a kaleidoscope of contusions

i want to read about every disease and aspect of the human body

i want to have sex with every disease

i want u to tell me about every way a body can die while we have sex

i want to experience every death and rebirth possible

i want to know the side effects

i want to have sex with all of my internal organs

i want to do surgery on all my organs

i want to know every disease my internal organs are subjected to

i want my diseases to have sex with my internal organs

i want to feel every cell of your body touch every cell of mine

i want to live every chemical anomaly on the scale of our bodies

i want to feel my guts react to every single chemical that enters me on a subatomic level

i want to eat my diseases and my organs

i want to eat the side effects having sex with the symptoms

i wish i could keep u on my body like a wound, whose scab i cannot stop picking, who keeps on coming back, who will never heal

theres a gaping bloody wound in the darkest folds of my heart, crawl inside and kiss it better?

i think monsters versus aliens had a deep impact on my psyche it caused my first nightmare which gave me my deepest seated fear of metamorphosis. . .

shout out to little bunny foo foo as well 🗣️ contributed to the nightmare with body horror 💪💪

misspoke *second nightmare. first nightmare was being eaten by my neighbors dog. terrifying at the time.

Opposed to now where you would take getting eaten like a champ

i woulge be so so scared