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I'm intrigued by what you wrote about Wille and his gender. You talked about scenes in canon that wouldn't change much if Wille had a different gender or was questioning his gender in context, what scene were you thinking about and why ? 😊

Hey Cami! Thank you so much for coming back with this question after I rambled a bit about Wille and gender yesterday here 💜💜💜

Disclaimer for people who didn't read the first ask, this is just me headcanoning/thinking about the possibility of a canon retelling that has Wille confront some feelings around gender, nothing more, nothing less. 🎀

I think I was mostly thinking about s1 when I was throwing this idea around in my head, or at least some of the elements of s1 lend themselves really well to an arch about discoveries around gender imo.

I think Wille's entire little "gay panic" sequence offers a lot of moments that could appear similarly in a story that wasn't (only) about queerness, but also about transness. Which like, makes sense. It's all about identity after all. This scene especially just makes my brain go brrrr when I try to rewrite it into a trans!Wille story, like.... We know the idea is that Wille is seeing something that he'd maybe like to have, that maybe he doesn't feel he can have, that he'd never thought about wanting before, etc, etc, but like. What if in addition to the whole kissing a boy thing there's just... the tiniest tinge of "while being a girl" with it....... what if this isn't just longing to be able to kiss Simon like that, but what if...... what if there's more to it..............

In the same vein: like aaaall the mirror shots. again, the theme is identity, so it makes sense, but like. oof. imagine. the giving yourself a once-over like that in the mirror? a lot? this but in the context of gender dysphoria is just. oof.

(it's okay, it's okay my love, you'll figure it out some day, it's going to get better <3)

2. another scene that I like to imagine with a trans!Wille subtext is actually the first kiss scene! I think in a universe where Wille is trans a lot of the sexuality and gender questions would be a big old tangled-up mess that takes quite a while to sort through, but. okay picture this. Wille knows there's something going on with them... something that's... something that doesn't feel like being a boy is all there is or is the right thing at all........ now if that version of Wille ended up crushing on Simon, but then Simon actually ends up liking them back!! ends up KISSING THEM!! well, all Wille knows is they look like a boy and that Simon is kissing them and that that must mean that Simon likes boys (or maybe they already know before) and that would make for a very, very record scratch type of moment of. NO WAIT. No, wait, you got this all wrong, I'm not who you think I am. This is where the following moment comes in:

because... yeah. fuck. what do you do when this boy who seems to like boys seems to want to kiss you. without knowing that maybe you're not the boy you seem like from the outside? s would hit Wille in an already very confusing place, then add onto it even MORE confusion, because, yes, they want to kiss Simon, desperately, but what if Simon wouldn't want to kiss them if they were less (or... not at all) the boy they seem to be? How would Wille even begin to explain something like that to Simon if they haven't figured it out themselves?

aaand I'm just going to do a third little scene that I think would go well in a story like that

3. the nail varnish scene!!! it's all kind of in the same vein as what I talked about in the other ask, but the idea of Wille being able to try out things that didn't really seem like a possibility before, that maybe seem a little out there. testing the waters of something new... very slowly, carefully, not daring to do too, too much at once (the glitter is maybe a little much for now). There's this tiny moment here, first Wille is smiling, thinking, but then you see his face fall before he says purple is fine and i just. Imagine. Imagine if this is Wille's first try at something like makeup... the excitement mixed with the fear and apprehension.... ooOOOOF.

and then this next one especially I could scream about for hours. gOD. getting a taste of what it could be like, trying something new, something else, but then life catches up with you and you're faced with the reality of it all: there's a deep, deep, deep discomfort and vulnerability in diverging from the way you've always lived your life. And sometimes it feels saver and more comfortable to take a step back into the boy that was created for you.