Kairos : Legion

No, you are not "antisocial" because you don't have many social interactions.

No, you are not "antisocial" because you are solitary.

You are not "antisocial" because you're introverted.

​They treat your lack of empathy as a green light to be assholes, as if their moral compass only functions when it’s being mirrored back to them

​They change their behavior instantly like : "Okay since you don't feel that, there’s no problem if I do this."

This is just hypocrisy.

If your morality is contingent on the neurotypicality of the person standing across from you, it isn't morality at all

I've been decent with you and haven't done anything. Why do you feel the need to treat me like shit just because you've acknowledged that I lack empathy ? That’s wild.

Let’s be real: having ASPD doesn’t force you to be cruel for no reason.

​If you have ASPD and you’re a complete asshole, then you’re just an asshole.

The disorder might explain why you don't feel guilt or why you’re impulsive, but it doesn't hold a gun to your head and make you go out of your way to ruin someone’s day.

Conscience and conduct are two different things. Plenty of people with this diagnosis manage to exist without being toxic, if you can't, that’s a personality flaw, not a symptom.

I’m just tired of seeing people use their lack of empathy as a justification for being a bottom-tier human being.

I know it’s hard sometime. I deal with the same impulses, the same problems. But having those urges isn’t the same as acting on them. Not feeling empathy doesn’t remove the ability to recognize harm and choose not to cause it especially when its just free and without reasons.

Cognitive empathy exists for a reason, you can understand that an action is shitty without needing to feel the other person's pain.

If you choose to be a jerk because you think your diagnosis justifies it, you’re just proving everyone’s worst stereotypes right.

Lack of empathy isn’t a free pass. If you understand something is harmful and do it anyway, that’s a choice. You can have zero feelings and still have enough logic to not be a nightmare to everyone around you.

I think it’s easily confused with normal boredom when it’s actually more like chronic under-stimulation.

​It’s not "I’m bored. Oh, same bro."

It’s a painful, awfully restless boredom. To me, the search for stimulation is so deep; I’m always seeking, testing, trying, because if I don’t, everything is way too dull. It feels like dying.

​Doing nothing is the equivalent of asking a hyperactive and restless person to sit still for hours. But the problem is also that, somehow, nothing is ever enough ?

Whatever I do, even if I find thrilling stuff, the feeling disappears as fast as it came. I’ll be excited for a few minutes, maybe, but it lasts only as long as the activity itself, or it dies right in the middle of it. The worst part is when you get used to something and it doesn’t do shit for you anymore.

​Do it once, it’s cool.

Twice, it’s okay.

The third time is already pointless.

What bothers me is ASPD being reduced to "unfeeling tough murderer disorder" instead of the desperate understimulation that feels like you're behing crushed alive; the uncontrollable anger that feels like it's going to burst out of your chest; the ruining your body just to feel entertained for about a couple hours if you're lucky; the severe struggles with money because you can't control your spending to save your life; the loneliness because, not only does nobody wants to be close to a psychopath, but you also can't allow yourself to be vulnerable enough; on that line, the inability to form meaningful bonds even with those who are very close to you because your fondness is extremely muted and it vanishes as soon as you even begin to notice it; the possibility that you might end up in jail, maybe even die in there, one day; the childhood full of people who thought of you as nothing but a monster, and someone no parent would ever want to deal with; the inability to commit to things that you might otherwise enjoy because they inevitably stop being entertaining enough at some point...

i’ve been seeing way to much transandrophobia lately

so i want to try something

reblog if your blog is a safe space for transmascs

please. we need the support.