true blue by boygenius

until

he and corvus fall in love.

corvus doesn't know. soren feels awful about it. it feels like he's lying to him and to everyone else. he feels like he's outside his own body, like he doesn't belong in it. it's his worst episode of dysphoria in years.

he's so afraid of being rejected and viewed differently that the thought of a positive reaction simply doesn't exist. soren always avoided getting involved with people so he wouldn't have to go through that and eventually be thrown aside, but it was hard to do that when it came to corvus. it was impossible not to end up in his arms eventually.

things get weird between them when soren visibly starts avoiding him. corvus seeks him out to talk, and soren starts getting nervous, dodging with answers like “this isn’t going to work… no, corvus. you don’t understand, i’m not who you expect me to” until he finally gives in and reveals his scars

It’s certainly a surprise to corvus because “how did I not notice?!” but he couldn’t care less. he just wants this hot, sweet, and kind blond guy all to himself. he just wants to love soren for the rest of his life, but he can’t help feeling sad for him

be remarkable we just

need to be alive”