Just a friendly capybara

(I'll get to the ones you keep leaving in my inbox I promise! Just have been feeling bleh)

Take your time, no rush! I do tend to throw these presents everywhere when I see them lol

Took a brief break from my main fic to start working on a oneshot for my Stardew Valley Trustbites AU, which probably appeals to no one but me haha

@jackdaw-sprite “surely this won’t spiral” is the eternal prayer of fanfic writers everywhere

And LOL I love that idea! Dr Legs, famously skeptical of all things magic, now living in a magical valley where Weird Things Happen and he just has to go with it 😂

“Wow Doc, this potion is some really powerful stuff! Your magical skills are coming along!”

“IT’S NOT MAGIC, FOR THE LAST TIME, JUST BECAUSE I BREWED IT IN A CAULDRON THAT DOESN’T MAKE IT A MAGIC POTION, IT’S MEDICINE.”

Shelby and Drift co run the adventurers guild. Shelby is very enthusiastic about the various magic items just "appearing" in the mines.

Pyro is the blacksmisth. people keep commissioning him to make iridium products. "isn't iridum radioactive?" he asks. no one listens.

Abolish as the Fisherman to be as far from town (and it's craziness) as possible.

Apo is Joja For The Dynamic (sorry girl ily but it makes the rest of this funnier), Pearl technically runs the general store but is 50/50 with Cleo the rancher. They both have a rivalry with Apo.

i can also see general store Pyro and Blacksmith Pearl- Cleo complains extensively about Pyro being closed on Wednesdays, and Pearl is disturbingly cavalier about the valley's strange ores. she sees something glowing bright green on the table and goes, "oh, what a lovely color!"

Oscar is a mummified cat that Pearl found in an Ancient Trove one time

ohhhhh, evil thought: Scott keeps doves. they are beautiful and immaculately kept, and help him with his work. you can even use them as a mail service, if you like.

No solid thoughts on the details, but like they are definitely Divorced (maybe literally)

For some reason Legundo has been drawn back to Oakhurst. Maybe he hears Scott is dead, and there was something that Scott had that Legs wants from the ruins of the castle.

So he walks into town and is blending in, playing the kind, skeptical doctor, getting along with people.

and then Scott arrives.

Scott: 😍😍😍✨✨Legundo✨✨😍😍😍

Legs: If you take one more step towards me I will rip your smug face off

Scott: awww I missed you too😘

the townsfolk have NO IDEA how to deal with that energy

and I’m just imagining a conversation in town like

Cleo: so, he’s your ex?

Legs: yep.

Cleo: and yet, you hard committed to the “vampires aren’t real” bit.

Thank you @mytoomanybookstoread for lovingly crafting me some blorbo torment

“he’s not equipped to do couples counselling or divorce court” lol Abolish’s “I’m not paid enough for this shit” level gets freaking tripled here

Tags from @totally-lyrical

(I'll get to the ones you keep leaving in my inbox I promise! Just have been feeling bleh)

Take your time, no rush! I do tend to throw these presents everywhere when I see them lol

Took a brief break from my main fic to start working on a oneshot for my Stardew Valley Trustbites AU, which probably appeals to no one but me haha

@jackdaw-sprite “surely this won’t spiral” is the eternal prayer of fanfic writers everywhere

And LOL I love that idea! Dr Legs, famously skeptical of all things magic, now living in a magical valley where Weird Things Happen and he just has to go with it 😂

“Wow Doc, this potion is some really powerful stuff! Your magical skills are coming along!”

“IT’S NOT MAGIC, FOR THE LAST TIME, JUST BECAUSE I BREWED IT IN A CAULDRON THAT DOESN’T MAKE IT A MAGIC POTION, IT’S MEDICINE.”

Shelby and Drift co run the adventurers guild. Shelby is very enthusiastic about the various magic items just "appearing" in the mines.

Pyro is the blacksmisth. people keep commissioning him to make iridium products. "isn't iridum radioactive?" he asks. no one listens.

screenshot of the last tag from here

I have given myself the world's most horrendous idea:

After the series, Legs goes to that town in hopes that one of the survivors will kill him if he asks. And they do!

But they're not going to stake him or burn him at the stake, what on earth? Both of those things are horrible. Anyway, poisoning him is much more fitting. Shooting him is easier. Hanging him is more of the Done Execution at the time.

