~MsValuable~

But! The tone of voice requires no translation.

when I was traveling to few countries, I have been insulted in numerous languages and there has been one common deminator: “TONE”. Words carry meaning, but tone may carry even more. And leaves wounded mind and sore hearts

Not everybody has a happy relationship, when they are showing you sweet photos of their adventures and they kissed together.

Not everybody has a partner, showing their assets is actually rich and provides everything. Some ladies tried more to have money to give and support their man, their wants and needs and careful to be called you after something. than to a woman who has very simple life husband on earth.

Be careful

Be better

Be beautiful

Be lovely

Be sweet

Be okay

Be aimed

Living the life without pain is not a life,

Living the life without tears of grief, is not a life, living the life without watching people in tragic moment, is not a life

Life would be a lie with you by showing to the world with full of happiness while you are in grief and surrounded with people who are unappreciative. Just don’t be afraid of showing your emotions to others, sharing a story of your life could be a beautiful lesson to the person who you shared with or to the world. Bcoz there are so many stories un opened and not all of us are sharing their pain.

It’s a little park of the village. It’s nice peaceful and safe place to live.

They also have a small coffee shop inside the village and the workers are nice and hospitable.

In the City of Sin, most people here are happy. It’s like the Philippines, they have time to work and having fun. Compare to the other cities and places in the US. But I guess it is still depends on the person. But I do believe still there is a place that makes you feel uncomfortable to go out but you prefer just stay at home. And in Vegas it makes you feel wants to have fun always, I know it’s wasting money but life is too short not to have fun and enjoy it with your borrowed life here on earth. There are countless of people who is having fun and satisfied with their job and their simple life style.

We all living in a dream world actually, but people did not notice it but their draining mindset that creates problems. And not just by themselves but it makes draining to other people’s brain too that creates gossips. I guess I am one of these types and I certainly admit it. I mean I gossip myself too but not the other people, I hate it to admit that I also need to pull out my emotions rather than keeping it to myself.

Seeing people happy with their friends and always having fun it does not mean they are totally happy and satisfied. Most people with the great smile they are the person who are always avoiding negativity and it makes them an open book. No lies, no hidden agenda. Probably have but not that big deal compare to those quite ones but as I said it is always depends to a person.

Lets live the unexpected life everyday, lets stop worrying about others and have fun instead. Lets forget and forgive our friends who did stubbed our back and lets show them kindness.

There is nothing wrong being happy and stay happy even though when struggles came. Stay solid and let your worries go forever. It might be hard but lets think about being sad 😢 it’s draining you and makes you crazy, emotional and being denial of your own happiness in life. I feel you and of course I know you feel me too if we are both in the same stage of life. But we all have different story of life, experiences and lifestyle.

My life style is so simple yet elegant and sophisticated, sometimes it looks cozy, being fashionable and out going person it makes me easy to find friends anywhere.

I simply go out with leggings and with my weird style of having a pair of boots and a crop top blouse and Aldo purse 👜, am not into big brands all my bags are gifts and second hand, yet not to expensive, I probably buy big brands but only if it will cost me around 20-40 dollars, Yes that’s right! I am not into big brands, like clothes, eye wear and bags.

I admit I like big brands too and I can’t afford it and even if I can afford it I still not going to buy, my preferences range of my purse and most expensive one it cost me around 4,000 pesos which is almost 40 US dollars too.

Brand names are expensive and u are paying multiple times for the brands, as I mentioned above that I have big brands that are gifts and second hand.

“Who cares right?

I am always thinking about peso not dollars or pounds. And also thinking about my family back home. and to those people who are starving and people who are suffering the pain bcoz of their illnesses and people who are in the hospital can’t afford for a surgery or a doctor’s fee.

Above all the blessings I got, nor big enough or small. I always have the feelings in me and think about then how I struggled so hard. Something that I can’t forget when I am just a little girl who look forward for the better “ME” and to stay strong with all the disasters in my life I keep putting myself into the hard wall and always stand tall with my feet into the solid ground. On my weaker days I just close my eyes and think positively and think about the strong waves are coming up to me until it folds me to come and see the skies and it makes me feel great and see how beautiful the world is.

If I don’t look forward I’ll get dizzy and become more weak and done. No wonder why some people ended up their life right away bcoz they can’t carry the burden inside them and the darkness comes the evil prompts into their head and bcoz they are weak they killed themselves.

I sometimes trying to do that too. When mom passed away and after few months my first Ex boyfriend left me.

I almost killed myself. Bcoz I thought I was so dirty.

The belief that I always thought bcoz of my religion. Until it forced me to not to believe in any of them. I am not against the people who has religion nor judge them.

I am now have no religion but I still believe in spirit.

And the power behind all these-

Integrity values everything, Insecurity intensely kills your feeling and

A male counselor asks- your the husband, what do u do for a living?

Husband answered: an engineer

Cousilor, your wife?

Husband answered; She has no work just staying at home.

Counselor: who cooks?

Husband: my wife bcoz she don’t go to work

Couselor: Who do your laundry?

