Madelaine Hargreeves

stop being desperate, stop clinging to the comfort of your shitty life and stop saying you're sick of this and want more whilst clutching the railing instead of letting go.

you can sit there, read post after post about how to manifest, get your desires instantly, shift tonight, etc and then meticulously affirm 10,000 times because some post you read said it 'speeds' up your manifestation so now you believe you have to reach a damn specific digit to cement it but you still tell yourself that you aren't trying to get it, that you already have it - even though you are operating as if you don't.

even though you repeat the same method every single day. even though you persist for a couple hours then drop it because the reality is you can't actually swallow the pill to just shut up and persist.

all shifting songs

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we’re in love ⭒ boygenius

“and i told you of your past lives, every man you’ve ever been, it wasn’t flattering, but you listened like it mattered, i feel crazy in ways i never say, will you still love me if it turns out i’m insane?”

“if you rewrite your life, may i still play a part? in the next one, will you find me? i’ll be the boy with the pink carnation pinned to my lapel who looks like hell and asks for help, and if you do, i’ll know it’s you”

“i can’t imagine you without the same smile in your eyes, there is something about you that i will always recognize”

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Reblog to get asks <3

💵- Who is the more financially responsible one in the relationship?

🔨- Who does the most household chores like cooking and cleaning?

🎊- Which of you is more likely to aestheticize/decorate things?

🎈- Who invites the most people over to your household and what do they invite them over for?

🫧- Are either of you neat freaks? How does this show or not show?

🏠 - What does your house/living situation look like? How did y'all find it?

🎵- How do y'all prefer to do chores? Do either of you blast music the entire time, or do you do it in silence?

💕- What sort of events do you host at your house?

🥀- If your house has a garden, or if you have houseplants, do they grow well? Do either of you ever forget to water him? Who chose the plants?

😴- How do you two sleep at night? Do you share a bed or have any specific items (hot water bottle, pillows, plushies etc)?

💌- How much mail do y'all get, and who is it from?

⌚- Who is the quickest to get ready to go out and who takes fucking forever to get ready? Are you both similar or not?

💎- Which of you spends the most time at home? Why?

Living in such an urban and grossly polluted city my whole life… just being able to shift away and farm and smell air that is fresher than any other air I’ve smelled and look up to a sky full of stars every night… it was refreshing and freeing and my skin has never gotten so much vitamin D. And everyone there is so nice ughhhhhhhhgggghhhoodddddddd

this is not a lost cause. not now and not ever.

the fact that you’re still here, still aching for it, still trying, it’s not failure or proof it isn’t real. it’s proof that something inside you knows it’s possible and that it’s it’s than here.

i’m not going to give you a soft, meaningless answer, i know exactly how much it hurts and i know what it feels like to want something so bad you can barely breathe without it. i know what it’s like to look at this world and think i wasn’t built for this one. i belong somewhere else, with him, with her, with them. and i know what it’s like to have thought: what if i’m just lying to myself? what if this is never going to happen?

but look at what you’ve built.

five years, and you have not let go. that’s devotion.

you’ve done more than most people ever could, you have a whole reality, multiple even, layered in your chest as if it’s a second heartbeat. you’re not just chasing something vague, you know their eyes and have memorised the notes of their scent and how they never let go. you know the exact slouch of their shoulders when they’re sleepy and trying to stay awake for you. you know how they hold you like your body is the answer to every question they’ve ever asked.

that kind of knowing is not fake or imagined but memory.

if your mind can go there so vividly, so often, so intensely that it hurts not to be there……… then the place you’re aching for already exists.

and you exist there too

you’re not wrong for feeling hopeless. and you’re definitely not behind

i won’t say it’s “building.” but i will say say this: it’s not that you have to get there. your awareness is already tangled up in that world, and the moment that tangle pulls tighter than this one, you’re gone. gone in a blink, gone like breath, gone like magic. you’ll open your eyes and they’ll be there and it will feel like the only thing that’s ever been real.

please don’t give up. dont let go of the one place you feel home