I got attached.

I wanted him to have done enough, changed enough to make up for it. I wanted him to have a happy ending, even if it was pretty clear he wouldn't get one.

The character of Dr. Legundo, in the series, asks the question of if there are things a human being can do that are so utterly vile that they can never, ever mend them, grow from them to become a person worthy of forgiveness (or, if you care to frame it in another way, to find redemption.)

And he asks, "If the answer is no, that you have gone far past the point of no return...what if you try, anyway? What if you give everything of yourself to others, over and over--"

.

Because the thing is, the framing of the series asks these things severed from the true context of what he did. The audience had a stronger reaction to Avid's murder than the revelation that Dr. Legundo had, in his past, done the same more than five thousand times over. Because those numbers are distant, and abstract. Those numbers are not people; we do not see the shape of what he wrought, only what it made of him.

This is fine. It is not a story about Dr. Legundo's guilt. It is a story about 14 people made rats in a trap, and how the nights draw long and bloody as the noose closes around their throats.

But it might be worth it, to bring that back into focus. To show the crumbling grave of thousands, to show the shattered remains of the survivors, still scarred, still burned, ghosts in their own right and ask the question again, reversed:

Is there? Is there anything a single man can do to earn forgiveness for this?

When he caused it? When he's the reason the home you had is a moldering corpse? When the community you had is shattered beyond repair? When the people who were neighbors are scattered to the wind, if they don't reside forever in the graveyard that burst its banks decades ago?

When everyone who remembers it never recovered, just patched themselves together enough to make it through each day?

.

there's also the greater political situation at hand- given that Legundo was given a medal, he was presumably on the winning side of the war he was in. the war where there was a public ceremony declaring the entire village to be "enemy soldiers". which means this new village of survivors has almost certainly been offered no restitution or even public acknowledgement of wrongdoing in the first place. in which case the guilt ridden is-that-a-fucking-ghost of the soldier that actually applied the poison may be the least of the villagers problems!

and also the only outside validation or acknowledgement of wrongdoing that the villagers have actually received, ever.

screenshot of the last tag from here

I have given myself the world's most horrendous idea:

After the series, Legs goes to that town in hopes that one of the survivors will kill him if he asks. And they do!

But they're not going to stake him or burn him at the stake, what on earth? Both of those things are horrible. Anyway, poisoning him is much more fitting. Shooting him is easier. Hanging him is more of the Done Execution at the time.

I got attached.

I wanted him to have done enough, changed enough to make up for it. I wanted him to have a happy ending, even if it was pretty clear he wouldn't get one.

The character of Dr. Legundo, in the series, asks the question of if there are things a human being can do that are so utterly vile that they can never, ever mend them, grow from them to become a person worthy of forgiveness (or, if you care to frame it in another way, to find redemption.)

And he asks, "If the answer is no, that you have gone far past the point of no return...what if you try, anyway? What if you give everything of yourself to others, over and over--"

.

Because the thing is, the framing of the series asks these things severed from the true context of what he did. The audience had a stronger reaction to Avid's murder than the revelation that Dr. Legundo had, in his past, done the same more than five thousand times over. Because those numbers are distant, and abstract. Those numbers are not people; we do not see the shape of what he wrought, only what it made of him.

This is fine. It is not a story about Dr. Legundo's guilt. It is a story about 14 people made rats in a trap, and how the nights draw long and bloody as the noose closes around their throats.

But it might be worth it, to bring that back into focus. To show the crumbling grave of thousands, to show the shattered remains of the survivors, still scarred, still burned, ghosts in their own right and ask the question again, reversed:

Is there? Is there anything a single man can do to earn forgiveness for this?

When he caused it? When he's the reason the home you had is a moldering corpse? When the community you had is shattered beyond repair? When the people who were neighbors are scattered to the wind, if they don't reside forever in the graveyard that burst its banks decades ago?

When everyone who remembers it never recovered, just patched themselves together enough to make it through each day?

