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People always do something to make sure that no matter how much you love them that you'll never be able to trust them again

we've stooped to a new low and that's yumeshipping with ragatha you can insult everyone else and me but not my wife ❤️

I hate when neurotypical women say something about men that also happens to apply to autistic people "oh my god, I hate men" and it's anger over a situation where I also misread the social cue and instead of it being an autistic thing or them being ignorant it's a male behavior like go fuck yourself

I have a visceral hatred for all things romantic. I have never felt more alone in the most ironic sense of it because of how ridiculous the circumstances are of myself and that of others. So many people I think are the most gorgeous people that I think "who wouldn't date you?" except me. That fucking suck, doesn't it? It pisses me off so much because it's almost like I'm enabling another's yearning and lonesome when it's just that I'm not interested. I could talk for hours about how alone I am but funny enough I've managed to have experiences in the past year that I haven't managed to have my entire life involving intimacy and romance. I fucking hate this. I'm on a level of yearning where there is no one to attach to because everyone who likes me fucking sucks and no one I like I have a chance with. This is the greatest mockery just to know I'm not alone in that, but it's happening to me. God damn it's me it's happening to. I don't even want a partner as much as it is that I sulk in lonesome. I hate people, I love people so damn much but I hate them because there ceases to be anyone who could ever give a damn about me and I give as much of a damn about them.

I made a post months back telling people that Jax was a bad person and it's a worrying quality if you're a Jax fan or even a Jax defender and people got on my ASS about it before the leaks came out and now the hate train has emerged and I've never felt more free

I believe myself to be an enneagram 9 I've found there are things, common to me that seem to be alien or at least uncommon to my subtype (so9) which has likely stunted my understanding The most important trait being: I am a violently opinionated person. (exaggerated) I would say I've been frustrated against the world for a majority of my life due to the alienation I've experienced as being a queer youth and having political values that were controversial in my conservative area. Ones I still maintain mind you. This has led to many arguments with some friends who I disagree with. These are values I'll die on and many people would say that it's more of a trait for e6 or e1, until I decided to read Ichazo. "The Seeker is fixed on the domain of ​​spirituality, which includes organizations, religions, gatherings and anything close to mystical, magical or diabolical concepts. The P9 moves from one extreme of the domain to the other. On the one hand, the Seeker is gullible and needs to believe in something, he is a natural follower who still rationalizes his beliefs. On the other hand, the P9 is cold, distant, suspicious, temperamental and calculating. Maturity and realism balance the domain." This compensated a lot for me as I had a lot of coping mechanism which were akin to the e9, but due to my more fixed stances it was a lot more difficult. Outside of these values, I'd say I'm a rather positive and agreeable person if anything. I really dislike centrists and apolitical people because ironically enough they always are political. Lenience is inherently political and it upsets me to see people act as if it isn't, most of those people not being e9. Again, outside of the values I uphold, I have bad social anxiety, care a lot about what other people think, and want to carry along social cohesion.

When I was a kid I remember believing that the creepypastas were real and it didn't help with youtubers like Puppet Strings (does anyone remember Puppet Strings?) and Marble Hornets <3 Despite absolutely wanting to run away to the mansion with them and live a life as a pasta, I was terrified of them actually being in my bed room. A reoccurring fear was that Jeff The Killer was in my room just waiting for me to make the wrong move before he struck, putting so much anxiety in little me when I woke up in the middle of the night. I'd put the pillow over my head and forget to breath and sometimes wake up suffocating. (This alongside FNAF 4 Foxy in my closet) I'd also have hallucinations of Slenderman next to my bedroom door, not helping that in footage Slenderman always distorts the film and being sleepy in the dark it was very grainy just enough for my mind to conjure him up. Despite this, I still had a deep love for these things that both my grandmas tried to sway me away from, but I didn't care at all and would indulge in the media as often as I could. I really don't know why they wouldn't let me embrace it and every time I look back on it I can't help but think about how stupid they were in the fullness of truth. Something that rendered me to become very haughty and prideful as I aged since I was already praised for being very smart.

why is it so common for people to use she/her for Chara and he/him for Kris? Is it just the names?

The Epstein files as they exist are a distraction from class warfare. it has opened many alt-right individuals eyes, but it also has cropped back up old conspiracies in twisted ways. People forget that these old theories of pizzagate and qanon came from 4chan and particularly /pol/ which was a far-right extremist forum created just after Epstein met with the founder of 4chan. Even then, the things within the files that influenced the resurgence of these theories only exists in minute ways and the one describing demonic ritual only exists as a FBI tip which also claims that the victim's feet were cut but left no scarring. With what is found, it leads us back to these old theories that we forget were originally propped up by people of 4chan and specifically /pol/ - Nazis and Trump supporters who viewed him as a savior that would expose these affairs. People seem to not realize that when ideas, no matter how much they are easy to agree upon simply (like the evils of child abuse, sexual trauma, and sex trafficking) can easily be used to push other agendas depending on how they're expressed. (anti-immigration, racism, anti-semetism, transphobia or homophobia, so on) It takes away entirely from the much more concrete trauma of what happened - what we absolutely know to be true - resurging old content to push old narratives that we understand now not to be true. Even despite all of what we know now, it is because of online Nazis and antisemites that these ideas exist. The fantasticalness of these theories leads us to alienate from the concrete harm we know to have happened - separating us from the trauma that victims endured because we ignore what they've said for the sake of our own narratives and ideologies - and blend ideas of events with no concrete truth that have conflicting narratives. Get off social media and read.