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should I keep the horny thoughts going and share another depraved hollanov exhibitionism idea....

shane and ilya fucking/getting each other off in the same room as some of the centaurs....and everyone Knows it's happening but no one bats an eye bc that's just hollander and rozanov, they're nuts. and tbh......the guys find it pretty hot. they'll all just be chilling at one of bood's bbqs, everyone various degrees of tipsy having a little fire pit convo, and everyone is fully aware of ilya's hand slowly moving up and down under the little blanket both he and shane have draped over their laps. they hear the breathlessness in shane's voice as he continues with the group conversation as if nothing's happening. they like when he cuts himself off and comes into ilya's fist beneath the blanket, and they all try to sneak a peek at ilya's sticky hand as he gets up to wash it in the kitchen sink.

they’re all sitting around one night and shane has his head in ilya’s lap and ilya casually grabs a fistful of shane’s hair and presses his cheek into ilya’s crotch and everyone pretends not to notice he’s hard but shane gets all droopy-eyed and starts breathing heavier and rubbing his face against it…..finally ilya drags him to the bathroom and makes shane come back out with his lips all swollen and his voice wrecked. they’re like fuck roz is he always that eager and shane hides his face in ilya’s neck and ilya is like usually he is much worse :)

Being a calm, gentle, non-reactive person is really hard work, which is probably why many people are none of these things. Personally I think it’s worth it but sometimes one does want to just roll around on the floor wailing at the top of one’s lungs

People in my notes who think I’m repressed or dissociating: you will feel better when you learn emotions are not a binary of Not Feeling It vs Being Overwhelmed By It

Ok but How Do I Do That

Thank you, but do you have any advice for teens?

i just remembered alexei rubbing his nose the same way ilya does oh god oh my god. and this happened on my laptop screen.

one day ilya walks into the livingroom with a collar and a leash and both anya and shane gets up from the couch

Vampire!Shane hiding the fact that he’s a vampire from Ilya. Vampires are known and able to live openly, but there’s still a lot of prejudice surrounding them. Shane is in love with Ilya and hides out of fear that Ilya will leave him. Shane is old enough that he can go out into the sun for long periods of time without issue. He tells Ilya he’s on an insanely strict diet to explain why he doesn’t really eat. Shane forces himself to breathe when he’s around Ilya. He goes to his witch friend, Rose, and she puts a spell on Shane to make it seem like he has a pulse and is warm to the touch. He covers all his bases and things are going great. One night they’re having sex. Ilya is fucking him so good that his concentration slips and his fangs drop. As his orgasm hits, he sinks his fangs into Ilya’s shoulder. Ilya’s blood hits his tongue and Shane’s moans at how deliciously perfect it is. He hears Ilya moan in his ear and that brings Shane back. He pulls back from Ilya’s shoulder and looks up at him. He stumbles over his words, trying to explain, but Ilya just grabs Shane’s chin and holds it to keep Shane’s mouth open. Ilya leans down to let his tongue lick across Shane’s fangs, “I fucking knew it.”

COMPUTA show me hollanova mutual masturbation

Ok but pls actually do this people. There is no such thing as a good person. Stop trying to be one and starting trying to do good instead

Sometimes you hear a song and a fic pops into your head full formed. This is a trap. The fic may be fully formed in your brain, but you still Have to write it down. This is an important step that most people forget about.