.

there's also the greater political situation at hand- given that Legundo was given a medal, he was presumably on the winning side of the war he was in. the war where there was a public ceremony declaring the entire village to be "enemy soldiers". which means this new village of survivors has almost certainly been offered no restitution or even public acknowledgement of wrongdoing in the first place. in which case the guilt ridden is-that-a-fucking-ghost of the soldier that actually applied the poison may be the least of the villagers problems!

and also the only outside validation or acknowledgement of wrongdoing that the villagers have actually received, ever.

imposter purple guh

The main thing is that my vampire elder has the ability to mess with his senses and take control over his body for short periods of time. He has the ability to make him see things that aren’t there (one example would be my OC seeing a version of himself in the mirror that is actually his elder talking to him mentally but he sees it as that version of himself talking to him)

Now imagine in the AU where abolish took a drop of Scott’s blood :3

ohohhhohhh spooky yessss

Abolish, who relies so heavily on his observation skills, starting to succumb to stress and paranoia because he keeps *seeing* things.

He doesn't understand what's happening, until he catches sight of himself in a mirror, and he reflection is smiling, grinning back at him with a wicked glint in the eye and it's so obviously Scott that Abolish smashes the mirror.

Not just seeing/hearing things that aren’t there, but *not* seeing/hearing things that *are*

Abolish and Pyro run into each other in the woods. Scott has been following Pyro and now has the perfect opportunity to mess with both of them.

He can sneak up on Abolish by making sure he doesn't hear him coming. He appears behind Abolish's shoulder and Pyro freaks. Abolish looks behind him and sees nothing.

"It's fine, Pyro, there's nothing there. I would know."

He's staring straight at Scott.

It leaves Pyro questioning his own perception, because he trusts Abolish.

The Doc hands him some stew with a concerned look and insists he has to eat something. the stew is warm and rich and hearty and its only when Abolish sees the blood on his lips in a reflection does he realize it's not stew at all.

his eating doesn't slip, after that. somehow he always has something on hand, even when he burns his rations. the regular meals are good. too good. hunger roars in his stomach and he devours what's in his hands and it is so, so good.

his stupid butler costume was never his favorite, but now it is comfortable, especially when it is neat. the gloves feel like silk against his hands. he borrows one of Ren's shirts. wearing it itches, something in his mind insisting that it's wrong.

he only notices that he's back in his old clothes when he realizes that it's stopped itching.

the sword in his sheathe is diamond, glittering in the sun and brutal-sharp. it used to be silver. Cleo says it's still silver. Maybe it's not Cleo, though.

his sleeping quarters would be cooler if they had a window in them. he hasn't made it yet, but he can imagine it perfectly- high up and bat sized, perfect for late night visits. Scott wants him to make it, and the want feels like his own. he reminds himself that he doesn't actually want that. it feels less convincing every time.

although it’s true AO3 does allow all fannish content provided it’s properly warned for, there’s a long history there - of spaces being used by fans until the host decided whatever we were doing was too weird and distasteful and either kicking us off, banning certain content, or changing the nature of the site until it was no longer viable as a host.

you’re referring to the LJ Strikethrough of 2007, which, being an ancient crone, I lived through, and since I was hanging out in the last vestiges of SGA and in bandom, I saw some of the fallout. this was before LJ was sold to the Russians (which is a whole ‘nother story), when it was still owned by Six Apart; in an effort to clean up LJ’s act, Six Apart decided to delete all accounts using tags like underage, incest, rape, etc.

this was supposed to get rid of actual child porn on the site, and I hope it did, but it also targeted fan communities. this was a problem for a couple reasons; for one thing, not every story tagged with these words is in favor of them; for another, these things happen to real people and these personal posts were also potentially in danger of being attacked; for the last one, look, I ain’t into this kind of fic but people write about what people write about, and if it’s fictional and not explicitly banned in the TOS (correct me if I’m wrong; I don’t think written content about this stuff was banned?) then it’s not cool for a content host to just start deleting communities without warning.

but that’s what happened! these deletions were also primarily targeting slash communities, which smacked of some serious homophobia since things were deleted that had nothing to do with any of this kind of content.

eventually someone found out it was this super conservative religious group who’d sent a list of journal names to Six Apart, and who if I remember correctly targeted slash fic on purpose, even after it became clear that the fic was, well, totally fictional. after a while, Six Apart admitted they’d made a mistake and started to reinstate journals, but all of fandom was pretty shaken up.

THEN Boldthrough happened, which was essentially the same debacle several months later, at which point fandom began its long slow migration from LJ to GJ, IJ, and eventually AO3, Twitter, and tumblr.

