#recalibrate

Healing isn’t just about repair—it’s about rediscovering the strength and wisdom already within you.💫

Healing is not just about removing pain—it’s about reconnecting with your essence and stepping into your true power.💫💫

True healing is not just recovery—it’s an awakening to your highest potentiaL. 💫💫💫

Also, I dunno if I ever posted this on tumblr, but I updated the recalibrate cover a year or two ago! So here’s the new version! Ao3 didn’t let me update the cover on the site, so it’ll only live on here and Insta unfortunately 😞 The old one is beneath the cut ☺️

I made it home. I had an extra meal when I got home and some extra snacks. Probably comfort eating because I had a rough pain day.

However, i think my little getaway was good.

I do need to be more mindful of how much I am eating tho, and probably re-calibrate that a little. In a smaller body now, I don't have the metabolism to support a large intake. Which is obviously why I have been gaining weight, i am no longer in a deficit.

But like I keep telling myself, you only lose if you give up. If you just continually work on tweaking things to maintain your lifestyle, eventually things will line up, even if it takes awhile.

I know that we are sold a line of BS on weight loss being fast. But the primary reason I have achieved some success is because I decided that this time, when I screwed up I was going to gather myself and get back after it.

So here I am, giving myself unlimited compassion and grace for this process. Brick by brick my friends, brick by brick.

Some wins! 2 meals at an amazing healthy restaurant called Crisp and Green. Did double protein both times, they do amazing bowls and feature alot of nice veggies.

2 meals at favorite restaurants where I left food on my plate. This never would have happened at my starting weight.

I didn't need all the snacks I brought. But there was a kitchen so I could have whipped myself something up if needed. I did eat a nice bowl of salad as a snack. A bag of carrots chips. There were other sweets treats of course, but I avoided the concessions and avoided spending extra money.

I had tea! It was lovely. Treated to focus on water when I had a bathroom available.

One thing I also need to be more mindful of is community support. As a 300 pounder, my community is larger. Which means extra meals, snacks, drinks are normalized at the same time that less activity is normalized. The person I was traveling with is over 300, so basically my going to the gym, taking the stairs, and looking for more activity would be odd to them, but I also need those things to maintain because I burn less calories. I naturally need about 1500 calories less to maintain my current weight.

So... yes. I am going to focus on being strong enough to be odd.

Odd is: I am going to continue focusing on saying No when I am not hungry, making choices that align with my goals at restaurants, & making mostly home cooked meals. I am going to find people that support a different level of activity. I need running friends, biking friends, and Jiu jitsu friends. I am going to be eating within MY levels, not someone else's.

But the soul hums

Recalibrating

Cosmic

Cassandra can't help but protect people, but her patented protective arm technique needs re-calibrating to Elsa's frame...

Four recalibrating and laying on a flat surface after arguing with Wild, Legend and Wind.

Inspired by

Recalibrate by meetmeatthecoda Fandoms: The Blacklist (US TV)   Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Chapters: 1/1 (complete) Words: 3,902 Tags: No Archive Warnings Apply, Elizabeth Keen/Raymond Reddington, Elizabeth Keen, Raymond Reddington, Agnes Keen, Dembe Zuma, Mrs. French, 8.22, AU, One-Shot, Lizzington - Freeform, Agnesgate, strong t rating, Brief Sexual Content, Hurt/Comfort, Romance

Summary:

“You spoil her,” Liz mutters to Red, but with no real reprimand in her voice, glancing sideways at him as they continue to walk closer to the water, the dappled sunlight filtering through the tree leaves above them and creating beautiful patterns on his tan skin.

He looks playfully affronted at her statement, turning to meet her eyes with a gentle frown on his face. “Of course,” he says, as though it’s obvious and expected.

A rewrite of the park scene in 8.22. AU. One-shot. Lizzington. Agnesgate. Strong T rating for brief sexual content. Part 3 of Rebirth.