Hysterical Materialism

We want to remember the good internet. The cat clips, the funny family tales, the great comic feats. The internet that makes us laugh.

That's the internet we grew up on and the the one we want want to be a part of. We know that the world wide web is not always a great place.

Its like we are full of contradictions. One moment you're laughing at a tortoise enjoying a fresh lettuce leaf, the next you stumble across some heinous hateful trash. Thats what it feels like to be online today. Your brain cannot stand this whiplash.

Sometimes we want to throw our phones into the river and be done with it all. But then we remember you, our readers. And the good internet. And that its not time to give up just yet.

[image 2: the periodic table of the elements, except that hydrogen and helium are in their own box labeled "Real elements", and elements 3 (lithium) through 118 (oganesson) are labeled "Mental illness".]

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Do not suddenly stop drinking alcohol as a new years resolution if you have been consistently using alcohol most days

Your body gets used to the presence of the alcohol as a sedative in your system

Suddenly removing the sedative you are chemically accustomed to is like suddenly removing the wall you are leaning on - you will topple over

You brain electricity gets overexcited

This causes seizures

This causes sudden onset dementia (Wernicke's encephalopathy)

This causes brain damage

If you use alcohol often (even in moderate amounts)

Or in large amounts

Or you have ever noticed you get shakey tremors and anxious when you stop drinking

Then your body is chemically dependant and you need to be very careful coming off alcohol otherwise you will cause brain damage

Slowly wean down the amount you drink over days or weeks

Talk to a doctor about your goals to quit and ask about support options

Medically supported withdrawal is a lot safer

If alcohol withdrawal goes badly there is a 15% chance it will kill you.

Do not go this alone

Quitting drugs can make you feel like you're dying

Quitting alcohol can make you actually die

Do No Do This Alone

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Shark skin feels exactly like sandpaper. It is made up of tiny teeth-like structures called placoid scales, also known as dermal denticles. These scales point towards the tail and help to reduce friction from surrounding water when the shark swims. … In the opposite direction, it feels very rough like sandpaper.

TW: abuse, fucked up sexual fantasies, fucked up sexual realities, shame.

As an enjoyer of fucked up sex fantasies and fucked up art in general, seeing all the fucked up sex reality going on is making me lose my mind a little. It's making me feel a lil stupid.

I got tricked into feeling guilt and shame over my enjoyment of the grotesque and horrible being erotized in art... by a society where the people calling the shots are shamelessly inflicting horrors onto people, shamelessly harming people for real, shamelessly orchestrated entire political movements with the specific goal of shifting their guilty to the minorities they are terrorizing.

I worried about being deep down an abuser that would bring harm into the world. I agonized over the ethics of having THOUGHTS, even the thoughts I have no control over whatsoever.

Meanwhile, in reality, real abusers do not worry about anything at all. They just shamelessly do harm, turn around, and blame someone else for the harm they've done (usually their own victims!). They don't even worry about being caught because they know that being in a position of power, and to abuse the abuser need to have power over their victim somehow, they can just leverage their power to not even need a get-out-of-jail free card.

We, queer, kinksters, fetishists, freaky freaks, we do our due diligence. We write guides, discuss the ethics and safety of our pratices, educate and hold eachother accountable. We do work, we labor. On top of the alienated work we must do to survive, we also work for pleasure.

From our alienated work we see only crumbs, and the work we do for pleasure gets us labeled "dangerous" and "degenerates".

And honestly? They are damm right!

We are dangers to a society ruled by abusers. When we worry, when we care, when we take responsibility, we build a world where abuse cannot thrive and abusers have no power over us. We build a world where their fucked up realities can be turned into beautiful, surreal fucked up fantasies for us. We build a world where they cannot make us suffer because we will have transmuted the pain into pleasure.

They fear us because we are the slaves and they are the masters and we are taking their tools, breaking it, and building our own tools. We are going to build our own house and they will have no one to tend theirs.

I'm not going to pretend like there's this perfect divide between abusers and freaks like me. There is no perfect victim. No identity is inherently safe. Everyone is capable of abuse. There is no abuser gene, no Abusive Person Disorder, no person doomed by fate to abuse others and unable to choose a different path. The abuser that cannot help themselves and must either be killed or be given infinite grace... is a fiction, an actually harmful fantasy, that the abusers that rule us created so they can be given infinite grace while any undesirable (like us) can be murdered in name of "protecting children".

The abusers that rule us do not care. Society do not care. We care. We need to keep caring. What we don't need is to belive their lies about us.

Be a freak.