AO3 was opened in 2008 in response to several incidents, of which Strikethrough was a really intense one. remember, also, that back in 2008 the stigma surrounding fandom was significantly greater and more shameful than it is today, so finding hosts willing to archive fic was difficult unless someone had the dough to pay for server space - often not an option. this was also back when fanfic.net’s HTML restrictions were so great that users couldn’t use any special characters or bold or italicize anything, and it didn’t allow R-rated content, so it was clearly not ideal. in addition, although cease & desist letters were much less common than they were in the early 2000s and before, DMCA takedowns were still a phantom on the horizon.

LONG STORY SHORT, even though pedophilia is reprehensible and I personally cannot stomach fanfic that involves that kind of content, AO3 was founded specially as a safe space for fandom communities that could not find homes elsewhere. it requires warnings precisely for that reason, and if you find a story that is not properly warned, you can alert the admins and get the story labeled appropriately.

In the same way, writing about underage teens getting it on–sometimes with each other, sometimes with adults, sometimes consensually, sometimes not–is not the same as child pornography, nor does reading a fic about Hermione and Snape getting it on while she was his student mean someone thinks that would be a good and/or healthy thing in real life.

Fiction affects reality, but fiction is not reality.  And writing about something does not mean you want to do it in real life, or believe that anyone should.

Let’s take a closer look at that “Ao3 supports pedophilia!” shall we?

1) The only fics I have ever come across that had actual pedophilia (i.e. someone having sex with a child), it was clearly and explicitly abuse.  It was not meant to titillate or arouse.  It was meant to horrify.  It was seldom explicit.

2) There’s a lot more incest, but it is usually portrayed either as explicitly mutually consensual (i.e. Sam/Dean) or as abusive.

3) I’ve been in fandom for a decade and a half.  When people start getting upset at “omg pedophilia, think of the children!” the fics they are usually objecting to aren’t actually pedophilia.  Usually, it is teenagers having sex, especially queer sex.  And people don’t like that, and use pedophilia as an excuse to shame people for writing/reading sex they don’t like.

Let’s look closer at Strikethrough, shall we?  I hope that, if there were any communities of actual pedophiles on LJ, they got taken down, too.  But here are some of the communities that got taken down that were not in any way supporting pedophilia and/or rape and/or incest that got taken down:

1) at least one support community for survivors of sexual abuse.

2) a literary book discussion group that was reading Lolita.

3) lots of slash fanfic communities, for things like Draco/Harry fic set in their fourth year (when both boys would have been 15).

Basically, this very conservative “family values” group hated porn, and they hated queer stuff even more, and used “but think of the children, it’s pedophilia!” to pressure LJ to get rid of huge swathes of things they didn’t like.  And one time taking down the worst of it wasn’t good enough for them.  No, this was step one on a moral crusade.  If you acceded to their demands, all that did was whet their appetite, and soon they would be back with a new list of demands.  This is why the 2007 strikethrough was not an isolated event, but rather one of a series of events, nor was LJ the only website thus targeted.  It starts with anything that can get labelled “pedophilia” or “incest” because that’s low-hanging fruit.  But they use that to go after anything relating to queer teen sexuality.  Then anything with teen sexuality.  Then once the community is already divided and diminished, they go after anything with non-con.  Then whatever is next on their list.  It doesn’t stop until they’ve won the point and nothing but suitably “family-friendly” fics that match their purity test are allowed.

Which is why AO3 has no morality content in their terms of service.  You can’t break copyright beyond fair use (and AO3 has an expansive view of “fair use” and a team of lawyers on call).  You can’t use AO3 for commercial advertising.  And you can’t post ACTUAL child pornography, i.e. the things that are legally prohibited, i.e. actual photographs or videos of actual children (not teens) in sexually explicit positions–you know, the stuff that actually hurts kids.  Other than that?  It’s fair game.  You can post anything you want, and the archive will not judge.  There is no handle for the Moral Majority Family-Friendly Thought Police to latch onto, no cracks they can exploit to divide and conquer.

During this period, Dreamwidth was also targeted by attacking its payment processor. They had to get a new one. These “Warriors” (literally called themselves that!) were totally on board with destroying fandom as a side effect of destroying the parts of fandom they didn’t like.

AO3 and OTW are HUGE, because now we have an organization, with very smart women and a lot of lawyers, that have our back. Fannish history is important, people! It has not always been this way.

