it all goes back and back

I don't have an answer for you because I didn't like the finale either 💔 I spoiled myself as much as I could as soon as it was possible and even with the extra ~month to digest everything that happened I still get annoyed or physically angry thinking about anything that isn't the Jax mindscape stuff

The thing is, like... I really don't think it's unreasonable or unrealistic that the rest of the cast (besides Kinger, I guess) feel some relief now that Jax has abstracted. He was horrible to all of them and now he is in a state where he can't be horrible to them anymore and that's got to make living a little bit easier, even if they're sorry that this is what it had to take for him to stop

Pomni, though? You're really telling me that Pomni, who's "too stubborn to give up" on Jax, who risked permanently disfiguring or maybe even abstracting herself just to hug him one last time (because remember, none of them had any idea Caine would come back, and if he hadn't Pomni would likely have just been fucked up forever) is totally chill IMMEDIATELY after being pulled out of Jax's mindscape? Right after she's just seen some of the deepest, most vulnerable parts of Jax, the parts that no one else has ever been truly privy to, and he cried in her arms and told her he doesn't want to go?

I don't believe it for a second, and that's what makes the montage of everybody having a blast doing whatever they want feel so shitty to watch (plus the fact that Caine comes back to essentially fill the void Jax left and everybody warms up to him again after approximately two minutes of wariness, even though I would think it would be much, much harder to ever trust someone who was able to dig around in your brain and pull out what triggers you the most so he could deliberately use it to torture you, but what do I know)

All this to say: I'm in the same boat as you, I have plans to create something more in line with what I'd have liked to have seen instead

she's desperate to stay in this world that she sees as false, where she's a funny cartoon character and she can still brush off the pain she causes as silly cartoon antics

the despair it leaves us with, the satisfaction it denies us, leaves us to yearn for things to have turned out differently. it leaves us thinking about what could have been done, what decisions could have been made, what different circumstances could have prevented the tragedy? dissatisfaction drives us to act

HALF-LIGHT [SUCCESS]: Fear.