Mëlhyan Kingsman

“𝙶𝙾𝙳 𝙵𝙾𝚁𝙱𝙸𝙳 𝚆𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙽 𝙳𝙾 𝙰𝙽𝚈𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶.” — 𝙴𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚙𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚜, 𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝙽𝚘𝚔𝚒𝚊 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚜.

About time I introduce myself to y’all (unfortunately). You’ve tolerated my yapping long enough, so here’s the lore behind the creature running this blog!

Hi, I’m Mëlhyan Kingsman (Mel for short, She/Her !)!

I’m 28 and currently studying architecture and home design/decor (second year), which means my brain is permanently occupied with floor plans, lighting, aesthetics, and why certain spaces feel comforting while others feel like a liminal nightmare. Also Sketchup is my worst nightmare but always manage to get good grades with this bad boi. And Sketchup cannot disappoint me more than men (this is a joke- kinda).

I have ADHD and I do, in fact, yap too much. My “long story short—” explanations are usually the length of a thesis. You have been warned.

I’ve been writing fanfiction since I was 13. My first ever fic was a Dr. House x Wilson story that I never posted (history will thank me for this). On paper. With an ink pen because I was not allowed to have a laptop. I’ve been sharing my writing online for about 11 years now across various platforms, started on Wattpad and then moved to AO3.

Before architecture, I studied literature and majored in art, which explains why my hobbies include basically every form of creative expression available to humankind… plus existential dread and ungodly amounts of coffee.

I also love horror, spooky things, old objects, little trinkets, and the Victorian era stuff. If it's about dusty libraries, strange curiosities, antique shops, and the general vibe of “this object might be haunted but I’m keeping it anyway”, I automatically love it.

A few additional facts about the creature behind the blog:

• I’m 5 years in SH recovery, going on 6 clean, which I’m very proud of! • I deal with various skin issues, so if that pops up in posts sometimes/or you see poems or characters in my books dealing with this, that’s why. • I make memes, write fanfics and OG stuff, and occasionally post PSAs about scammers because the internet is full of weird little pest worms trying to bother writers. • I validated my English bilingual level three times, and I speak French (maternal language), English, Latin, Spanish, Romanian, Italian, and a bit of Japanese. • I run a small Etsy shop opening soon, Soft Death Studio, where I make templates, workbooks, and resources for writers (because apparently I can’t stop making tools for storytelling).

• I am deeply and irrevocably into mythology. Greek, Roman, Egyptian: if it involves gods behaving badly and a family tree that looks like a bowl of spaghetti, I will absolutely devour the lore and then info-dump about it.

For example: I once wrote a 25+ page legal-style thesis for my Latin teacher calculating Zeus’s hypothetical child support payments for all of his mythological offspring.

Yes, it included annexes and referenced laws. Yes, I treated it like a court case. No, Zeus would not financially recover.

Soooo anyway- this blog is basically a mix of:

• fanfiction • writing chaos • memes • the occasional PSA • existential dread thoughts • whatever hyperfixation currently owns my brain

If you’re here for stories, nonsense, or chaotic creativity, welcome. If you’re here for short posts… I regret to inform you you’ve chosen the wrong blog.

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But I’m glad you’re here anyway!! Below the cut, you'll find important links for the PSAs and also other posts, so feel free to check them out!

𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨 𝐠𝐚𝐧𝐠, 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤'𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐭!!!

First of all, apologies that I only managed to post one chapter this week. In my defense, said chapter was over 13k words long and also France apparently decided to recreate the surface of the sun, 40 degrees celsius (104 farenheit for the peeps who don't know celsius) is NOT a vibe.

Between the heatwave, school stuff, and me discovering in the least fun way possible that I'm allergic to strawberries (which led to an allergic reaction that absolutely knocked me on my ass, love you anaphylactic shock), this week was... certainly one of the weeks of all time?😭😭😭

Throw in my already-existing-asthma (gift from five rounds of Covid, unfortunately) and temperatures that had me questioning whether I was breathing air or soup, writing became a little harder than expected!

Thank you for being patient with me! I'm feeling much better now, so here's the current plan for next week. As always, this is a schedule, not a legally binding contract signed before the fandom gods-

Based on some takes I saw on the bird app that should have stayed in the drafts because WHAT-

Every time someone says “I skip descriptions because they are boring/not useful/not necessary” I feel my soul leave my body. What do you MEAN you skip them. What are you, a maze runner???? Where do you have to GO so urgently???? 😭😭😭 The book is not a subway connection you need to catch in 3 minutes, SLOW DOWN!!!!! Marinate in the yearning, look at the wallpaper symbolism with me-???😭

And before anyone goes “it’s my attention span”, babes I have adhd I know how attention spans can work. But I will absolutely inhale a 10k chapter at 3am if the emotional tension is good enough. This is not an attention span issue, this is a “why are you treating novels like unskippable cutscenes” issue and not something the author is guilty of 😭

Authors out there spending HOURS crafting atmosphere, imagery, parallels, little emotional cues, only for people to go “yeah I skipped to the dialogue.”