LJ was, for many people, central.  

It was a fundamental part of the infrastructure of fandom at the time.  

Having it attacked, having parts of your fandom’s territory just deleted like that, was very very scary.  People didn’t know who was next.  Every day, the list of stricken journals grew.  And not all of them came back, not all of them recovered their content.  Some people even voluntarily deleted their content as a form of protest.  It was a bad time.

You do not have to interact with fic that grosses you out or makes you uncomfortable.  Tagging is a thing.  And even outside of tags, you are responsible for curating your own fandom experience.  It is not right to expect it to be curated for you.  And it is not right to lash out when someone refuses to do so and expects you to walk away from things that do not concern you.

I was gonna say “things that don’t harm anyone” but I realize you can argue that.  If you get triggered, that’s upsetting.  That could be considered harm.  And I have sympathy for that.  I do.

I have run across fic that triggered me.  I have pretty specific triggers, and people don’t always think to warn for them because they aren’t that big a deal for a lot of people.  Or it’s sort of bundled into kink and is presumed, that if you’re okay with certain kinds of kink, you’re okay with this.  So I’ve been blindsided by it before.  And it sucks for a couple of days while I get over it.

That was not the fault of the authors! You could argue that tagging should have been used, and maybe it should, but ultimately that’s not an ironclad obligation.  It’s a tool people provide out of courtesy.

That was not the fault of the site!  The site is there to give authors a way to make fiction available, not to judge each work and interrogate its validity and make sure everything is tagged so that nobody has to see anything bad, ever.

That was not even my fault!  It was my responsibility to try to curate my experience, and I tried, but it wasn’t my fault because I didn’t deliberately set out to trigger myself.

When I get triggered, unless it is by a deliberate act, it is actually the fault of the people who hurt me in the first place! And I refuse to let them off the hook and blame perfectly innocent people who just wanna write their fanfiction! I may hate that fanfiction, but that is irrelevant to the question of whether or not people should be allowed to post whatever they want.

Also, some people cope by writing about fucked-up shit.  My best friend in the whole wide world has shared her fic with me, and HOO BOY it is messed up. She wrote it during a time in her life when she was in and just coming out of a horrifically abusive relationship.  I mean, it was exactly the kind of relationship all of us here on Tumblr love to hate.  She was married to a shitty, abusive man who preyed on someone younger than he was and used his influence over her to treat her in a way that would be right at home in that Lundy Bancroft book Why Does He Do That?  He was a real rapist, a verified grade-A bad fuckin’ guy.  (She was lucky to escape.  I have immense respect for her.)  And she wrote some fucked up fic to deal with it, and she shared it, and people were invested in it.  And because this was early 2000′s, she had to host it on a foreign server and cover her tracks, because at that time no-place was safe to post it.

“Yeah, but if she’s writing it for therapy, she doesn’t have to post it where other people might have to see it!” I hear you say.

But like … what the hell??? “Shut up, don’t talk about it, it’s bad to talk about these things, because these things are bad!” is something used against folks with trauma.

“This isn’t good for me, I can’t talk about this, I can’t be your audience for this,” that’s fine, those are boundaries that people with trauma use to defend themselves.  You should learn to say those things!  It will help you!

But expecting other people to never create and share art about trauma is just so thunderously oppressive I lack the ability to fully articulate it.

And nobody should have to disclose their history of trauma to prove their motives are pure or virtuous enough for their speech to be protected.  I’ve only really been able to openly say “I was assaulted, it was traumatic, I am a little fucked up from it” for the past couple of years, tops.  I couldn’t talk about it before that.  Couldn’t!  And it was over 20 years ago!

I also believe, very firmly, that you don’t need a history of abuse to find writing really messed-up shit satisfying, or to find reading it cathartic.  I believe 100% in the freedom of creative expression, and the freedom to read whatever fucked up shit you want to read.

All y’all fandom youngsters can spit nails all you want over gross rape fic, incest fic, whatever.

Fine, I don’t like it either!

But that fucked up shit?  That fucked up shit helped carve out the spaces we have today.  You don’t have to like it, but campaigning to get it deleted, harassing content creators, calling people rapists and pedophiles who have never done and would never ever do such a thing, that is not the way to improve the world, it doesn’t keep actual kids or teens or assault/rape victims safe.  It wouldn’t have made me feel safe when I was 16 and did’t want what was going on.  It doesn’t make me feel safe now.  I can say with the perspective of someone 24 years away from that event, it doesn’t make the world safer for people like I was.  It actually makes it worse.

