically correct. Iâm not saying you should agree with everything in them but you need to learn where genres came from to understand what those genres are doing today and where media deconstructing old tropes is coming from.
Also, more often than you might think, theyâre not actually promoting bigotry so much as âdidnât consider all the implications of somethingâ or just used words that were polite then but considered offensive now.
When we choose to avoid history because it's Problematic or Says Bad Things, we are choosing to divorce ourselves from understanding how we came from that time to this one, which makes it even more likely for the cycle to repeat, with no one but a few people with shelves of old books aware that it's happened before.
and this shit's important. Media from the past tells us how people from the past acted and thought and behaved.
Plus, a lot of these media pieces were socially acceptable and/or progressive for their time. For example, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, while it contains a lot of words and ideas that are offensive now, was very progressive for its time. The book is a statement piece for how a young man who's grown up in a racist environment, with no words to explain himself other than racist and bigoted ones, decides that the whole system is shit and he's not going to follow those rules any more. So not reading or engaging with it because it uses the n-word a lot really misses the point.
also the idea that we're more progressive than we used to be because time has elapsed so progress must have occurred is extremely complacent.... and very easy to check, if you bother to check. the last ten years' slide into fascism means there's movies from 2001 that are more aggressively feminist or anti-racist or both than anything getting greenlit today.
nothing but love for my mutuals who own dogs like this but i think sometimes people who get involved in dog training discussions need to have like some sort of user flair or signature that says "this person owns a border collie/belgian malinois/insert super biddable herding breed here"
like tbh i think pit bull breeds' stubbornness is exaggerated, but even still with roswell for example i have to make an effort to keep training fun and interesting for him or he will tune me out and if he feels like what im asking him to do is unreasonable or unfair he will let me know.
if i, for example, stopped rewarding him he would probably very quickly go on strike lol
I think thereâs a specific subset of person who get a specific dog that works extremely well for the Task they are interested in, and they forget or fail to consider that other dog personalities exist. For the type of general training thing youâre talking about itâs often herding breed folks, but it can occur in any breed. Here are some specific examples Iâve encountered in person:
I took an online bikejoring course and also traveled to visit the trainer in person about fifteen years ago. I worked harder than any other student and made the least progress. Bindi found the combination of pulling into harness + being in front of me + being responsible for navigation to be too much pressure. I never was able to get her to pull me on a bike. After about a year of frustrating wheel spinning, my trainer said, âWell MY dogs love pulling and they love seeing whatâs around the corner. Thatâs how Bindi should be motivated.â She had Alaskan huskies.
My first nosework trainer did not approve of me hunting with Kermit and at least once a month would comment that he would be ruined for nosework if I continued. I struggled a lot to find a reward that was worth his time because Kermit hates toys and food is a medium reward at best. Heâs a very difficult dog to motivate and itâs been a real learning experience for me. My trainer told me, âWell MY dogs do it because I ask them to. I expect them to work purely for the love of the game.â She has shepherds of varying flavors.
I once agreed to help someone start her dog in tracking. I told her to bring hot dogs. She did, but didnât want to use food. When she does barn hunt her dogs are able to go purely off instinct. When I was going over how to introduce the concept of AKC tracking, she kept interrupting me, âWell MY dogs do it because they love me. I tell them Mommy is proud of them and sometimes I pet them.â She has dachshunds and greyhounds.
So itâs interesting. They have a dog who the Task is easy for, so anyone who is struggling is just doing it wrong.
I'm going to be honest I think the notion that there is a clear-cut list delineating what is and isn't a romantic or platonic behavior that is universal to every culture, time and unique life experience is a complete load of shit.
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It can be easy to confuse the two, but you don't actually "wish you were more disabled", you wish your disability was taken seriously and was properly accommodated and that you had access to the support and resources you need - and that desire is so valid. You deserve more. But the sad truth is that no level of disability actually guarantees a sufficient level of support. So you have to work to separate your very understandable desire for more support from the incorrect assumption that other disabled people are consistently receiving what you aren't. All of us are getting fucked over in this society, and no group of disabled people actually has it easy.
The rule could have heavy impacts towards trans people across society.
