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This marks my first post since forever! Just not feeling the urge to do things here.
But anyways, has anybody thought what Ace would look nice wearing a pair of glasses? Like, his father wears those right? So maybe his son would, too. shrugs
I personally think he'd look great in those.
you should get a second evening for reading fan fiction. And you should get an extra day in the week to do arts and crafts.
Question about rekrap2: if his characterization by fanon is so incorrect, which videos would you recommend to watch to get a “feel” for his character?
"if his characterization is so incorrect" is really funny wording to me, because there's no ifs, ands, or buts if it's true. i care less about that and more about the actual ask part of it, though, because the issue that tends to come about with rek and his characterization doesn't have to do with people not watching the right videos. the big issue is just that people don’t watch his lifesteal videos with the lens of watching a "character".
in the lifesteal fandom, if the creator is not obviously playing a role (think of lifesteal zam) and doesn't get themselves frequently get involved in "lore" or roleplay, the fanbase has a difficult time seeing a character in the first place. rek is one of those creators; that’s just part of who he is, and that’s fine. however, due to this, people don’t see anything to use, and thus take a version of irl rek to try and portay.
i'm going to plagarize myself here, because i'm lazy: rek treating lifesteal as nothing more than a game is exactly what gives him a character. with rek, all you have to do is to take his actions and seperate them from rek, in real life, as a person, and look at them through the lens of the world he’s in instead. his existentialism, how his love for anything that’s fun translates into a lack of a moral code, his interesting view on lifesteal relationships and how his niceness doesn’t really equal kindness, the way he’s ended every season on lifesteal since season 3, his constant need for freedom (not related to escaping traps or “paranoia”), his constant quest for a purpose that leads into why he ends his seasons the way he does; so on and so forth. all of these things may have meta reasons for them, yes, but what matters here is what they means for rek as a person in-universe.
also, acknowledging diferent traits of real-life rek helps a lot. he’s not solely comprised of sunshine and he’s not endlessly and only wholesome. for instance, i never see his impatience mentioned in regards to his character, despite how big of a rek trait i’d say it is. having a decent grasp of the creator’s traits in real life is so useful when it comes to someone like rek, because all of these different traits will translate into how he is on lifesteal, too.
for recommendations, i don’t think there’s one specific set of videos i can give you to get a grip on his character— i think that literally any rek video will give you insight onto how he acts as a whole— but there are a few that i strongly recommend. streams are my main suggestion, honestly, but i know they can be a pain to go through (i’m making an abridged watchlist for that exact reason), so i won’t list any out here. aside from my reply on how rek’s character is portrayed in the fandom, which i’m assuming is what you’re coming from, mage and en have very eloquent responses to the same ask, talking much more in-depth about it, and soon ian’s post will make a fourth. i personally have a few analysis posts in regards to him, as well as other various rek ramblings. if you’ve went through this list and still want any stream recommendations, some elaboration on any traits i mention here, or really any question in regards to rek, feel free to send me another ask.
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You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him? I sent this ask earlier, but my Tumblr’s been glitching out, so I’m sending it again. Apologies if this is a repeat.
my problem with most rek depictions is there's a general unwillingness to look past commonly established fanon tropes and traits that everyone just seems to agree on, which is a shame, honestly, because there is a lot to rek underneath the common depictions of "paranoid crying mess" and "branzy's straight-man bestie" and "angel that can do no wrong" which are completely untrue. i admit, i also fell victim to them when i was first starting to watch rek, so i don't think that's something to be ashamed of if you're (like a general audience You, not you specifically anon) at a point where you don't know a lot yet. it took me a lot of discussion, watching, and comparing what i saw in fanworks to really put together a picture of what rek feels like as a character.
but it also feels like nobody wants to do that, either. i'm not 100% sure why that's the case; i have my theories, and i can go into them if asked, but they add up to the fact that rekrap as a character seems to just exist on the periphery of lifesteal to the point of being forgotten despite somehow being universally loved as a creator. nobody really cares about rek as a character.
