Everything I Love Is Canceled

Mondays aren't that bad once you cannot tell days apart from eachother

THE SAME GOES FOR MEDICATION!! I tried meds as a teenager and they were powerless to help much due to my living situation being horrible. I thought that meant medication didn't work for me. Now that I'm out of that situation and trying agajn I can really see a difference.

Some people saying "uhh shouldn't this be obvious" but there is genuinely such a push right now to paint normal human body functions as outdated nonsense that should be ignored for better health. Like cravings for sugar and carbs will always have a reason for existing, it's not some sort of evil trick to sabotage your diet, just probably means you're lacking something

Something something people with adhd more likely to crave sugars and carbs something something people with adhd regularly forgetting to eat something something apatite suppressants

my ultimate fantasy is to have a brain and body that allows me to enjoy being alive

I'm also mad at myself for not accepting assistance on another medication. to be fair, I was in a better financial spot when I started it, but also I think my too-literal brain interpreted the question as "would your card bounce if you tried to pay for this?" and not "would you benefit from aid?"

I know we as a community (Adaine Abernant lovers) love to talk about Jawbone's speech about how mental illness doesn't make her a bad person but my all time favourite part of that whole moment is when he asks if her parents ever gave her anything for this and Siobhan pulls a fucking Oscar Worthy performance where her lip quivers and she says "My parents just left and I don't know where they are." And all of the sudden, you remember, despite all the mistreatment and the jokes that this is a 14-year-old girl and she doesn't have any parents anymore and she's alone and she's still there fighting a dragon

undiagnosed autistic people will be like "I don't get upset when my routine changes though!!" and it's because they've built a set of if-then loops in their head to pick from one of 6 different strict routines and they do get incredibly upset when they're unable to keep to any of the 6 scripts. I'm john normal

Was just thinking about this the other day. Yeah I have a favorite seat on the bus (middle of the bus, near the back doors, slightly elevated, facing forward), but I don’t get upset if someone is already sitting there, I just pick one of my other favorite spots. Then I realized that most people probably don’t have a favorite bus seat, let alone a series of backup favorites.

how to do things that everyone else seems to do no problem

isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

What the fuck happens that changes these stats to such a massive degree?

also schizophrenic people and psychotic people in general, please do a lot of research before picking a provider for your own sake, and if they try to treat your psychosis in a way that you think is harmful then don’t hesitate to switch providers. your safety and wellbeing should be a priority over everything else.

can y'all please reblog this version instead

i need to [remembers suicide is a permanent solution to temporary states of intolerable existence] change my art style

i need to create something so beautiful that i'm forgiven for everything

Like if the field of psychiatry was in any way apolitical and objective the gender/race discrepancies in who gets diagnosed with what definitely wouldn't look like they do

It is not a coincidence when the white boy is more likely to get diagnosed with autism or ADHD and the white girl is more likely to get diagnosed with anxiety and BPD and the black kids are more likely to get diagnosed with ODD and schizophrenia and it definitely isn't harmless objective science...

not to be disabled on main but have you ever fucking noticed how every god damn thing requires both time and energy

this is really interesting in how it frames disability/low spoons/etc as not being a series of internal symptoms, but specifically a situation in which daily tasks increase in complexity. for example i used to be able to wash the dishes normally. but now mental and physical issues combine to make that situation have a lot of prequalifications (do I have time, energy, how long can I do it without being sore the next day) that means many more steps are involved in getting that single physical act of washing a dish to be done.

I’m trying to remember the quote. “On a good day, doing laundry is three steps. On a bad day, the first step is getting out of bed.”