Infinity Words∞

I probably will pay attention to every detail, of your face of your body and especially the way you look at me. they say you should've close your eyes when you kiss, but I wish I open my eyes more. I wish I can watch the way your body reacts to mine I wish I can see your eyes when they're full of the need of me I wish I can look at you, see you, and freeze you right there and then. had I known, I probably never asked you to stop I will savour every warmth your body offer me I will stay longer on your chest, or ask you stay longer on mine I will caress your hair more, your face more I will linger on your neck as long as I could I wish I could visually remember it more, rather than only remember how it feels I wish I remember the way your face so close to mine, all I remember was your kiss was it ever real? was it really you? had I known that was the last time you were in my arms, I should've make sure the person that I held so close, will never hurt and leave me afterwards, just like you did.

I wish I could only see you as a friend, forever I wish I could undo all of those complicated feelings I have for you I wish I could always have you as my friend because after all of this what hurts the most isn't losing a lover, but losing my bestfriend.

we would be perfect but darling, in this cruel cruel world perfection doesn't exist neither does us

right where I belong, next to you but for whom are you belong?

you remember when I said her name along with her relationship with you and I'd lie if I say it didn't just scratched a wound in my heart when I hear you say her name, and finally admit that she is your girlfriend.

happy birthday, I do hope you are happy.

but I ruined it, I fucking ruined it when I fall for you.

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Love suck, and I miss you.

I miss you I miss us And it’s so painful Because you’re still here, but you are not who you used to be.

Hey you, yeah I bet you know who you are You know me that well I know that. Somewhere in the future, you’ll find this And this is all my feelings I wrote for you Dear my sunshine, Thank you for being the warmth which I longing for since forever Be the one who cuddled up the broken parts of me I’ve been cold all my life, but not when I’m with you Dear the-one-who-I-want-to-tell-how-my-day-went-today, Thank you for genuinely asking where I was For remembering every single words I’ve said For noticing every single thing I’ve done Dear my gnash-lover-buddy, Thank you for listening to my kind of music Since the moment you hummed that part of Kiss Me I knew right away, you’re it. Dear my late-night-call mate, Thank you for laughing at our internal jokes The high pitched noise you make to make sure I dont sleep And all the midnight rants we gone through Dear my brother, Thank you for taking care of me Making sure I was allright 24/7 Calling and texting me whenever I need your help Dear my number-one-bully, Thank you for making me stronger than I already am For trusting me that I’m good enough For appreciating all my hard work Dear my lover, I’m sorry we can’t be together It’s just too much on the line I know, you know, we won’t ever made it But hell yeah, I love you Like you said, I meant it from my deepest heart i love u so much And on the top of all Dear my bestfriend, We will forever be only this And I can’t thank you enough For all that you are, and all that you do.

It’s really really fucked up I really really miss you At a really really wrong time

I don’t really know you, do I? All of this kind act you’ve been putting up All of this sweet talk you’ve been saying All of this gentle gesture you’ve been showing It’s just a lie, isn’t it? Like I get it, I know, not everyone is bad Not everyone has a secret agenda Not everyone has a dark past Not everyone has a chaotic life Not everyone has to be questioned I don’t have to be suspicious about everyone. Especially, you, or I thought. Since this, since I know who you really are since I realized what your motives really are since I know what exactly I meant to you I realized, not everyone is good, too.

I know deep down, you know I will always come back I will always come back to that place I will always come back to look for your face That’s pretty much sums up how pathetic I am How many times I tried to move on How many times I wasted to forget you but failed miserably I am wasting time Your time, because I keep coming back My time, because I keep missing half of me Wasting our time, forced something that can’t be together You know, I might I might drop all of this fake drama And just run to you Hugging our broken pieces together But I can’t I let it, once And you showed me that was a huge mistake Listen, I still can hear you inside my head all the times I still can feel you in my heartbeat I can even still feel your arms wrapped around me Sometimes I wish I forgot who I am Forgot the scars that you’ve left on me Forgot all the times you’ve disappointed me Forgot all the times you’ve mistaken my kindness as my weaknesses So, we can be together Exchanged words of love Without any burden Or without any guilt for being so dumb But in the end, I know we can’t be together Because we’re kinda alike somehow Like, tornado and volcano when they met, it’s all just a big chaotic toxic mess.

I will not write about you. I am not. I will not. I can not. But, I need to. I want to. I have to. Those night, Has been carved to my mind Has been painted to my eyes Has been curled to my arms I couldn’t, just let you pass, could I?

Hey, first of all I’m sorry. I’m sorry for keeping you all this time You may think, that we’re perfect for each other that we’re match in heaven that we’re end game We’re not. And it might cross your mind, that no one will gonna replace me that no one will understand you like I did that no one will love you like I did But there’s one. Her. That girl who cried a lot because of you That girl who went miles for you That girl who’s running to you while you’re running to me I write a lot about you, yes. But that solely based on what we had before How I miss your beautiful feature And how I love the good memories But that’s it. I love you so much because you give the best thing to me Because you wanted me Because you love me too. But, she? You don’t even care for her You don’t even think about her You are your worst when you’re with her. But she love you anyway. She love you even when you desperately in love with me She love you even when you said you only love me She love you even when my face is all over your eyes when you look at her And how can I, be so evil for standing between you and her And I’m sorry. Now, that I know That she can love you In the way that I can’t I let you go, my dear. Because yes, all of this tumblr posts were and are about you I write about you But she write too, You’re her poem too.