but there's so much rekrap fanfiction out there, one might argue. unfortunately, there is a lot of fanfiction with rek tagged, but the amount of fic that actually discusses rek as a character realistically in that tag is laughably little. number one offender: clownzy fanfiction that shoves rek into the role of "oh my gosh branzy, don't flirt with clown, that's such a bad idea". number two offender: clownzy fanfiction that shoves rek into the role of "oh my gosh i'm so scared, branzy and clown are gonna torture me". number three offender— okay, you get the point. in a decently large portion of fanfiction, rek is never given a role where he as a character has any narrative meaning or character development, because he is never considered as a character any further than just being an accessory to clownzy. and people keep perpetuating these depictions because it's convenient to have a character that's close to branzy that can provide commentary about the situation. it's convenient that there's an innocent little rekrap who is scared of the weird freaky yaoi stuff that clownzy are doing to emphasise that clownzy are weird and freaky about it. and because it's so common, people accept it as fanon and never question it any further because they never need rekrap2 specifically, they just want a character that fills one of those super convenient roles.
don't get me wrong, i love chaostrio. their interactions, especially at the start of s3, in the pirate video, and in branzy's chicken minigame series show off so many things about rek and how rek loves to play minecraft that prove that he's not just an accessory to either clown or branzy in their canon relationship, but there's never anything about how rek would gladly die to test branzy's new cool killing machine for fun. there are so many videos out there, my favourite being Specifically naa s2, which highlight rek and clown's relationship in contrast to how they're usually portrayed in clownzy fanfiction, and yet i have to struggle to find a fic where clown shows rek the amount of respect he does in lifesteal s2/3/6/7.
a lot of other fics have a pitfall where they take a lot of inspiration from his irl self and then extrapolate that grossly into "nice guy who would never do anything wrong". this would be a kinda acceptable line to follow if you were writing rpf, but he's always specified as a character, so it just goes back to people falling into the trap of what's common in fanon and never looking further. and the solution to that is as easy as watching his s7 orbital strike cannon video to see how much he just loves messing around and trolling people and blowing things up as part of the evil team! rek is indeed nice to people, but he's also Unsettling and he's Selfish, and people seem to just gloss over that completely.
basically: it gets tiring when it's literally everything you see, because the vast majority of fics don't even represent how rek really works (and this is Specifically targetted at lifesteal fics; it's the most common setting and he acts differently there compared to everywhere else) at all. so many depictions of rek are stuck permanently in s3, and mage does explain it better than me and gives more examples, so for more details visit his post or siri's, but the gist is that people have never Accurately represented his approach to lifesteal (see: "jumping people as practice", s6 relationships w kab, derap, flame, s7 relationship w apoc vs pili), how he reacts to unexpected things or things that he is worried/anxious about (he's very much a "go with the flow" guy), or his thoughts about dying and being trapped (see: his video about terrain trapping him, and how he's ended s3/5/6). siri also has a wonderful post about paranoia with a lot of commentary in the tags that i highly recommend. i understand that it can be hard to figure out what to watch first (or that it's hard to access without knowing exactly when these things are relevant), but i would direct anyone who wants to know more to siri and her watchlist. she's always willing to answer any good faith questions about rek and probably knows the most about rek out of the four of us.
tl;dr: fanon rek pmo. if you don't think rek is a little fucked up in the head (and not in the "he's constantly so scared uwu" way) i don't trust you
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it's so wild to me that you absolutely cannot force a hyperfixation to happen. like you'll watch the most perfectly tailor-made-for-you content that everyone says you'll love and feel absolutely nothing, and then the thing you watch on a whim to fill time will reach through the screen and put its damn fingers in your brain and start rearranging the neurons right in front of you and every single time you're like THIS??? THIS??????? and this happens like every 6-12 months forever
You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him? I sent this ask earlier, but my Tumblr’s been glitching out, so I’m sending it again. Apologies if this is a repeat.
