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idk why but this shirt is giving me major euphoria rn

sometimes I think crazy shit like "oh, everyone knows assembler" and then I realize how out of touch I am when it comes to programming.

talked to someone about os development and punk music today. kinda surprising mix, but very fun. also terrified a bicycle repair guy, so I would say my day went pretty well.

ugh chronic pain + eating way too little fucking me up rn. I have to be at an even in like less than an hour tho... probably gonna be late cuz public transport is having a fit tho so maybe when I get there Im gonna be a bit better.

when I told a friend I was probably trans, they just looked at me and were like yeah no fucking shit

had the coolest bus driver ever yesterday. she greeted everyone (which is not a thing where I live), drove really well, and at one point she slowed down to take some food someone handed to her (obviously full stop of the bus first), and once again to wave back to someone waving to her. this did not make anyone late, since we arrived ahead of schedule I generally have mostly cool bus drivers, but I think she deserves special acknowledgement.

my DM is terrified of giving me a stick for some reason (like one you would find on the side of the road)

today my mom apologized to me for I think the first time ever. it did feel kinda like she thought she shouldnt have to apologize since she says she wouldnt do it again, but she did. I pretty much never got an apology from either of my parents, ever, except for that time one of them threw something in my general direction so this does mean a lot to me. obviously not everything is magically fine now, but it is a huge step I think.

a guy I was in a psychiatric clinic with once saw me pull out a hair (cuz thats something I do when Im emotional, good or bad) and when I showed it to him after he asked what I was doing he thought the curls were very interesting and looked at it for like 20 minutes. then he looked at me and asked if he could keep it cuz it made him calm somehow. to be clear, he was at no point creepy about it and I had known him for a few weeks at that point. he was also scared of people, but since hes trans and my roommate at the clinic was also trans and we hung out a lot (I wasnt out yet) I guess he felt a little more comfortable around me. great guy, honestly, hope hes doing well, made me feel a lot better about my hair (I used to hate having curly hair)