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after some time apart, ive reconnected with a good friend of mine. they're a disabled trans person now living alone after their girlfriend attacked them physically last night. they relied on her income as they work very little due to their disability and otherwise only have limited income from their disability benefits.

they have been struggling for a while with all of this and has endured a lot of abuse. picking up their life is hard enough, but the stress of financial strain makes that really difficult, especially when it comes to separating from their abuser.

can we start by getting them $500 to make up for this month's lost income, and make sure they don't fall behind on their bills?

you can donate to them via paypal here!

if you don't have paypal, you can send it to me via venmo or cashapp (both deepseametro), and i can pass it along to them.

Very much did in the sense that I literally do not know where my job is at the moment. But, for the time being I haven't been let go because nobody else including the store owner knows where it is either.

So, I don't wanna risk doxxing myself by posting pictures but goddamn am I tempted because this is not a believable event. This is a cartoon problem. For looneytoons.

But yeah, so, I work(ed?) at a kiosk selling boba tea, right? Freestanding kiosk in the mall with full water and electrical hookups and multiple fridges and sinks and a mini kitchen and the works. Fully functional tea shop. Very important to note that it was there last night, The work chat was discussing another issue last night at closing time. I'll get back to this.

It's been showing signs of being on the way out with how business is being handled lately and I've been considering other options, which is probably why I'm not as torn up about this as I should be, but maybe it just hasn't set in yet, but that's not the point. The point is there's been a lot of shit breaking and not being replaced and nobody mentioning anything about it until I walk into work in the morning and have to figure out why shit like the fucking cash register isn't there today. So I'm kinda used to having to ask questions about big things that nobody bothered to update me on. I was out for two weeks recovering from a surgery, so I came to work this morning assuming there'd be some kind of bullshit, yeah?

So, the question I had to ask the chat this morning was:

Not a text I ever thought I'd have to send in sincerity, but there it is. Because what I found instead was a fenced off patch of discolored tiles and a few holes in the floor where my entire place of employment used to be.

And the answer? Nobody knows! It was there last night when the mall closed, and every single trace of the structure and all its contents including drink making supplies and our safe and cashbox was gone when it opened again. And when I say nobody knows, I mean everyone from last night's closers to the actual (former?) owner of the store jad no fucking clue about this until getting that text from me this morning. For once I am actually the first to know. 🎉.

So. I guess I didn't so much lose my job as had it stolen. Not by AI, but good old fashioned hands-on human beings picking it up and carrying it away somehow. All mall security would tell me was that they were instructed not to tell me anything and have us contact our management. Who also don't know anything. And later on I came across some construction workers around the gravesite of the kiosk discussing filling in the holes, asked them about it, and was told that they "weren't at liberty to say".

So, not only is my job gone in the most literal physical sense of the word, but it was taken in some kind of super secret kiosk extraction in the dead of night without any warning or witnesses and nobody is allowed to speak of it. The store owner said she was gonna figure it out 10 hours ago and still no word back.

My mother in law thinks the FBI took it.

Not any of the other stores around the state. Just the one little kiosk.

Why? Because she loves a conspiracy and is just a little bit extra.

Also because she was around for the massive crackdown on Yakuza-owned businesses in Waikiki (in her homestate) that did actually involve the FBI seizing stores (no confirmation of making kiosks cleanly disappear in the middle of the night though).

Still no word from my job on what's actually going on, but the most likely theory so far is that maybe the kiosk was on lease and got repossessed? The mystery continues

According to the owner, based on what she's been able to find out, the kiosk was not removed legally and they're starting a potentially long process of legal action. I hope she gets to sue the shit out of whoever did it but for now at least I know for sure I'm unemployed.

Really hoping for more details in terms of who/why/how, so I'll keep updating if I learn anything.

For now the summary is: An unnamed entity that is most likely mall management (on account of mall security cooperating with them) stole an entire kiosk and all the contents including money and machinery with barely a trace in the middle of the night grinch-style, with zero warning or explanation, and ensured the silence of both security and the construction crew, in an action that was definitely preplanned and illegal, and as far as I know nobody knows its whereabouts.

Enjoy the unintentionally funniest text I've ever sent in my life

Aaand a close-up:

HEY HI HELLO THIS ONE'S MY FAVORITE

Still haven't heard back from the unemployment office, but a few days ago I ended up telling this to the SNAP caseworker, who absolutely lost her shit and then put everything on hold to go investigate this herself out of a sense of justice and Needing To Know More. World's most nosy angel who helped me out a lot in general (in case she ends up seeing this: I appreciate her so much).

