11/11/23
Made the mistake of weighing today.
As Hagrid says, shouldn'ta done that.
204 point something.
Surprised? After 4 meals out this week, not really.
BUT I am not working overtime and I have had great workouts, even if they have been mostly cardio.
I am also trying not to let myself fall into the Fall Pit of Despair that invariably lasts all winter.
I did a 5k on my lunch break (pictured) then added a cooldown (also pictured... not separate workouts).
I relieved myself of the responsibility of giving my friend a birthday gift and got him cash instead. He is broke again... our relationship is strained since I quit drinking and all he does is gamble and work. I also talked myself out of buying him a cake or vodka... because I thought he would much more appreciate the cash. If he is smart he will buy his own gift with it. But more than likely he gambled it last night.
I went to the thrift store before dinner to browse. Bought a hungry girl book and a verilux happylight. Which I was thrilled to find because I was just talking to my cousin about those. I almost bought a paid of size 14 Maurices jeans, but I didn't. Was thinking maybe I should wait to get jeans for a size I don't fit yet. To stop the never ending "must clean out my closet" brigade. Yet I want to go shopping. Dumb, I know... but good choice yesterday. I have to trust that I will be able to find clothes I like when i actually am that size.
I hit the gym for some tanning and stairs after the dinner.
Dinner: Realized that although there were years that I would have loved to go to that restaurant.... I do not like it anymore. Any future meals there will have to be a No from me. It just isn't worth it. I went too ham on the chips and salsa.... even though they weren't good. I was nervous and basically stuffing my face as an unhealthy coping mechanism. Ugg.
I didn't eat the wraps or sour cream. The meal was too much & not enough. I had some bites of rice and it sucked. It just sucked. 2nd sucky meal this week.
The workout was good tho. 8 min in the tanning bed feels like it might have been too much so I will only do 6 mins next time.
60 mins on the stair meal.
Wearing shorts! The nice shorts from Constantly Varied Gear. I am pushing myself to wear things out of the house that would normally scare me. π±
I wanted a protein bar all day. It is dumb. Do I really whimsically eat 200 calories of anything else? π€ Not really yo.
After the workout I took but CBD gummies and lathered myself in a CBD muscle rub. Had 4 no sugar suckers & those low sugarpeach candies.
I need to work on savoring those candies and spacing them out better.
This morning I slept in and missing my 10 am healthy cooking meeting, dammit. I have been slow rolling the morning.
Finished the Jeannette McCurdy book. It hit on so many tough and relatable points in my life.... I loved it.
I won't be happy when my mom dies... my dad was the issued parent for me. But I still have alot of stuff to deal with, at 43.