Last week, the Trump administration quietly released a sweeping new federal rule that would use funding threats to force institutions across the country to reject transgender people. The 400-page proposed regulation would codify the administration's anti-trans executive orders into binding federal policy, imposing a blanket prohibition on federal funds going toward "gender ideology"
The proposed rule, formally titled "Regulation for Federal Financial Assistance," rewrites the government-wide framework governing all federal grants across every agency. Among its most consequential provisions, it requires that before a federal grant recipient can receive money, the award must pass a "pre-issuance review" conducted by a political appointeeânot a career expert or peer reviewerâto ensure it is "consistent with applicable law, Federal agency priorities, and the national interest." The regulation explicitly instructs these appointees to screen for "denial by the recipient of the sex binary in humans or the notion that sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic." [...] An institution that acknowledges transgender people existâthrough its policies, its training, its healthcare, its bathroom access, its HR procedures, its name-change processesâcould be deemed to "deny the sex binary" or to âsupport the notion that sex is mutableâ and have its federal funding blocked.
Importantly, the gender ideology prohibition has no age limitationâhospitals could be targeted not just for providing care to minors but for providing gender-affirming care to adults, because prescribing hormone therapy to a transgender patient of any age could be deemed promoting the belief that "sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic."
This is all very bad and horrible, but I want to be clear that itâs worse and more sweeping than just eliminating trans research.
This torches everything. And I do mean everything.
A very abbreviated list of its ramifications include (but are not limited to):
ending funding for ALL DEI related initiatives
allowing the government to terminate grants at any point for any reason
preventing researchers from publishing, going to conferences, and being part of academic societies
requiring that topics must support the presidentâs agenda.
What this means, and if anything Iâm under selling it, is the death of science and research in America. It allows the government to restrict any topic they please at a whims notice, putting officials who have no background in the topic in charge of deciding funding continuity. It controls what gets researched and if/how researchers are allowed to share their discoveries. There are no books to burn if the government never allows them to be written. This is fascism plain and simple.
Please, if you only ever write one public comment, this is the one to do.
Bringing back this guide to writing an effective public comment. This gives you the basics you need to know, what you need to include, a basic outline you can follow, etc.
Public comments are not a vote, it is a chance for you to say "here is an issue with this law I think you need to address" and provide justification for legal challenges if it goes forward:
"Comments raise the bar that agencies have to meet when making a rule; âif an agency fails to adequately respond to significant, relevant comments in a final rule, members of the public may seek to challenge the rule in court on that basis and claim it could be struck down.ËŽ"
But also, if possible, don't stop at writing a comment. Don't stop at calling your representatives. You should ideally be talking to people in your community about this and organizing resistance on-the-ground; there is a good chance people are already doing that even if you aren't hearing about it.
Some added 101-level context from someone (me) whoâs worked in federal grantmaking for 20 years and is literally certified on this document - this is a document that governs all federal grantmaking. Itâs been around for over a decade and is a mega-document that combine multiple previous smaller documents that have been around for ages. It is updated every few years and generally the updates are minor - a notable change in the previous update was raising the small procurement threshold from $10,000 to $15,000 for example. Deeply dry boring minutiae that no one outside of federal grantmakers need concern themselves with. It was also federal GUIDELINES, which means there was flexibility.
This yearâs is different. They are now federal REQUIREMENTS, which means thereâs no flexibility. As was said previously, the 400 pages are not singularly devoted to being absolute shitheads to trans people. Theres a lot of stuff in there, some of which is the standard dry boring grants stuff, some of which is the horrible ideological warfare outlined above.
This document is issued by the OMB, the Office of Management and Budget, which is currently lead by fucking Russell Vought, the principal architect of Project 2025. This is how theyâre going to implement all the horrible shit in there that wasnât covered by Executive Order. Russell Vought is actively coming for my job, my marriage, and my kid, and most of my friends lost their jobs last year because of him. He is the fucking arch villain behind the heinous shit the current regime is doing.
So yes, please comment. You donât have to read all 400 pages before doing so, itâs dry and dense as fuck, but I thought this information might be helpful. Also, while there is a public comment period, this isnât voted on by Congress. The OMB just fucking issues it. Pressuring your elected officials into publicly saying âhey what the fuck are you doing hereâ is good, though.
Please note the comment period is open through JULY 13th, not JUNE 13th. I saw a lot of relogs yesterday saying "last day!" and I just want to say it is very much not too late.
As of today, 7/8/26, we have five days for public commentary on this to go through. I am begging y'all: if you care about independent science in the country that produces the most global science funding in the world, please leave a comment.
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