...... Sooooo the characters are just standing in a white void to you???? No setting, no tension, no cinematic yearning???? Just disembodied voices flirting in the abyss???????????????

Friendly reminder that you do not need to shit on other authors/fics/ships in my comments or inbox to praise my work 😭

Like genuinely. Please don’t do that-😭😭😭

You are absolutely allowed to “prefer” my interpretation, my characterization, my pacing, my dynamics etc & that’s fine, that’s fandom, everyone has preferences!

But LITERALLY naming other writers/fics specifically in my comments just to go “THEIRS sucks unlike YOURS”, or some “[redacted author pseud] wrote this but as ship and it was nasty/wrong/insert horrible word. So glad you wrote them the correct way” etc makes me deeply uncomfortable and just creates an unpleasant atmosphere for everyone involved.

Especially because fandom is already such a small space. Most of us are literally just out here rotating the same characters in our brains at 2AM trying to create something fun/emotional/interesting for free.

You don’t have to like every ship. You don’t have to like every interpretation. You don’t have to vibe with every fic.

But please please please with a cherry on top, I really don’t want my comments/inbox turning into a place where people are using my work as a weapon against other writers or fandom spaces. A lot of writers you guys see as “competition/bad authors” are often people I respect, read myself, talk to, or simply coexist with peacefully?...😭

Fandom etiquette used to have a pretty basic “don’t pit creators against each other publicly” understanding and I do think we’ve lost that a bit lately.

[Note: Hey hi hello peeps!🩵🩵🩵

Apologies for the radio silence—turns out studying for exams, running a Star Wars zine while France transforms into a convection oven from Tatooine, and my uterus wages war is… not conducive to consistent uploads. But! Here’s your dose of Aerion Being a Little Shit™, Duncan’s exasperated & worried bf energy, Connor’s existential crisis, and Egg’s sheer confusion. Angst? Yes. Aerion being hurt and Duncan stepping in? Yes. Jokes? Also yes. Balance, as all things should be.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to lie facedown on a tile floor and question all my life choices. Enjoy the +13k words!-

Link for Chapter 16]

Okay, I’m gonna assume this wasn’t meant in a condescending way and answer genuinely-

Personally, when I write Duncan/Aerion (or honestly any ship involving characters portrayed by actors), I write character x character. Not actor x actor.

To me, there’s a very clear separation between the fictional character, the actor portraying them, and the actor’s actual private life. Those are three completely different things in my head.

So when I sit down to write, I’m thinking about dynamics, personalities, themes, tension, dialogue, storytelling etc. I’m not sitting there going “but this actor is dating/married to someone IRL.” That genuinely just… does not factor into my creative process because I’m engaging with fiction, not real-life relationships.

The fact some actors are married, dating someone, have kids, whatever else IRL genuinely does not enter my brain while writing because… I’m not writing about them.

I’m writing about fictionalized versions of characters, sometimes living in an entirely made-up universe where Duncan is getting emotionally terrorized by a tiny figure skater for 100k+ words like my ice-skating AU!

I do think fandom spaces have started blurring the line between “being respectful of real people” and becoming overly parasocial about actors’ personal lives. I also tend to stay away from fandom spaces heavily focused on actors’ real relationships because those environments can become very toxic very quickly, and I honestly don’t want that mindset bleeding into the way I approach fiction or characters.

Like… actors are not their characters. Their marriages/relationships/families etc are real life. Fanfiction is fiction.

Those things exist in entirely separate categories in my head.

Tbh, if we followed the idea that people shouldn’t write ships because actors are with someone IRL, then we would lose most fandom shipping in existence. Plus a gigantic portion of transformative fandom culture & basically every adaptation fandom ever. Because the vast majority of actors playing romantic dynamics on screen are… not together in real life 😭

I also think there’s a difference between “these characters have an interesting dynamic I want to explore in fiction” and actively projecting onto real people’s relationships/lives. The latter makes me uncomfortable too, to be clear.

Writing fictional versions of fictional characters in fictional scenarios is just fandom. That’s storytelling. That’s transformative work.

Guuuuuuys-😭😭😭

“Skating On Thin Ice” is somehow sitting at 109k words now, 15 Chapters, and we’re creeping toward 5k hits and I genuinely just wanted to say thank you so much for all the love you’ve shown this silly little hockey/figure skating disaster train!!!⋆❆˚｡₊⊹❅⋆⛸️🏒

+88 subscriptions. 200+ kudos. 75 bookmarks. Almost 40 comment threads. That is genuinely INSANE to me considering I started this fic while going “haha what if Duncan got bullied by a tiny feral figure skater” and now here we are 😭????