Learn to steer clear of the messed-up stuff you don’t like.  It’s a skill, you get better with practice.  Have someone else vet stuff for you if you need help doing it now.

Everything that is sketchy and gross is not criminal, and writing about a thing is not morally the same as doing it.  Please stop acting like writing about an adult and a teenager having really questionable, gross sex is as bad as the actual registered sex offender they caught hanging around an actual elementary school two neighborhoods over from mine, just trying to talk to the kids.  The former is, at most, in poor taste, and potentially triggering to abuse victims.  The second makes me want to vomit because even though he was just talking, that guy was gearing up to try something and create another abuse victim.  A g a i n.  

The first can be avoided because it is imaginary and you, an adult, have power over your back button so that you don’t have to witness harm to imaginary people.  The second, those very real kids had to rely on real adults and real law enforcement to keep them safe from very real assault.   (It worked!  The neighborhood rallied!  He was arrested for violating parole!)

Pretty sure Sleazebag McDongface didn’t read some gross NC-17 Draco/Lucius fic before deciding to harm an actual human being.  Pretty sure not having read it didn’t keep him from doing it. ‘Cause he fuckin’ did it.  And he would have done worse. But actual people stopped him.

I get wanting to protect victims when so many of us are victims ourselves, but man, going after fiction is not the way to do it.

If you have a website with TOS that includes any kind of “objectionable content” rules, there will be parties who will use those rules to try to silence other people whom they want silenced.

Let’s look at the alt-right and MRA movements today, or GamerGate a few years ago. What is one of their primary weapons? They report black or feminist or really any leftist YouTube channels (or Twitter accounts, or whatever) whose message they don’t like and claim those channels are are violating TOS by posting hate speech or incitations to violence or whatever bullshit they can come up with, in an attempt to silence those channels.

When Anita Sarkeesian of Feminist Frequence came under fire for starting a crowdfunding endeavor to fund the production of her Tropes vs. Women in Video Games series of videos, male gamers tried to get her KickStarter and various social media accounts shut down by reporting her for for hate speech and promoting terrorism.

Luckily, that became a big enough story that the dudes failed and their efforts backfired. But a lot of times, these tactics work.

How do I know this? Because it happened to me. Not over major shit like the examples above, but over something completely petty.

Back in the mid-to-late 90s, before LiveJournal really became the place for fandom, before FF.net was really a thing, you had to create your own personal website on whatever free webhost you could find (GeoCities was popular, but there were others) if you wanted to host your fic somewhere.

And back then, TV studios and book authors were still sending their lawyers after people who wrote fanfic, issuing cease and desist letters to not only the authors, but also to their webhosts.

At the time, I was writing perfectly het Mulder/Scully fanfic. No rape, no pedophilia, no slash. Maybe a little BDSM. But largely it was unobjectionable.

Then the 8th season of X-Files started, David Duchovny decided he only wanted to be involved part-time, and the show decided to bring in another male character. The fandom lost their shit–as fandoms do–over the idea of “replacing” Mulder blah blah blah.

One of the most popular fanfic mailing lists–one that had previously had no restrictions on what characters or pairings could be posted–decided that if you wrote fanfic involving this character, you were no longer welcome. Well, this was the mailing list with all the readers. Sure, authors could go to other mailing lists, but they wouldn’t have exposure to the sort of readership this other list boasted.

I spoke out, saying that this change was unfair to fic authors and that the moderator of this list was behaving in a pretty vile way. The moderator and her friends took aim at me and began a campaign of harassment, and a few days later, suddenly my website with my XF fanfic was TOSed because someone had reported it. So was the next site I tried to create to host my fic, and the one after that.

Thanks to the way AO3s TOS are constructed, that sort of shit doesn’t happen now. I can speak up if I need to, and while I may receive harassment on my various social media accounts, there’s no chance they can have my fic taken down just because they have an agenda and don’t like me for reasons not relating to my fic.

