Comet!

once I snorted a fat line of nuance and everything started depending. watch out

eddy burback video: I did the russian sleep experiment for a month

it’s me from my blog

The problem with long term isolation is you become insane and weird and unpalatable and unrelatable and it's seemingly impossible to ever forge meaningful connections with people ever again

simon's crush on grace is sort of a horror aspect of book 3. like, it's just in the background - neither simon nor grace acknowledge it though i think they are both aware of it. and there's nothing inherently wrong with him having feelings for her, of course, but it so clearly informs everything about his perception of her. his idolisation of her, his willingness to fall in line behind her - and then, conversely, his entitlement to her mind, and her body, and this grating sense that he thinks she owes him something - owes him her secrets, owes him her undivided attention, owes it to him to feel the same way he does. he doesn't see denizens as people, and really as the story goes on you realise he doesn't see anyone as a person, grace included. and his crush is the centrepiece of that, explaining how he can have a sort of reverant attraction to and admiration of her, yet still dehumanise and reduce her personhood to what best serves him. and, there's also the fact that it's always horrifying as a teenaged girl to find out the guy whose friendship you value does not value/respect you in the same way because he's preoccupied with fantasies of dating you.