Cw vent
My relationship with my mom reminds me of being with an abusive boyfriend. He constantly cheats on you and goes on about how much he likes other girls, never missing a chance to mention how sorry he feels that he can't find a beauty like them next to him, and how he longs for love and affection - as if your very existence doesn't matter. He convinces you that he's laid the whole world at your feet, but you cry every night, degrade yourself in every way possible, and beg on your knees for him not to leave when he once again shows you coldness and indifference - only for him to later shower you with love again, love that makes you feel guilty, love you'll have to justify when he inevitably tells you that you're not doing enough and that you're not even putting effort into the relationship. And on top of that, you constantly have to chase after him as if you two had never even met.
Mom, I'm sorry for existing.