When I helped write the ToS for AO3, I wasn’t primarily thinking about strikethrough. I was primarily thinking of FFN, where so many people post things that are technically against the ToS but that the community tolerates. Any time someone gets pissed off, they can go on a grudge-reporting spree and target their enemy’s work. Often, that means guys targeting slash or Twilight fic because it’s “for girls” and thus sucks. Sometimes, it’s one ship vs. another. I was also thinking of Miss Scribe and all of that other Harry Potter fandom drama. (And if you think fans are above destroying an entire archive just to strike at one enemy, think again!)

We can’t force people to like each other. We can’t force people to be nice to each other. But we could take away fandom bullies’ favorite tools.

It galls me to think that those of us who went through all this shit might have to go through it again because people who were still in primary school at the time don’t see anything wrong with harassing us over

Like, I hate to pull this argument, but we are your fandom elders, we did what we did to preserve fandom for y'all, so y'all would have space to safely explore the sane things we did and still do. And in doing so we rightly realized that if we wanted to protect the comfortable, cuddly parts, we also needed to protect the dark parts.

You can hate non-con fic all you want, and I will always advocate for adequate tagging/warning (especially with franchises that are aimed at younger audiences, e.g. MLP:FIM and SU) so that you don’t have to see it because I sympathize, but I will never support people who want to make sure that it isn’t even there to be seen. I’ve been through that once. It didn’t help anyone. It didn’t fix anything.

I’m a nold. I’m in my 40s. When I came out as queer, in the early 90s, it was in the middle of what were called the “feminist sex wars”.  If you want a really good book to read about that period, which has a LOT of resonance with Strikethrought and with the current Tumblr discourse, I cannot recommend this highly enough:

Defending Pornography: Free Speech, Sex, and the Fight for Women’s Rights by Nadine Strossen

A preview is available on Google Books, or it should be readily available secondhand, or in academic libraries (though it’s not a very heavy academic read). I recommend Booko for finding cheap secondhand copies. Support independent bookstores!

I haven’t read “Defending Pornography” for a while – I actually last re-read it about a decade ago because of the impact that Warriors for Innocence were having on Dreamwidth’s payment providers at the time, subsequent to Strikethrough itself – but here’s a quick summary, as I remember it.

1. In the late 80s and early 90s there was a vocal group of radical feminists who believed that pornography inherently harms women, not just in its production but also in its consumption (i.e. watching/reading pornography caused people to develop attitudes that were harmful to women). All explicit content was considered to be harmful, from eg. girlie magazines to hardcore XXX videos to a book like “The Joy of Gay Sex”, no matter who made it, its purpose, its intended audience, or its context. (Yup, even m/m content was considered to be degrading to women for reasons that didn’t make a lot of sense tbh.)

2. These anti-pornography feminists teamed up with the religious right and managed to get anti-porn laws passed. In particular, a law was passed in Canada preventing the importation of “obscene” material. Canada, of course, imports a lot of material from the US. Stuff started getting seized at the border.

3. Guess what was seized first? “The Joy of Gay Sex” and the like. Guess what businesses started finding all their shipments seized or delayed – sexually explicit or not – to the point where they were being put out of business? Gay bookstores.  Guess what wasn’t seized at all? Mainstream porn made for straight men. 

Around this time, Little Sisters bookstore in Vancouver (a gay bookstore) found that huge amounts of merchandise was being seized at the border, regardless of the actual content. They were being discriminatorily targeted on the basis of their sexuality. The queerness of the material they were importing was seen as inherently obscene.

Remember that this is before there was much information available online for LGBTQ+ people, so if you were a young person maybe just coming out and trying to understand things, or wanting to learn about safe sex (and yes it was at the height of the AIDS crisis, too) you’d go to a bookstore like this. Which now had empty shelves. I remember endless fundraising and activism in the LGBTQ+ community to try and keep Little Sisters open. In the end they spent half a million dollars on court cases. Read more about their struggles.

(You know what businesses weren’t impacted and didn’t have to basically ask their friends and community for help to stay open or spend a decade in the courts to defend their right to run their businesses? The powerful companies making porn by and for straight men.)

The book goes into a large number of analogous situations. Time and time again, anti-pornography laws intended to protect women are disproportionately used against women themselves, against LGBTQ+ people, and against basically any marginalised or minority group, rather than against the mainstream male-oriented porn that would seem to be its primary target.

