Idiot's Log

obviously there's a lot of serious ethical reasons fatphobia sucks but also it's so annoying that I can't just say "I'm huge" and have it be percieved as a neutral statement rather than self-deprecating. Like oh my god no, I DON'T mean "It's a shame I'm not smaller," what I mean is "I can throw well over 200lbs at someone anytime I want by simply jumping or flopping over, and many people cannot lift 200lbs so they couldn't even stop me"

I do wish we could make it a little more socially acceptable to wander the streets at night weeping inconsolably I feel like that would have a great catharsis factor for a lot of people

Y'all do know that people have to actually GROW in order for us to "accept their growth". That's the bit. You're not a child. You actually have to put in the work to become the person you want us all to assume you are.

something that i find interesting about independent animation nowadays is that if you don't have studio/streamer backing, you have to release your work yourself on the internet, but you have to do it for free on the internet because virtually nobody is going to be willing to accept a paywall just for one original show, so what you have to do in order to make any money off of it is make all of your money from merchandising, but then this means that you show must be merchandisable and have very toyetic character designs that translate easily to plushies and whatnot, but then you also need to cater your show to people who are disproportionately inclined to buy merchandise like that in the first place so that your sales can be enough to sustain you, which means that even if you want to communicate complex or difficult ideas in your work, your independent animation project must attract (at least on a first impression) and retain viewers who are both very consumerist and very capable of rabid passion, which unfortunately has a single-circle shaped venn diagram with a lot of the most toxic fandom tendencies known to man, and this explains a lot of things about independent animation and its fandoms nowadays I think

part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

If they had done things differently they could have been happy, but to do things differently would require them to be someone else.