While she didn't find a facebook listing for a used kiosk (yes, that post is just a coincidence, I'm sorry), what she did find was the actual kiosk for sale. By the owner. On a reputable website.

Now, there are a lot of funny conclusions to be drawn from this, but I'm afraid it's not quite that wild. I asked a friend in management about it and turns out the listing is from months before the disappearance, it wasn't kept a secret, it just wasn't relevant. She had been trying to sell it for a while without much luck, wasn't selling the entire business, but just the kiosk with that branch included (the listing advertised that it would include the equipment and drink recipes and retain the current staff). It also said the lease with the mall was active until some time in 2027.

So, no, as funny as that would be, the owner did not heist her own kiosk. However, what this does tell us is:

She must have owned the kiosk outright, so the only way this could be a repossession is if she had a mortgage on it? I guess?

It definitely isn't about the lease being up. So any eviction would legally require like 30-days notice and, presumably, a valid reason like a violation of the terms. (this is how it works with renting homes in my country, and I've never rented a business location, so I can only guess that it's similar)

The store was not financially beneficial enough to keep. This could just mean that she was focusing on other ventures like she says in the listing, but it could really also mean that she was having money trouble and couldn't afford to keep the location.

SO. This leaves the most likely scenario being that the owner was behind on rent, and the mall manager (who has a history of being outta control and pulling shit like this, as well as harassing asian businesses and our shop specifically) decided to illegally remove the entire kiosk about it.

Still no confirmation at all about anything, but I remembered the listing today and realized it gave some additional clues.

if you’re struggling to understand how that can be, here are some easily digestible bullet points

- fully anonymous system of individual actors deciding who is and isn’t worthy of being the target of mass harassment

- ironically, no system in place to hold people accountable for making bad/false callouts

- you can say anything about anyone on the internet and it is intensely difficult to prove anything. it is extremely easy, however, to string out of context screenshots together and spin a narrative out of them. the burden of proof then shifts from the accuser to the accused, who must somehow prove 100% innocence which is…intensely difficult if not actually impossible

- there is no collective agreement on what constitutes “justice” in callout culture or the means to enforce that agreed upon end goal. some people are genuinely attempting to push people to suicide while others want the accused to be socially ostracized until the end of time. and again, no system of precious accountability in place for these people!

- this is essentially a system of anonymous vigilante justice and if you know anything about the history of those systems it should be immediately apparent that this is A Very Bad Thing and these kinds of groups are basically never formed to carry out any kind of good deed

- still faced with the most basic questions about these kinds of systems. who gave these people the right? what makes them worthy of carrying out “justice”? how can this be a fair system without checks, balances, and again, accountability? how can we believe anything we see about anyone online in an age of mass misinformation? why are these sources trusted? who is most often targeted by these callouts? what material good can ever really come of this?

Ice, I trust that you mean well. I'd appreciate it if you'd hear me out about this, as a trans girl who has been sexually assaulted by another trans girl.

To talk about any of this, you have to understand that our community is endlessly bombarded with harassment campaigns that have little or no basis. The instinct to immediately close ranks regardless of whether TMEs find it justified is a result of being endlessly policed. ISFF or any other trans girl refusing to engage with these harassment campaigns has more to do with that than anything else. Nine times out of ten, these things are bullshit.

And I don't know if this one is bullshit! It might not be! But what I do know is that there is no true justice, which is to say restorative justice, for people like us. We aren't the only ones that's true for, but it is true.

If I had made very public the SA I went through at the hands of a close friend, do you know what would've happened? She would've been socially murdered. She would have lost her job, even more of her friends than she already did, lost healthcare and food and water and shelter. And knowing her health, odds are good it would've killed her.

That's not justice to me. That's not right. People have to be allowed to come back from doing wrong things, or we will only ever have a society built on punishment and harm. People have to be allowed to forget.

Was it justice that all she got was blocked, either? No, not even a little, but again, there's no other option. I could either try to kill her or just let it go. And that's fucked up! We need better systems and we need better ways, but harassment campaigns under capitalism are not and will never be the solution.

And the fact of the matter is, transfems simply are not allowed to move on the same way some others are. Patriarchy wants us disposable and isolated and relegated to survival sex work. Doubly so for racialized transfems, especially Black and Indigenous transfems. And that's the end result of this shit.

There's nothing wrong with ISFF not reading the harasser's documents. I didn't either and don't plan to. That is, for better or for worse, an imperfect solidarity that helps members of our community survive.

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