The God of Israel literally just said he wants to make out with me
@u-eat-people-ur-a-people-eater
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“Anyone who has read the Bible” includes everyone from Eastern Orthodox Christians to secular anti-theists. Try that one again. Please go tell Catherine of Siena, Angela of Foligno, Lutgardis of Aywieres, and Gertrude of Helfta that they were not worshipping God correctly. I didn’t even claim to experience half of what they have.
On the note of worshipping God: I agree, I’m not worshipping God correctly. I attend and evangelical church against my will rather than the True Church of Eastern Orthodoxy. And until I renew my marriage vows with God and am baptized/chrismated into that church I unfortunately will not be able to properly worship God as we both desire I would. Until then, I do what it is within my power to: I love my neighbor and pray for the empowerment to love them more. For I know what my God has required of me: that I do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly in their sight.
I haven’t made anything up: the God of Israel does want to make out with me. He literally kissed me on the cheek Saturday and I fell asleep while he was holding me twice that night: once in his arms and then again in his lap. You don’t believe that? Skill issue. That’s not my problem. But to accuse me of making that up is honestly just laughable because you weren’t there. I KNOW that’s what I experienced. A hotel in Tennessee has security footage evidence of me reading a book and having a conversation with, from their vantage point, the air. You don’t have to believe that ANY of that like objectively happened, but to accuse me of not believing it happened is honestly ridiculous. I do believe it happened. Because, phenomenologically that’s what I experienced.
The relationship between mysticism and psychosis is like the relationship between martyrdom and suicide: there are quite a many differences, important differences, but the biggest one is definitely press coverage. Religious experiences triggering psychotic episodes has been pretty well documented. Just last night I was reading about William Cowper and Christopher Smart who fall into exactly this category. I also just don’t agree that. I have quite a bit of thoughts about the relationship between mental stability and experience of God, thoughts I have not shared because I have yet to run them by someone who has experiential knowledge of these matters. What I will say unabashedly is this: in Orthodoxy we judge every experience by its fruits: if it bears the fruit of love and holiness and humility and repentance, it is at the very least edifying, whether it is from God or your own mind. Even demonic powers are, according to the church fathers, the left hand of God used to bring humanity to repentance. The most important question to me is not “Is this ‘literally true’ or not?” I have no love of literalism in biblical exegesis and I have no love of literalism elsewhere. In theology there’s a concept called the soteriological motive: that all in the scriptures (and, indeed, in the cosmos) exists for your salvation, exists for union with God. So then the question is “did this experience cause scrupulosity, apathy, hatred, and conceit? or did it help you to grow in faithfulness, hope, and charity, in justice, mercy, and humility?” All other issues are secondary to that.
Yeah, you're not any of those people though. You're a man on Tumblr who thinks he is a woman. You are attempting to convince people in public that what you're experiencing is ecstatic and divine despite it flying in the face of what the Bible/Tanakh actually say. I don't know enough about the other religions to say whether they do or don't but I highly doubt it's in the Quran or anything buddha said either. You're claiming to be a Christian though, right?
There is almost nothing worse when one is psychotic then having someone near to you convince you that you are actually not unwell at all, but are in fact speaking to God, or that God is speaking through you, or that what you're experiencing is something good and revelatory and not a sign of a profoundly ill soul/brain. It's extremely dangerous to spread the kind of logic you're spreading, but only for actually schizophrenic/psychotic people.
You know what's a simple test? When you suspect that something you hear/see/feel/sense (that other people don't hear/see/feel/sense) might be from a religion's god, go to the holy book and see if it aligns with their character. In the case of Christianity and Judaism, no, being a "woman trapped in a male body" does not accord with what the book says and no, being insane is not a good or holy thing.
Additionally, if you are claiming to be a Christian, why are you speaking on medical issues you have no medical training in as if it doesn't matter whether you spread misinformation or not? Why doesn't anyone on the right or the left of "online Judeo-Christianity" seem to care about actually studying anything anymore? Do you think your identity claim means you don't have to study like everyone else does? Do you think every single thought you have is special and revelatory?
He doesn't claim to be a transwoman, but to be non-binary, and I'm not sure why you're confused about this.
He isn't a sola scriptura Protestant, so "just read the Bible" doesn't hold here. He cited a bunch of historic mystics (medieval Catholic mysticism is a rabbit hole of crazy) and in the past has cited the African-American Christian ecstatic tradition.
As his friend, let me tell, you he does study things, mostly theology and English literature. The comments about whether it's good or not are based on the Orthodox mystical tradition, not psychiatry.























