reading empire of illusion in 2026 is wild bc it feels like hedges genuinely can't imagine things getting much worse and then. Trump happened

another awesome thing is how my face picking gets worse when my anxiety increases so I have a bunch of like scabs and sores and big red bumps on my face i look fucking gross 😝

at least I have Friday off because my anxiety has been so bad this week ive been sleeping horribly and my jaw hurts from clenching and I want to just. stop

if i never texted any of my friends first I think i would just never hear from most of them again. truly no one gives a shit even on the most basic level. and then when I say this ppl say "get better friends" to which i say. where? where are the mystical kind and caring and understanding people who want to be friends and don't expect me to be a perfect mentally healthy robot all the time???? lol

sucks that if someone talks about youth liberation on this site I can never be sure if they mean "children are human beings and should have the same rights as everyone else" or "children can actually consent to sex, you bigot 🤬"

I think my anxiety probably has some relation to my menstrual cycle but I'm just really bad at consistently remembering to track these things so I'm just basing it on vibes rn

I swear to god this meeting was at 10 when I checked yesterday but I guess it was actually at 9 and I missed it omgggggg I feel so bad

whenever a conventionally attractive young woman gets a cosmetic procedure that she doesn't need i think we should normalize being like "meh. you looked better before." like i seriously think the fact that we are all polite and pretend they look good is leading to some sort of mass delusion where people start actually believing this shit looks good. actually your nose looked better before you tried making it into an elf nose. actually your face looked younger when you had fat in your cheeks. etc

whatever if im too much for some people then so be it. if you're such an immature child that you can't handle someone being annoying a couple times then you don't deserve me. I know I'm a good friend. i support my friends any way I can and I do not abandon people on principle. sorry youre missing out on someone who would have genuinely cared for you!

anxiety has been so so bad lately im trying to stay off tumblr and work as much as possible and if I can't work then im probably sleeping or watching horrible things on youtube

I wish i could start taking estrogen and it would make my body look more like a woman's tbh

I wish I could look right at some of you and just tell you with my whole chest that you are not a nice person and you should stop making "being niceys" your entire brand.

I wish I could relax for just one second