going through things only matt johnson and lana del rey would understand

ok seeing MY blog linked in the notes section of that ridiculously gorgeous amazing new wheatfromchaff fic on ao3 literally made my heart drop in the best way lmao beautiful world

I do have to say the fact that one of the earliest things we hear matt say about nirvanna the band is that they will "never play the same show twice" and then when jay does actually get famous it's literally only for one song lollll. we love a stupid one trick pony who gets led around from stage to stage dressed in his gay little outfits to sing the same song over and over again yay

i feel crazy whenever I try to explain it but like there is no clear explanation as to how Jay didn't immediately realize he wasn't eating candy in the Boost lol like whatever I know it's a reference to that one episode of the Fresh prince or whatever too but in my world Jay knew Matt was giving him something shady and he took it anyway because he's sooo normal about being able to make his own decisions about what's best for him. idk I always imagine that maybe he has a crunchy mom who didn't let him take meds when he was sick and opted for weird "all natural" methods instead (the banana thing) OR alternatively she would convince him and others that he was sick and needed meds even when he was completely fine (her insistence on his ear sensitivity makes me wonder about this). But either way it ends up making Jay really weird about taking medicine in a way that I think he genuinely suffers for when he won't allow himself to get any basic relief from his symptoms. Having Matt swoop in and sort of force him to do it alleviates whatever weird guilt complex he has about it while still allowing him to take something that helps him feel better. He's more comfortable with Matt thinking he's getting one over on him than he is with Matt seeing him indulge. oh Jay. something so wrong with you <3

giving him narcolepsy #jay mccarrol

are you all aware that sam campbell gets on stage and starts talking about wanting big guys to squish him and beat him within an inch of his life within the first 5 mins of his standup special? idk I just feel like that's something everyone should be made aware of, for the culture

crazy they only gave jay a full what maybe 15 minutes between thinking he was watching matt die and then actually seeing matt die. diabolical

it is so funny that the fictional matt johnson dresses like a little cartoon character and the real life guy matt johnson also dresses like a little cartoon character but in a completely different and borderline oppositional way and whenever you slightly glimpse the overlap of the two in nirvanna the band the veil immediately gets so thin you can see straight through to the other side

trying to describe the bike scene in the dirties like "yeah it's kind of a new and exciting take on the dead wife montage because in a way matt thinks owen is going to be the dead wife but really it's him"

under discussed part of the Boost (bc there is so much other crazy shit to talk about in there lbr) is the fact that at the end when they're in the studio on the podcast Jay literally acts like he has never seen a workplace before. like he kind of can't believe that there are musicians who work there and stuff. And then Matt and the host both burst out laughing at him because duh, of course people work there, music is a billion dollar industry! but Jay has been kept so isolated and alienated from the real world that this is genuinely news for him. he forgot that he has a profitable and marketable skill. meanwhile Matt is just laughing in his face about how clueless he really is about how working society functions. it takes a lot for me to say this but I genuinely did feel bad for Jay in that moment bc imagine basically immediately forgiving your friend for nearly accidentally killing you with drugs you didn't even know you were taking only to have him turn around and do that bullshit. i love the Jay torture nexus so much bc no matter what wild scenarios we can cook up for these characters the actual events that happen in the canon are somehow still much crazier