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because nate is SO REPRESSED that for the entire first season his entire background is Dead Son, Bitter Alcoholic, and Worked At IYS. you dont even find out about his wife until the season finale. this man is not giving ANYTHING away. you learn more about *elliot goddamn spencer* than nate in season 1, and elliot is a fucking government black ops spook

but then in the first episode hes like "we need a new face, we need somebody the mark doesnt know... omg lets go get sophie <3 shes so wonderful and amazing shes the best criminal youve ever seen" just bragging about his Not-Wife to anybody who will listen

and sophies like No No I'm Honest Now

and nate says I'm Not

and sophie has this little headtilt of like. holy shit he wants to break the law i HAVE to fuck him now. and the conversation goes on and nate asks if shes in and sophies head fucking VIBRATES from how hard shes nodding her agreement

LIKE sorry the Elder-novice monk dynamic is inherently one much closer to the Christian Fuedalist idea of a Lord-serf dynamic-- that is that the Elder/Lord has an obligation to their monks/serfs to set a moral example and in turn the monks/serfs have a duty to completely obey their authority, as that authority is closer to god, and live in rejection of their individuality rather the model their Lord sets for them.

Which like, please tell me the parallel with Smerdyakov. Like he was a literal serf to his father. its such a crazy contrast to me idk, especially in the way Smerdyakov (rightfully) rejects Fyodor as a father figure while Alyosha embraces Zossima and tries to live in his example.

And ultimely, their biggest mistakes end up being paralell to their father figures, in that Alyosha is complicit in Smerdyakov's abuse and doesn't treat him humanely, in a similar though much less direct manner to how the Elder abused his servant.