Thank you for all the comments, screaming, keyboard smashing, theories, emotional support and for tolerating my aggressively dialogue-heavy writing style and the fact these characters physically cannot stop talking for more than 12 seconds at a time (same) 💀

I’ve also been thinking of doing some little extra things for you peeps because this fic has genuinely become such a special experience for me!!🥺.✦ ݁˖💙

Right now I already have Dunk’s hockey team logo mocked up for teepublic/redbubble for people who wanted the same hoodie/sweat vibe as Duncan (and eventually Aerion 👀)

BUT I also wanted to ask: what kind of free little extras/content would you guys enjoy ?⋆꙳•̩̩͙❅̩̩͙‧͙ ‧͙̩̩͙❆ ͙͛ ˚₊⋆

Stuff I’ve considered: ⛸️ Fake social media posts/text messages 🏒 Playlist drops for characters/arcs (I already have the training playlists for Valarr, Aerion and Daeron) ❄️ Locker room groupchat nonsense ⛸️ Fake interviews/articles/commentary snippets 🏒 Doodles/character sheets/more stickers designs (some based on ships) ❄️ Bonus scenes that don’t fit the fic ⛸️ “day in the life” mini snippets 🏒 Meme compilations because these people are embarrassing

[Note: Hey hi hello peeps!🩵🩵🩵

Welcome to chapter 15 (somehow???)!! I’m writing this while actively dissolving into a puddle of stress, revisions, cramps and post-katsudon tears. Uni has me in a chokehold, the zine I am modding has me behaving with the intensity of a figure skater scoring a flubbed landing, and yet the brainworms persist!!!

So here’s your dose of stupidly funny hockey boys, served with a side of my existential crisis. Enjoy the vibes, scream at me in the comments if you must, and remember: hydration is key (unless it’s coffee. then chug responsibly). Also this is the other "side" of the previous chapter, I asked you peeps if you preferred one side/each time or both in a longer chapter but since I got no answer, I'll do both probably XD Thanks for reading!

Link for Chapter 15!]

[Note: Hey hi hello peeps!🩵🩵🩵

I swear I didn’t abandon this story those past days, I just took a "strategic retreat" into the cozy void of my week off like a squirrel hoarding serotonin. (It’s fine. I still have three days left to procrastinate harder.)

ANYWAY. This chapter is all about the Targaryen boys being messy, dramatic and forgetting what self-care is because they’re too busy being emotionally constipated on ice. Dunk and Connor are lurking in the wings like impatient hockey bros with a grudge (and maybe a secret soft spot), but they’ll be back next chapter to ruin some lives (affectionate)!

Enjoy the chaos! And sorry not sorry for the delay! Also please, feel free to tell me if you prefer split chapters or chapters like this one, with one side at the time! Thank you!🩵

Link for Chapter 14!]

[Note: Heyyy, okay so listen Linda listen—this week kicked my ass harder than a mule with trust issues LMAO

Between studying like a caffeine-addicted squirrel and that damn driving theory thingy (why do parallel parks exist? WHY?), my writing schedule got yeeted into the sun. But YOU. You absolute legends kept dropping bookmarks and comments like fairy godparents on a sugar rush?? Magic. Pure magic. I love you.🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

Now spill: did this chapter make you laugh, cry, or question my life choices? (Be gentle. My ego is held together with duct tape and hope-)

Link here for Chapter 13!

Click on "read more" for a snippet!]

Aka “Em Dashes Are Not the Enemy, Fake Beta Readers Scammers Are Sitting Right There” (featuring me losing my marbles like a drunk penguin back from the club)

Friendly (or not) writerly reminder that AI trained on human works. Not abstract “data,” not neutral floating content, I mean actual writing, art, labour from people who never agreed to their work becoming part of a machine that can then be used to imitate or replace them. You don’t have to take an extreme stance on it to acknowledge that’s a complicated, real issue.

But can we please stop turning everything into “obvious AI tells” witch hunts?

That “If someone posts too much = AI” and “If someone writes well = AI” thing??? Hello???? Can you hear yourselves????😭😭😭😭😭😭 My sister in the Blorbos, for example, I post a lot because I have ADHD, no concept of “posting schedule,” and writing is literally how my brain stays functional and helps me avoid The Horrors™ (mental health + SH relapses), PLUS it has been approved by my therapist so like- at this point just say you’ve never met a person with hobbies????😭😭😭

Since when anything slightly consistent, slightly prolific, or slightly polished gets flagged as suspicious????

Em dashes are not proof of anything. Neither is polished prose, structured sentences, or “too smooth” rhythm! Writers have been using those tools forever. That’s just writing!

