We are all the leaves of one tree; we are all the waves of one sea.

someone sitting at home alone, an active alcoholic, squandering your charity, drinking all day is better situation than a street homeless alcoholic. someone using drugs in your charity house is better than them doing the same w no shelter

most of you would not like most street homeless people, I definitely don’t and didn’t when I was street homeless. for every one person who uses unconditional shelter to turn themselves around, someone else will do jack shit and very slowly, if ever, work through the issues that made them homeless, will maybe never be able to live independently. still better than street homelessness, still worth doing. ultimately either you believe that shelter should be universal or you don’t

the beauty of life

this is it, this is all of it. By arguing about things like healthcare (including abortion, narcan, insulin, transition care), queer rights, environmental racism, infrastructure, war--all of these things. What you're arguing about it what lives are worth saving.

but i do hate the things i struggle with. i hate that it’s hard for me to manage what should be basic adult tasks and i hate that i struggle with connection and maintaining relationships and i hate that i overthink to the point of ruining things and i hate that i have very intense hard to control emotions.

i thought it was fine to hate those things, cuz they’re negatively impacting me (who i don’t hate) so of course it’s natural to hate them. but i’m finding out that hating the way i do things (or the way i don’t do things more accurately) is actually a form of self hatred.

that’s fucked up. i’ve been working so long on getting to a point where i wasn’t hating myself, and you’re telling me i’ve been secretly hating myself this whole fucking time???? and now i gotta unlearn all that shit too???????

and what sucks too is some of it i genuinely considered as a form of self preservation. like. i personally don’t consider myself annoying, i think i’m interesting and enjoyable to be around. but i do realize that people tend to find me annoying. so i’m always apologizing in advance, bracing for the inevitable fact that someone is going to think i’m too much, and instead of being preservation, it becomes self deprecation.

“it’s not that i hate myself, i’m just hyper aware of the fact that everyone will probably hate me and doing my best to change my natural behavior so that doesn’t happen” <- person who doesn’t realize hating the way you interact with and are perceived by others is a form of self hatred