Husband: my wife

Counselor: Do you have kids with her?

Husband: Just 1

Counselor: Do you have a nanny for the baby?

Husband: No my wife taking care of the baby.

Counselor: Who wakes up late at night and feed your child.

Husband: my wife bcoz she don’t have to go to work.

Counselor: Who do the house chores?

Husband: My wife of course bcoz she don’t work.

Courselor: If the baby gets sick who brings the baby yo the hospital?

Husband: My wife bcoz she stats at home 24/7 with my child

Counselor: When you get home what do you do?

Husband: Play with my child for a bit, eat, watch tv and sleep. Bcoz I have to go to work everyday.

Counselor said, okay lets say your wife don’t go to work bcoz she is working very fucking day than you are.

Husband ask why? She has no work and not making money she don’t wake up early and drive to work to make money and she is just staying at home and not making money. Yet taking advantage of me for paying all the bills and her expenses and pay our groceries and she did not even contribute and helping me.

A counselor said, I don’t argue with you it is your choice to make a woman stay at home and her choice as well to make her man being responsible for her and for the. Child.

However, a woman has more responsibilities than man. A house wife worrying too much for her child’s meal and her husband.

She works 24/7 a week than you are. And I am sure when e goes to grocery store with you she feels hesitant to get something she wanted and you can’t notice that bcoz you haven’t look at her on the eyes when she looks for something.

She feels something that she has to get,however she feels shy to get it bcoz she ain’t making no “money” as you always mentioned that she does not have a job/work.

She might not making money bcoz of all her time is with the baby and taking care of your house and you at the same time.

If she works, you’ll be able to afford to pay your maid to clean the house which is $20 an hour? Just to clean the house, and how much would ur wife will make if she’ll go to work like u do? And if you go to restaurants you are eating unhealthy foods at the same time bcoz you have to budget the money for your meals, u’lL go to fast food just to make sure u have enough money to save up for your child’s Baby sitter/nanny. If you pay for nanny that would be roughly $15-20 an hour too. Would you afford that and make your wife work? Bcoz every women are capable to make money at anytime and anywhere. And they are amazing even though they are tired and get lazy after work they still can look after the baby.

Counselor: Look! I have a wife like you. I appreciates so much about my wife and I even gave her a lot of money bcoz she is high maintenance and I like maintening her as she deserves it. I don’t want my wife looking old and became stressful looking when we are going out bcoz of our child. And bcoz of what she is gone through the house chores everyday, and kids are not easy to keep up. And sometimes she cries over the phone and feeling devastated and lonely even though she is with the kids and specially when a child gets sick and bcoz she maybe not feeling well and she can’t express her feelings towards a child bcoz she is a mother and she has to be strong.

That’s the things that men can’t do.

So stop complaining and ask yourself sometime.

Let him hide his feelings

Let him chat with another girls

Let him like your friends

Let him admire/crush with other woman/girls

Let him hide his girls pics

Let him hide his passcode of his phone

Let him talk to his girlfriends online

Let him take his time

Let him doubt on you

Let him do his secrets

But do not let him control your emotions and opinions. Just be extra careful about love bcoz even authentic nowadays are not 100% guaranteed bcoz they ate absolutely fake.

A world with great leaders and solid enough to protect our children from evils,

A world will not fall onto foolishness,

Pls rap this for me...

Intro:

Some people call it reality, some people call it “drama”

Bcoz every Christmas day,

hoping that one day I will be home everyday.

I can’t be with my family,

relatives and true friends.

Not just on Christmas day,

but for all occasions here in abroad,

they’s think it’s good,

and it’s beautiful here in abroad,

However, they don’t know how expensive eveything is and name it.

If I don’t shop at Walmart,

A Dollar store, and at the second handstore,

I can’t save for our Balik Bayan boxes to send to the Philippines for our love ones.

Refrain:

I try to save money to be home,

But! I can’t bcoz I make them my priority

“my family”

To provide their needs. Specially when they said:

uh! I need this, papa and mama need this and need that! can’t say anything but to swallow liquid from my body tears to my eyes and I can’t let them go hungry.

Even though I said it’s time to rest, less than 3 months I regret, I can’t refuse to it but help.

I want them to try and taste what I ate and it’s my happiness.

Their smile is my smile,

Their tears is my burden,

Their fears, is making me scared.

Chorus:

oh! reality hits me.

I live,

workhard,

Trying to earn that money to proceed the life I wanted

But I don’t have savings on my pocket or bank accounts improvement.

Just to make sure they are okay,

That makes me fall asleep with a smile on my face and peace in my head at night.

I walk alone empty,

Talk to a pet or sorroundings without anybody with me,

I sometimes feel my anxiety.

My tears will flow without voices against the world.

It’s hard when you’re lonely with hunger of love from anybody.

Who can give it to me unconditionally.

ll Stanza

Behind my smile there is a strong word to tell a story that you might don’t understand.

It’s unrecognizable pain deep in my nerves that shakes me and makin me weak.

Lovely,

Oh! when I dream to unite my family

I just closed my eyes and think of them eveyday.