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2nd batch of the OCD subtype/obsession/theme blinkies! you can find our other OCD blinkies we've made so far here and here (links). more will be posted soon, thanks for waiting ! 🐇
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Shout out to folks with Somatic Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder!
rediscovered that frequent short sessions of mild core exercise makes me feel amazing, but it’s also weird because like… now I feel intensely uncomfortable in my whole left side of my body, not because of any kind of “pain” but because it feels like there’s unexpressed energy buzzing in my muscles. It feels… uneven, like I didn’t work everything out of that side. im wondering if this could actually be some somatic OCD (I have ocd, I just never considered myself to have this theme). I know that things feeling “balanced” on both sides is a huge thing in ocd, and I’m now realizing that a LOT of my exercise aversion has to do with feeling like I’m doing it right… right, as in enough, then getting anxious about if I did too much or if I did enough or if I’ll ever be able to maintain it if I did do enough…. Yeah. Considering that avoidance of something can be ocd… 🫥
it’s also so much more complicated because of my fibromyalgia. Like sometimes exercise makes me feel so much better, and then other times the exact same thing might make me feel worse, and I just don’t always know… and then I feel guilty when I’m resting because the pain will be better if I do my PT, but I know that I do need to rest to feel better, but how much? Who knows!!!! Scary stuff.
Having anxiety and phobias but also having the risk-taking symptoms of ADHD is so insane because I'm like oh I can't lightly touch that rusty metal with the tip of my finger because what if I get tetanus and suffocate but I will climb up that slippery crumbling cliff which overhangs a raging river. Climbing with ropes is scarier than climbing without ropes because what if the rope gets wrapped around my neck somehow (and I suffocate). On a plane imagining it's about to crash to create a thrill fun enough to distract myself from the fact that oh no oh no the air is too dry (what if I suffocate). Wearing dress uniform takes more courage than the Confidence Course that's supposed to help you face your fears, because the tie tab is choking me and I'm gonna suffocate (the Confidence Course is whatever, you might fall and break a limb but that's not scary, wdym?) Like inside you are two wolves but they actually agree with each other, because it's not about actual safety or fear of death it's about fear of this one Thing, specifically.
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Somatic OCD: a subtype of OCD where obsessions center on bodily sensations. People with S-OCD* are hypervigilant of their automatic bodily sensations such as breathing, blinking, and heartbeat. Many will assign overwhelmingly excessive significance to any percieved “abnormalities” and fear that they are far more concerning than they would be for anyone else. Another aspect involves being so hyper-aware of one’s bodily sensations that they overwhelm the thoughts of the individual with S-OCD; they are unable to think about anything but these sensations. Compulsions may include counting breaths/blinks/heartbeats, attempting to control these automatic sensations, and frequently checking pulse. Like all types of OCD it manifests in many different ways unique to the individual experiencing it; these are just common examples.
Colors represent breath and pulse.
Learn more about Somatic OCD.
*S-OCD is a shorthand to go along with other subtypes that have them.
Compulsory Checking - Being Diagnosed with OCD at 18
So this is probably gonna piss everyone off by me asking because I know people have a tendency to self diagnose, but I just wanted some opinions from people before I decide to get a proper opinion from a doctor as to if it may be what I think it is.
Basically, some time during school (I don’t even remember when, I just know it was sometime early last year, btw I’m currently 18) I started to become hyper aware of my breathing. Like, so badly that I couldn’t concentrate in class. It was mostly that I felt I was breathing too heavily and loudly, or that it sounded shakey or something to the people around me. It has kind of gotten worse, so bad that sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe. In order to avoid deep breaths I’m constantly trying to yawn and shit to try and cover it up, but that just makes it obvious.
I took to searching up on the internet asking why I’m self conscious of my breathing (thinking maybe it was anxiety, which I was diagnosed with about 6 years ago) and I read something about somatic OCD. I then did some extra research, and I actually tick a lot of the boxes for the symptoms, but I just wanted to make sure that this hyperawareness of my breathing was actually a symptom of it before I go to a doctor for a proper opinion.
Thanks guys xx