Here’s the key point: Strossen is a legal scholar who’s looked at a lot of attempts at censorship, and you know what she found happened every time? When you try to censor pornography, even in the interests of protecting vulnerable people, that censorship will be applied first, and hardest, against the people who are most vulnerable. They won’t come for actual abusers, they’ll come for the abused, and prevent them from accessing resources, education, talking to each other, creating art to express themselves, or organising against those who are actually causing harm.

Read the book. The stories it tells are from the early 90s but they perfectly mirror what happened a decade ago with Strikethrough and what’s happening now with all this Tumblr discourse.

(Which is one reason for the pornographic playing cards etc, because the 19th century was almost as big on mail-order goods as the 21st, because getting to shops in person was hard for a huge subsection of Americans.)

Comstock built a non-profit with the support of the YMCA and oh shoot, some millionaire whose brand is still going strong, to enforce this law because the postal system didn’t have the personnel. They were granted the right to do so.

He and his posse of honorary mail inspectors with police powers (I kid you not) spent years engaging in endless skullduggery to prosecute people for selling contraceptives by mail. Which was how everyone got them in the 19th century, you couldn’t walk into a shop for a pack of condoms but mail-order packages were nicely anonymous. They dragged Margaret Sanger into court repeatedly. There was a huge cottage industry of contraceptives in NYC at the time, most of the manufacturers being female, Jewish, immigrants, or some combination of the above.

There was one woman whose name escapes me they kept trying to prosecute for selling contraceptive devices and the juries kept nullifying it because the average New Yorker in the 1890s were like ‘yeah no condoms are not a crime,’ but not everybody had her stage presence and resources.

You know who they never even tried to touch? The big rubber companies were were getting into mass production of condoms. Their big funder owned the company that produced Vaseline, and was claiming in ads at the time that it worked as a spermicide.

Every where you looked, authors where posting warnings about how x stories were getting deleted. All of the warnings feeling rushing, panicked, most of them including notes about how they didn’t know how long they had before their warnings were taken down or they were deleted. It felt a bit like all the stars going out, everything just dying around you. Like a stampede of people had fled from some oncoming unnamed horror leaving silence in their wake. Finding AO3 later on was like finding a safe haven in a world gone mad.

Also FanFiction doesn’t really encourage socialisation aside from authors notes to readers on their chapters or homepage. Meanwhile all the warnings of the crackdown were really rushed and vague. So, as a not very sociable reader, I really didn’t have a clue what was going on at the time of the crack down and the confusion and uncertainty was almost the scariest part of the whole thing. (Not knowing if the authors should come back and if fanfics were gone for good was scarier.) It’s only years later, reading fanfic history posts that I’ve started to piece together what happened.

If you haven’t spent your time wondering if the thing that will get your content deleted is the dark stuff or the nipples, you really don’t get it, imo.

Don’t like it? Don’t go there. Don’t go to Speaker’s Corner. Build your own Archive, following your own rules. If those rules are appealing, people will join you. 

You don’t have the right to silence anybody. You know what you do have the right to to? Refuse to listen. Or argue against them. You know what gives you that right? The principle of free speech. But I guess bullying people into silence is easier than coming up with convincing arguments to refute them. 

The two most common complaints I’ve seen from people about teenage sex is that 1) It’s ‘pedophilia’ (which it isn’t, because a teenager is not a pre-pubescent child) or B)  If you’re writing about teenagers having sex then you must  be a dirty old person who is fantasizing about having sex with teenagers and you are gross. I tend to chalk this one up to projection, since no one espousing that particular line of reasoning seems to have taken into account that older people were themselves teenagers once and while they may not want to have sex with teenagers anymore they DO remember what being one was like and are in all likelihood simply writing from past experience and it’s pretty fucking stupid to tell someone they can’t write about their past and who they were and what they felt because they’re older now.

“I can think of a reason,” Pearl said flatly, hand on her own sword. She’d taken a defensive stance that put her shoulder to shoulder with Abolish, Drift placed neatly behind them. Abolish appreciated the assistance.

“Truly, we were just passing by,” Scott grinned. “Why don’t you put that sword away, Abolish?”

“Okay.”

What?

His sword was back in its sheath. He… hadn’t meant to do that. He went to draw it again, but his hand wouldn’t move. There was an odd taste in the back of his throat. Metallic, like blood.

Like the blood he had been fed, small drops on the back of his tongue that made his reactions faster and his senses sharper.

From a long deceased Elder, so they had said.

His eyes met Scott’s.