#tw cotards

1; “ am i dead? ” , 2; “ i am dead ” , 3; “ i am not dead ”

4; “ are you real? ” , 5; “ you are real ” , 6; “ you are not real ”

thinking abt sydneys mental heath pre and post the s1 finale big reveal.

I think there's a lot of things that changed him both mentaly and physically after he died and some part of him knew that. he probaby heard about cotards before, told himself that's what it is. took some sort of comfort in beliving that its just a delusion while still fully beliving it. its easier to hide if you think theres a possibly of it not being real, after all its impossible right?

HIMIKO !! LANDMINE , DO NOT STEP !

mixed . jirai enby . adult

16y systeen . osdd1a subsys

YANDEREVESIL . taken forever ♡

fluff xenofluix , carnic gaybian

HOLOTHERE . fennec fox zombvamp

so so deadflux . doubles block

ai will eat ur heart

DISORDERED SYSTEM . AMNESIA AND TIME DISTORTION AND DELUSION . if ewe reality check mwe fuck ewe die

xoxo himiko loves everyone forever

but we arenr dead we are dying, slowly, and we wont know when our body gets too sick that it triggers a blood clot or heart attaci cause no docters ever did shit and nobodys there to fix our situation and fhe world is melting.

like we dont have the delusion rn we are *dead*, but we have the delusion in a few years *we will be*, qnd we can see it from here. but also that doesn't meag we're alive, rather it means we are actively dying however slowly so like we relate to all the cotards posts (besides the insects ones we dont have that prob cause were delusionally dying not dead and dying ppl dont have insects. well sgtually thats not true, we have unknown what look exacpy tlike bug bites but there is *no biting or bugs in our room or house*, so its likely a body condtion but then we relate to like the body insect posts where ppl are like if im not dead then why are we covered in bug bites and pins and needles and stuff.) but like the cold, stiff, stagnation, decay, rot, degeneration, bone wear, zombie, ghost, etc type things all we relate to but like as if we were a sick wounded soldier in a war seeing rhe ither wounded men arounf them coughing and dying and knowing theyre next as they feel tje symtopms of the same condition, but are treated by the medical aid like its a temporary cause its more important to keeo up the illusion of winning than to succumb to the horrid war. so they lie and say its fine meanwhile we rot before them, maybe theyve hidden the body away covered the rot and say to themselves its fine, like how our conditins are internal and not seem from outside so it goes ignored, we dont look like wete dying so we arent treated that way.