my problem with most rek depictions is there's a general unwillingness to look past commonly established fanon tropes and traits that everyone just seems to agree on, which is a shame, honestly, because there is a lot to rek underneath the common depictions of "paranoid crying mess" and "branzy's straight-man bestie" and "angel that can do no wrong" which are completely untrue. i admit, i also fell victim to them when i was first starting to watch rek, so i don't think that's something to be ashamed of if you're (like a general audience You, not you specifically anon) at a point where you don't know a lot yet. it took me a lot of discussion, watching, and comparing what i saw in fanworks to really put together a picture of what rek feels like as a character.
but it also feels like nobody wants to do that, either. i'm not 100% sure why that's the case; i have my theories, and i can go into them if asked, but they add up to the fact that rekrap as a character seems to just exist on the periphery of lifesteal to the point of being forgotten despite somehow being universally loved as a creator. nobody really cares about rek as a character.
but there's so much rekrap fanfiction out there, one might argue. unfortunately, there is a lot of fanfiction with rek tagged, but the amount of fic that actually discusses rek as a character realistically in that tag is laughably little. number one offender: clownzy fanfiction that shoves rek into the role of "oh my gosh branzy, don't flirt with clown, that's such a bad idea". number two offender: clownzy fanfiction that shoves rek into the role of "oh my gosh i'm so scared, branzy and clown are gonna torture me". number three offender— okay, you get the point. in a decently large portion of fanfiction, rek is never given a role where he as a character has any narrative meaning or character development, because he is never considered as a character any further than just being an accessory to clownzy. and people keep perpetuating these depictions because it's convenient to have a character that's close to branzy that can provide commentary about the situation. it's convenient that there's an innocent little rekrap who is scared of the weird freaky yaoi stuff that clownzy are doing to emphasise that clownzy are weird and freaky about it. and because it's so common, people accept it as fanon and never question it any further because they never need rekrap2 specifically, they just want a character that fills one of those super convenient roles.
don't get me wrong, i love chaostrio. their interactions, especially at the start of s3, in the pirate video, and in branzy's chicken minigame series show off so many things about rek and how rek loves to play minecraft that prove that he's not just an accessory to either clown or branzy in their canon relationship, but there's never anything about how rek would gladly die to test branzy's new cool killing machine for fun. there are so many videos out there, my favourite being Specifically naa s2, which highlight rek and clown's relationship in contrast to how they're usually portrayed in clownzy fanfiction, and yet i have to struggle to find a fic where clown shows rek the amount of respect he does in lifesteal s2/3/6/7.
a lot of other fics have a pitfall where they take a lot of inspiration from his irl self and then extrapolate that grossly into "nice guy who would never do anything wrong". this would be a kinda acceptable line to follow if you were writing rpf, but he's always specified as a character, so it just goes back to people falling into the trap of what's common in fanon and never looking further. and the solution to that is as easy as watching his s7 orbital strike cannon video to see how much he just loves messing around and trolling people and blowing things up as part of the evil team! rek is indeed nice to people, but he's also Unsettling and he's Selfish, and people seem to just gloss over that completely.
basically: it gets tiring when it's literally everything you see, because the vast majority of fics don't even represent how rek really works (and this is Specifically targetted at lifesteal fics; it's the most common setting and he acts differently there compared to everywhere else) at all. so many depictions of rek are stuck permanently in s3, and mage does explain it better than me and gives more examples, so for more details visit his post or siri's, but the gist is that people have never Accurately represented his approach to lifesteal (see: "jumping people as practice", s6 relationships w kab, derap, flame, s7 relationship w apoc vs pili), how he reacts to unexpected things or things that he is worried/anxious about (he's very much a "go with the flow" guy), or his thoughts about dying and being trapped (see: his video about terrain trapping him, and how he's ended s3/5/6). siri also has a wonderful post about paranoia with a lot of commentary in the tags that i highly recommend. i understand that it can be hard to figure out what to watch first (or that it's hard to access without knowing exactly when these things are relevant), but i would direct anyone who wants to know more to siri and her watchlist. she's always willing to answer any good faith questions about rek and probably knows the most about rek out of the four of us.
