linguistic anarchist

I’m not sure what the right word is. He does have confidence in his skills, the moment he gets into the zone with his work of any kind (teaching, sciencing), once he gets out of his own way he has no hesitation. But away from that, he does seem to think very little of himself, or rather, doesn’t see that he could have genuine worth to others. He is out of sync with humanity in general, even though he does have the tools to connect with people fairly easily, mostly with humor/teaching. When they tell him he’s the new science officer for the Hail Mary, he calls himself a failure, simply the type of person who is unable to succeed despite his obvious and huge achievements.

I don’t think he’s a coward at all. I think he feels alone and afraid most of the time, for whatever reasons (the book/movie do not tell us — past tragedy? Traumatic experiences? Autism? Simply his temperament? His career flameout is most likely a symptom of this, not the cause) and he is constantly doing it afraid, constantly having to be brave every single day. He has his comfort zones (teaching, sciencing) and his coping mechanisms (humor, burying himself in work) but he’s always afraid. That’s why when he fails (career flameout, astrophage are made of water, etc) he breaks and lashes out in frustration, releasing all that tension in a rush. He pushes himself so hard and he fails anyway and he crashes out/melts down.

And when he has amnesia, he’s still afraid. He isn’t suddenly a fearless person without his memories. He’s terrified, waking up in space alone. But he is also the kind of person who refuses to just give up, especially with something so important, because he cares so much. It’s love of science and people that drives him for everything, even when he feels certain he doesn’t belong with either. It’s love that drives him to save Rocky.

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the “someone else” is a fictional character in a fictional story. they are not real people

one of the reasons why creative writing, including dark fics, can help people heal is because they are taking back control. it’s a safe and controlled environment whey victims and survivors have full control of what happens and how it happens

there’s no wrong way to explore creative writing. there’s no rule that says “you must write it this way” or “you must write it that way”. so if they want to write a story where the victim and the predator fall in love, or if they write it as a kink, then that is no one’s business but their own’s. if it helps them heal then it helps them heal. they don’t owe us any explanation, they don’t owe us anything. because when I say they have full control of what happens in the fictional stories that they write, I mean they have full control of the fictional stories that they write. no one has the right to tell and control them what they can and can’t write.

Where Bluey has to learn about death after finding an injured bird that doesn't survive. She replays the scenario with Bingo while playing pretend, and this helps her process the outcome and her emotions surrounding it.

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