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syscringe users will be like “you don’t have DID just because your mommy yelled at you. DID is caused by experiencing Unimaginable Horrors in childhood” and then when u say you have DID because you experienced unimaginable horrors they don’t believe you
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"You don't smell good" Thanks our programming that causes severe depression and rapid splitting/switching got triggered and we can hardly do anything but I'm glad you noticed how we smell ! (asshole) -Husker
shoutout to my fellow pro-endo or even mixed origins RAMCOA survivors!!!! i never see enough love for us programmed systems in the pro-endo side of the community (and most of the ramcoa survivors we've met are extremely medical about plurality and anti-endo as a whole).
so, just a reminder, there are other systems like you and we love you <3
i love you programmed systems that purposely fuse their fragments into functioning willogenic headmates.
i love you programmed systems that create more headmates for programs to use to heal.
i love you programmed systems that are endogenic for healing purposes.
i love you programmed systems that are endogenic for fun.
i love you programmed systems that don't let your trauma define your future.
i love you mixed origins programmed systems.
i love you programmed systems.
I want to talk about the side effects of programming that aren’t actual programs. There’s so much more to the trauma than that, such as:
- refusing to form relationships, especially if local, because of the fear that the new person knows or is affiliated with your abuser(s).
- being able to identify exactly what you are feeling, but unable to express the emotion. happy but can’t smile. sad but can’t cry. angry but can’t scream. scared but you’re not shaking.
- letting people hurt you, or hurting yourself, because you enjoy it. not even thinking you deserve it. you genuinely enjoy being hurt, because it’s all you’ve known.
- avoiding certain buildings, rooms, parks, roads, and places because they feel vaguely familiar, but you don’t know why.
- on the contrary, driving straight to those places for the same reason. you don’t know why, but you have a connection to this place, and you have to go.
- always assuming the worst out of loved ones. your partner forgot to text you before they left? they hate you and are plotting how to leave for good. friend gave you a gift? they’re testing your reaction to see if you really like them.
- struggling with hygiene. not because you deserve to not be taken care of, but because you don’t know how to take care of yourself. you don’t know how to brush your teeth. you don’t know how often to change clothes.
- not knowing the difference between good and bad smells. you’re sweaty and people keep looking at you funny? it’s fine, it’s not that strong. someone says your clothes smell dirty? they were cleaned a week ago, so they’re fine.
- finding people who are positive or happy either weird or stupid. i hate that girl, she’s too bubbly. that guy smiles too much. they’re too nice to me, they probably don’t even know what it’s like to suffer.
and it’s never on purpose. usually it’s never even noticed. this is how we survivors have lived for our whole lives. this is the environment we grew up in, the place we learned to survive. and it’s hard to adjust to a world where you are seen as weird, gross, or mentally unwell. it’s hard to open up and get help from people who think you’re too far gone.
reminders for beta programmed parts and OEA survivors with sexual conditioning
warnings for talk of sex / sexual programming
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in reference to this post
the full post in question:
1. mega fakeclaiming, most of us have stated we are introjects
2. making up anti willo blogs?? theres no anti willo andy OR lele or wtv her name is
3. i havent seen ANY anti willo/endo character post tell endos that they should die. i have also never seen any of them go to pro endos directly without a pro endo interacting first
4. we DO focus on uplifting people with DID. AND PDID and UDD and OSDD-1, all which you fail to name. if youre going to "uplift" us, name all of us.
5. a lot of us are introjects, not "dolls" we play with. your "characters" are introjects and we are anti endo. and in my specific case, im from the team itself where i can literally confirm we are anti willo and endo. we used to make fun of you.
6. is DID the only disorder with systems that you can name? i thought you knew better since youre playing godsend here. recently i have furthered my research in understanding multiple treatments that have worked for CDD systems, including CDD specific IFS treatments. i have recently been able to apologize and fix things when i was mistaken and assist in wanting to educate people that needed it.
do you think fakeclaiming gets you anywhere? if introjects are little roleplay dolls to you i hate to say it but then youre not uplifting shit OR educating shit
by the way, the difference between pro endo and pro willo is that endogens are born systems and willogens are "willed" into existence. but you should know that. except you dont for some reason.
we can make as many blogs as we want btw! and if it pisses u off ill make more! thank youuuu
i feel so uncomfortable and sad around children. seeing them reminds me of how vulnerable i was, as well as how intense everything feels to them (getting a scraped knee is extremely painful, dropping ice cream is devastating). i get so jealous seeing happy children. i wish i could have been like that
Just found out that HC-DID confessions is endo-neutral.
Which, you either stand against ableism or you stand for it.
Perhaps it’s on us that we only skimmed the into post when we first discovered the blog, however I still find it a bit… odd, that a blog for programmed systems aligns themselves with pro/endos.
This is, of course, applicable to all systems, but a place that allows ableists as well as disabled people is not a safe place for disabled people. The same as a place that allows both trans people and transphobes is not a safe place for trans people. And many, many more examples such as these.
Putting bigots in a space with the people they’re bigoted against is never good, especially when the people suffering under the bigotry are already extremely traumatized.
