dreaming disability justice~

A psychologist quoted in a newspaper said that he had witnessed scenes when someone guilty of betrayal admitted them mistake and started to weep, but the injured party would look away with an unmoved face, rejecting their plea for forgiveness.

Jung saw things the way his instinct encouraged him to. If he didn’t, his snake would turn on him. I tried to look at things the way my instinct encouraged me to. If I didn’t, my snake would turn on me. My mum and sisters had acted in ways and said things which my snake disagreed with. I travel along the path my snake prescribes, I thought, because it’s good for me.

I had always dreaded sleep, longed for it, but dreaded it, dreaded falling asleep, falling in general. I had made up a story when I was little, when I lay in bed and couldn’t sleep, didn’t dare fall asleep, but I was Jewish and laid close to other Jews in a railway carriage heading somewhere during the Second World War, that I was close to other people in a railway carriage, surrounded by other living, warm bodies in a shared destiny, not alone but together with others while the train rolled along with its rhythmic, calming chugging, I imagined that I could hear other people breathe around me, near my ear, my neck, and I tried breathing in the same rhythm as them, as the train, I imagined that I lay as close to other living, warm human beings as it was possible to lie, that we were one big body morphing into the train.

disability advocacy went wrong when it became about inspiration porn and “differently abled” and savants. its incredible that that guy with no legs did a triathlon but your sister with no legs will not and she doesnt need prosthetics or five hour training days to deserve respect and compassion and accommodations. its incredible that that autistic guy can look at a city from a helicopter for an hour and then draw the entire detailed skyline from memory when he lands but your autistic friend cannot and they dont need to have a special Autism Power to deserve respect and compassion and accommodations. 

Shoutout to disabled people who don’t have a clear diagnosis, who might never have a clear diagnosis, mentally ill people who can’t get diagnosed due to finances, anxiety, trauma or family issues and Everyone struggling to get a diagnosis.

does ANYONE know ANY films/tv shows (especially films)

I want people to stop attacking nonbinary people who describe their genders in abstract, flowery terms. And I want them to stop dismissing them as “just teenagers who don’t know any better”, too.