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Hello! Here’s our thoughts on CQL!WWX:

He is mentally weaker and I dislike that. In the novel, every time WWX life gets dragged down, he will overcome rather than be held down mentally. That mental fortitude is just lost in CQL. WWX is very self-assured, and so he knows there is no point in moping or letting anyone get to his head that things are ‘his fault’. He knows his worth, and isn’t easy to manipulate in this sense. He is highly aware of what he is responsible for and will carry that fault with him forward. (E.g. an unnamed cultivator said he won’t forgive WWX for buyetian. WWX too said he will welcome all who try to exact revenge bc he too will shoulder that blame and wont resent others for their revenge on him.) Unlike CQL!WWX’s mentality, novel WWX moves forward from that, never forgetting his past, but not letting it weight him down, and just moving forward. And this is imo, a stronger character. Sorry if I missed addressing the ask > ~ R

Hmm… I feel like he doesn’t have this lightness to WWX that I really loved and that immediately pulls you in when you read MDZS. WWX is supposed to have a sad backstory but he’s not a sad person/character. When I imagine WWX, he has a very light aura and he’s very naturally charming that even when he’s being annoying, you still like him. He always has a smile or a shadow of a smile on his face because he finds happiness and/or hope no matter the situation. But in CQL, while Xiao Zhan has a very bright and pretty smile, WWX was still very sad and he carried that sadness a lot even in the present time. I also feel like, during that time in the past from his first return from Burial Mounds to his death and even in the present, he was inconsiderate to CQL!LWJ and lacked empathy towards him in a way that WWX in the novel never was and, I think, never would have been given the changes in CQL. Lastly, I wish Xiao Zhan held back on the crying a bit; WWX is the type to not show emotional vulnerability as much as he can and would always project that he was strong and confident even during times when he felt otherwise, which was even more evident when he lost his golden core and became a demonic cultivator. The things I mentioned are things I feel didn’t have to change and I wish they kept to make him closer to the original. Other things I understand were changed to comply with censorship regulations. I definitely prefer the original WWX and I’m not really in love with CQL!WWX as a character of his own. ~ shay

to be fair, neither could Rasputin. Alexei very much continued to have haemophilia.

Based on the available historical evidence, the most likely sequence of events is as follows:

The conspirators attempt to kill Rasputin with poison-laced cakes, but fail; it’s unknown whether this is because de Lazovert fucked up the poison, because Rasputin – who had a well-known dislike of sweets – didn’t go in on the cakes as heavily as they expected, or just because a poisoned cake is a really stupid idea.  

Seeing that the poison has failed, Yusupov gets Rasputin alone for a moment and shoots him once in the chest, causing him to fall senseless to the floor. Because he’s a useless nerd who thinks he knows how murder works because he read a book, Yusupov is unaware that a single handgun shot is very unlikely to be immediately fatal, and neglects to finish Rasputin off, instead leaving the room to confer with his fellow conspirators.  

When the conspirators return to retrieve Rasputin’s body, he recovers from the shock of the initial gunshot and attacks them. Following some general panic, a third conspirator, Vladimir Purishkevich, opens up guns blazing; Purishkevich manages to miss several times in spite of being at point-blank range, but eventually strikes Rasputin in the head, killing him instantly.  

The conspirators beat the shit out of Rasputin’s body just to be sure, then proceed to make a complete clownshow out of disposing of the corpse; the remainder of Rasputin’s injuries are sustained postmortem.

Pretty much everything else about Rasputin’s miraculous invincibility is invented whole cloth, much of it by Yusupov himself in order to build himself up in his own published memoirs.

popcorn, you can get some that is only 170 for 4 cups and maybe even less and it's good

waffles & pancakes, can make them yourself and can get some for rlly

sandwiches, can help give you protein and are filling

popsicles, really low calorie depending on the kind and make ppl think you eat normal

rice cakes, i loved these even before i developed ana, they taste good and are lowcal

fruit and vegetables, usually low cal and healthy

gum, lowcal and good

baby food, as always it's lowcal and yummy

soup, it taste good and you get a lot for a little bit of calories

applesauce, comes in different flavors is lowcal and filling

‘So do you just like not eat’

me: ‘obviously I eat’

here are mine:

♡ folk-y

mama's broke - wrecking need

lumineers - gloria

lumineers - donna

ramshackle glory - i'm not a good person

rainbow kitten surprise - its called: freefall

the uncluded - earthquake

kimya dawson - my mom

♡ hot grl music (idk the name for this genre)

marina - seventeen

mommy long legs - weird girl

doja cat - 4 morant

ladytron - seventeen

♡ indie/indie rock

car seat headrest - happy news for sadness

bon iver - blindsided

sufjan stevens - fourth of july

turnover - cutting my fingers off

♡ ginger kombucha (50 calories per 470ml)

great for bloating and rebalancing your gut microbiome

is quite sweet and tones down my sugar craving without being full of chemicals

♡ grapefruit (42 calories per 100g)

so filling due to large size

dense with vitamin c

♡ miso soup (35 calories per package)

feels like having a proper meal

you can add as much water as you want as long as you dont mind a diluted taste

♡ peaches (40 calories per 100g)

literally delicious

filled with natural sugars

tastes like a desert

♡ spicy pickles (5 calories per 2 spears)

satisfies my salt craving without having very many calories at all

“No you don’t. Not really. You don’t wish that you had done all the shit I had done to be able to do this. You’d like to be able to do it without the practice.” Anyway he explained how he had done gymnastics even from when he was a tiny kid; always missing out on stuff and doing it after school; being away all the time, being a bit of an outcast; been injured several times; won a few competitions but also had many crushing losses - and just generally all the things he had to do before he could do that. And it made me a lot happier about where I chose to put my time, and I appreciated more the things I could do that he wished he could. And whenever I see someone and I’m like, “FUCK I wish I could sing like her, or look like that, or have those talents!” I remember my buff gay gymnastics Gandalf