Editing exists!! Style exists. Neurodivergent and non-native writers exist. Aesthetic writing exists. None of that is suspicious!

“Of course he said that”, “Of course she left”, “Of course it ended like this”: These are not AI artifacts either! They are narrative cadence!! Human storytelling patterns. The same kind of phrasing we’ve always used to build tension and inevitability in fiction.

This keeps getting messy right now, people are starting to collapse everything into two categories: “human writing = imperfect and messy” vs “AI writing = structured and therefore fake,” and that’s just not how language works! It flattens actual writers, and it also creates this weird environment where people start second-guessing completely NORMAL writing styles!

I know a lot of those AO3 comments (accusing peeps of AI) are bots. Nobody is saying bots don’t exist. But the issue is that this paranoia is also spilling over into actual people, and some users are very comfortable (TOO COMFORTABLE) just throwing accusations around with zero basis because it “feels right” or “someone cannot be that prolific/write that well” and it is continuing to be VERY annoying.

We can be critical of AI systems, their training methods, and their impact without turning every well-written paragraph into a suspected crime scene!

Side note but I would genuinely love to see some of that “AI detective” energy redirected toward the actual scam accounts, fake authors, and beta reader scams that are ACTIVELY trying to trick and take advantage of people on this site instead of being aimed at random real users just writing normally/posting often.

Because right now it’s a weird imbalance: someone posts a bit too frequently, or writes in a polished style, or has a consistent voice, and suddenly it’s suspicion and accusations. And in the meantime, the accounts that are clearly running scams, impersonating people, or baiting writers for money or access are often just sitting there until someone finally reports them?

If the concern is really about harm in the writing community, then it makes way more sense to focus on the behaviour that is actually exploitative and currently growing day by day on here?... Not just “this writing feels too smooth” or “this posting pattern looks off so it must be AI.”

I’m not saying “don’t talk about AI at all,” because obviously there’s a real conversation to be had there and it does matter! But there’s a difference between actually engaging with that and just randomly accusing people over style choices/rhythm that have existed in human writing forever like-😭😭

There are literal scam accounts using AI images, fake identities, and “beta reader” bait to try and get money or access to people’s work right now, on Tumblr. They are spamming in the comments as soon as you put the writerblr hashtag and they get absolutely unhinged when you reply to them, threatening to sue and accusing you of nonsense.

Friendly PSA because I am seeing the yearly “Google Docs is feeding your fanfiction to AI” panic cycle crawling out of the crypt again on YouTube authors vlogs/Pinterest comments/Tumblr crypts etc 😭😭😭

I am holding your hands. I am looking into your eyes by candlelight. Please calm down.

Google Docs does NOT use your PRIVATE docs to train AI.

Your 47 chapter enemies-to-lovers slowburn named “FINAL_final2_REAL_USETHISONE” is not being dragged screaming into the machine!

The confusion comes from PUBLIC docs. If you make a doc public on the web, THEN yeah, it can POTENTIALLY be indexed or scraped like basically anything else publicly posted online (sadly).

Private docs = private. Public docs = internet raccoons may rifle through the bins.

ALSO quick thing while we’re here: you can absolutely hype up and recommend other writing tools (Ellipsus etc, love that one) if you genuinely like them!

But don’t start circulating misinformation or exaggerated claims just to push people toward alternatives. “This platform is evil so use mine instead” is not the activism you think it is (especially if you exagerate the claims), you are just making sure peeps go to your fav app.

You’re allowed to dislike Google. You’re allowed to prefer other tools. Just don’t feed panic to grow your fav app pipeline please and thank you with a cherry on top 😭😭😭

Before we all flee into the woods to handwrite our manuscripts with quills and lanterns, please BREATHE!

Call me Jigsaw cause I think we should PLAY A GAME CAUSE I AM BORED OUT OF MY WITS-

My a$$ is tired of those "hi I am a beta reader-" scammies around and I wanna meet MORE REAL PEOPLE sooooo let us do this!

Tell me the vibes, smells, musics, places, objects or oddly specific things you associate with your writing style!! Could literally be ANYTHING!

I’ll start! Mine, to me, feels like "Seven" by Taylor Swift and the whole The Tortured Poets Department / Evermore / Folklore kind of atmosphere.

An abandoned swingset moving slightly in the wind. Salt in the air. Old pirate toys from childhood hidden in a box somewhere. Those little cabins you make under trees with blankets and sticks and absolute confidence in your engineering skills when you're seven years old. Driftwood. Fog near the beach in the early morning. The sound of waves at night when you can’t really see the sea anymore. Sand in your shoes. Half-finished letters in the desk, freckles after summer, tangled necklaces, bruised fruit, cold hands, the smell of rain on warm pavement, and the feeling of being sixteen and convinced the world is haunted and about to change.