#ramcoa programming

We have programmed Warrior Cats. I like to make that clear every once in a while. We have colony cats who were raised for woodland living, who prefer the cult and are most comfortable with that danger than domestic safety. They probably weren’t intended to be Warrior Cats, more loosely based on the feral colony in the area. Our mother was a literacy teacher, and reading was our best coping mechanism second to outright dissociation (fancy dissociation, guided style). She didn’t see the harm in letting us read the series, so we internalized some of the details. Those are Warrior Cats now, and have been for longer than not.

Three Subsystems

Three main fronters in each group

Our hallucinations fall pretty squarely into trauma-related, but I don’t understand how some of them work. We get visual overlay of systemmates, but only the terrifying ones and only as punishing programs.

The Grims are a prime example, usually having to do with going somewhere or seeing something we shouldn’t have.

The things we’ve been seeing now are not Grims. These are near-blank humanoids with one primary feature centering their rule. They’re pale the way that cave creatures are pale, which makes them extra noticeable out of the corner of the eye. I see them turning corners or ducking under tables, staying visible just long enough to make sense of.

Demons and angels are assigned almost one-to-one for younger insiders who knew too much, usually manifesting as watching eyes. Those, we have some idea of how trickery (lighting) was employed to get the effect. Because it was different for everyone, comparing experiences took away the glamour.

I know the people who have specific Grims were trained in wooded areas, but I don’t know if they physically saw those figures or if they were maybe told about them and then terrorized. I have no clue how the cavefolk came to be. It makes me insecure, like this is the symptom that crosses the line and makes us too weird.

Organic alter: well, I have a stabbing pain in my abdomen, I’ve been sleeping all day until this specific time, and it’s a holiday. It must be programming. (Actually a coincidence.)

Programmed alter: well, I have a stabbing pain in my abdomen, eating makes my organs revolt, I’ve hard reset back to noctural, there’s either a demon in the room or I’m hallucinating again, the flashbacks have been awful lately, I haven’t been front since we left, and I’m overcome with bloodlust. It must be a coincidence. (Actually programming.)

Programmed alter is bad at masking -> program alter to be better at masking -> programmed alter still bad at masking

This is a rambling textpost about integrating front without lessening internal memory barriers.

🗝️🏷️ System functions, mentions of RAMCOA in last paragraph