it doesn't matter what I look like i will never attain true hot girl status because I'm always doing annoying voices and off putting inappropriate bits that get me called over to the side at security checkpoints

once you get deep enough into mattworld so many things become complex dog whistles and allusions to it. train tracks, fireworks, rooftops, electrical wires, candy, nooses, bunk beds, basically every movie ever made, etc etc the list goes on. I love #our beautiful nuanced intricacies so much

and speaking of matt casting young men who look a lot like jay, as much as i love it in the rpf when they see each other aging and feel all fond and tender about it, I think a really fun and maybe underexplored area would be to have them notice the signs of age etching themselves into one another's features and feel a lot of resentment and pain and disgust about it. when you see someone you've known for as long as they have getting older it forces you to confront that process in yourself - to face your own mortality and your timer ticking and how truly inescapable it all is. how it comes for everyone. how if it's coming for the man you've known since you were a teenager then it is absolutely certainly coming for you too. I think they both have very complicated relationships to aging and to being middle aged and they manifest in a lot of interesting ways. it's a really juicy interesting place to play to me. idk. just having some #thoughts about this today

I keep seeing those stage pics of matt and dominic sessa and thinking it's JAY. like honestly matt you are not subtle, that man looks suspiciously similar to how your boy best friend did 20 years ago and it's so obvious that it's embarrassing. have some decorum, have some dignity, get UP

do you think siken would be upset about a planet of love × matt johnson edit or do you think if he had the proper context he would be like you know what okay fair enough

it's truly amazing how Matt can simultaneously look so 40 years old and also still so young. and sure there are many times he looks basically exactly his age and clearly he looks much different than he did 20 years ago but there are moments in interviews or in the movie where I'm literally struck by how boyish he looks, like certain gestures or subtle little head and facial movements somehow manage to instantly de-age him in such a profound way. It's incredibly charming and I really love imbuing that onto character Matt as well. like yes he's well into middle age, his back gets sore, his joints creak, he has bags under his eyes but then at times he can move so quickly, he can run and jump and climb anything. In certain angles and lights he looks completely ageless, devoid of anything that would tip off the passage of time. Jay doesn't even notice the fact that he has aged 20 years. He's sort of touched with a little bit of whatever kind of magic could possibly keep you alive forever, halfway to peter pan, not quite immortal but something kind of like it. fragile and mythical and older and younger all at once. idk. this is such an important thing to me about current era Matt ntb and part of what makes me so crazy about him.

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i love it when matt and jay get confused about who did what in their memories. like when matt remembers it being his sandwich or when jay remembers himself saying things that matt claims to have said. it's why the fact that they researched studies of twins separated at birth prior to making the film makes so much sense! like give me total and complete unhealthy enmeshment or what's even the point?