tl;dr: fanon rek pmo. if you don't think rek is a little fucked up in the head (and not in the "he's constantly so scared uwu" way) i don't trust you

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You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him?
this is a difficult question for me to answer, not because i don’t have very strong opinions— believe me, i do— but because i have a 1.5k draft about basically this exact thing, so i’m keeping this brief, especially since the others will probably give longer answers. i highly dislike both.
when people say they like rek, it’s not meant in the same way as for other lifestealers, and the vast majority of his fans neither critically think about him nor critically consume his content. this means that people don’t actually understand his character or even have a character to “give him”. in an attempt at having a character that’s more than just a blank slate, everybody then either 1. latches onto the first misconception of a “character trait” they can push onto him, which in his case is his “paranoia”— i talk about this more here; 2. takes the surface-level view of him as a person as nothing more than always nice, wholesome, and innocent, and conflates it with the character of him on lifesteal (because rek does have a character on lifesteal, regardless of its intentionality); or 3. both.
in other words, his characterization is derived from a singular (incorrect) trait of his from 3 years ago and a shallow idea of him as a person, whether that be of him in real life or on lifesteal. and i’m not going to talk too much about his perception for a similar reason, but it’s just of a person who is the staple, normal, endlessly-wholesome “nice guy” who can never have a single less positive thought or trait. like mage said, it’s just woobifying him.
You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him?
if i'm being completely honest, then the short answer is that it annoys me.
the long answer is that i think a vast majority of the fandom is still stuck characterizing a version of how he was in s3, and by "a version" i mean people have projected what they expect rek to act like in the situations he finds himself in, which just turns him into some kind of scared, cowering animal who doesn't know how to handle the shenanigans that happen on lifesteal, despite the fact that he has never acted that way. people make him out to be "innocent" and "pure", someone who can only act as the straight-man (and i don't mean straight as in het just to be clear, because i know someone's gonna be thinking that), someone oh-so-pitiful who needs to be saved, and overall just... woobifies him, to be frank.
i think when people think of rekrap2, they only think of s3 diamond duo. they don't think of the dirties, or chaos faction, or decimation. they don't think about his approach to pvp in early s6, they don't think about n&a, they don't think about how he's ended every season since s3, they don't think about his contributions to apocalypse, they don't think about the way he acts with those who are in his team vs those who are not, they don't think about the way he carries himself, they don't think about what his moral compass actually looks like with the evidence on hand.
and i understand i may be coming across a bit harsh (and i am, because at the end of the day it's all for fun or whatever, people aren't gonna share the same characterizations blah blah blah, i get it), but i have seen so, so, so few fanworks that are actually about him compared to the ones that just have him "around," and the ones that are almost always draw from the exact same moments in a season that's about four years old at this point, reiterating the same characterizations that make me want to rip my hair out because they just aren't him and never have been. the amount of fics i've read that actually made me think "that's rekrap" doesn't even break two digits, and i've combed through literally his entire tag. rek, in the vast majority of fics i've read of him, simply just exists to react rather than take action.
like... idk. it's whatever ig. i just wish people actually analyzed him more instead of leaning on old tropes. maybe one day we'll have a rek-centric fic where paranoia takes a backseat for once
can we kill all the members of the rekrap2 echo chamber?
very rekrapcore of you to suggest this about yourself siri sirinoya
can a guy not ask for us four to go out with a bang anymore orrrr
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can we kill all the members of the rekrap2 echo chamber?
very rekrapcore of you to suggest this about yourself siri sirinoya
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if your depiction of rekrap2 isn’t intrinsically intertwined with freedom down to the very core is he really rekrap2
my favourite (two) paragraph(s) from my naa rek study.
i always like to portray rek's quest for freedom as something incredibly selfish at times, because he never really stops to think about what it (or many other things he does, really) means to pretty much everyone else around him. watching naa is a constant realisation that he never really asks if he can do things and just leaves without telling anyone, and that basically benefits Nobody but himself. rek always chases whatever he finds fun, and if he can't have his freedom? he kills himself, obviously.
Took a stab at drawing Aros how I picture him