PinkFairyPrincess

first of all they absolutely rate each others nudes, sometimes they send them not even with the intention to send the nudes so someone else, just for the hell of it, just to have the other saying hell yeah brother looking good, just to boost self esteem

second of all while the idea of them 10/10ing each picture is funny and appealing to me, i had a vision in which i saw the most meticulous earnest constructive criticism in order to help the other achieve absolute perfection

-(a dick pic, full light) move your hand down a bit, will make it seem bigger and maybe turn down the light a bit, give it an aura of mystery

-(navel to mid thigh, a giant hickey right where the pubes line starts) damn roz, who did this to you? (ilya says you should see the other guy. marley doesn’t catch on)

-(mirror selfie, full frontal) marley don’t you have a mirror outside of the bathroom? the toilet in the background is a bit of a buzzkill

-(hands down pants, dick fully erect) love the vibe but there is a giant hole in your boxers, maybe change those

Cliff in the cuck chair. He finds out their relationship, after something Ilya sent him has just a bit too much Shane and he works it out.

Not actively participating (tho I like that too), I just want him seeing the nudes they’re sending each other, Ilya running them by him to see if his look good, and them rating the ones Shane sends to him, Ilya sharing them with pride, and cliff using them later to get off

In the hotel room while hollanov are have phone sex, in the year before Ilya moves to Ottawa, listening. Ilya asking cliff if Shane’s can come, if he’s been good enough for them

I want him watching and knowing how Shane looks and sounds while in public, making jokes to other people that they don’t understand

it's established in the beginning dialogue between them:

n: "been there before? the mill?" have you ever indulged in your queerness like this?

r: "no, first time...you?" not until you.

n: "yeah, first time." me too.

r: "don't tell anyone about it--the mill." no one can know about us.

and thinking about it, it's the only place where they can unapologetically and comfortable be themselves--not just as two boys in love but as people.

they don't just share loving kisses in there, naim shares more about his father's passing and his mom's absurd obsession with God and her faith.

and i think it makes the naim & entity-ryan scene all the more important. at the very beginning when ryan and naim shared their first kiss at the mill, naim shoved him off at the sight of their reflection, afraid of what he was doing. at the end, he has to come face to face with that desire, with his queerness in the place where it all started. the place that represents him and ryan's love, relationship, their secret--and overcome that fear.

because it was that fear that brought the entity into their lives in the first place when he outed ryan. it was that fear that didn't let him fully embrace ryan when he first leaned in to kiss him and more. it was that fear that led izzie to lure ryan and naim to get beat up. it was that fear that killed hunter. it was that fear that drove ryan and naim apart at the ice rink and again when they fought.

and even though naim is scared fucking shitless, confused as fuck, and missing ryan so god damn much, he sets the mill on fire. he burns the place their secrecy belonged to, essentially burning his shame and guilt with it, making a decision to not live with fear anymore. to not let his mother get to him, to forget the way the pastor glared at him during service, the confusing emotions that led him to harm ryan and hunter by outing them.

and instead of shrinking back in fear and screaming when entity-ryan chokes him in the mill (before he gets a hold of the lighter again & starts the fire), he touches its cheek. accepting his desire--no, his love for ryan. accepting himself. and we see the entity pause, and it's at this moment that he takes advantage to end things once and for all.

he will no longer run from this. he will not let his mother's choices in faith and fear control who he is.

so he closes the window where entity-ryan tries to get to him one last time, going home instead, where his mother's car is parked in their driveway.

given his epiphany and everything he's been through, when he hears his mom's last attempts at justifying the ritual and her intentions, plus "we all need fear in our lives," naim decides he's done.

the mill is gone. naim finally stands tall. and after talking about how much he wanted to leave the shitty town his mother had dragged him to, he finally does.

and the saddest part, at least about that moment, is that it's reminiscent of the conversation naim & ryan had had in the mill at the beginning.

"there's nothing you like about this place?"

"nothing."

the family that kept him there, his mother, now meant nothing to naim. and the boy, ryan, the one thing he did like about the place, in his mind, was gone. nowhere to be found.

which makes the ending all the more perfect.

ryan isn't gone. and they now see each other in a new light.

By burning the mill (agreeing not to see each other anymore, attempting to revoke their love) he’s taking the steps that even if it hurts them to not have the mill anymore ( again their love) he was willing to give that up if it could grant them protection from the demon and each other.