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ใใREMNANTSย ?!ย ย ย ๏ฝฃ
โ @ a term for an alter who isnโt the core/original, but rather the remains/remnants of โwho it wasโ (aka, who was told they are by abvsers) or whatever was left of the core who intergrated with fragments.
(mainly for RAMCOA/TBMC survivors)
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Trigger warning : RAMCOA programming
This post is a coining of a kind of ramcoa programming. Free to use. Creds appreciated
I hate how people portray cult trauma and OEA/RAMCOA in general because a lot of the time it's not as exciting as you'd think. it's not always gore and blood and death. i will not give examples as to what i mean for safety reasons, but just know this: if cults and OEA/RAMCOA were exciting and big and dramatic all the time, then the acts done would be too visible to get away with.
๐๏ธ๐ท๏ธ RAMCOA programming, some details of scripts/introjects but none of TBMC
We have programmed Warrior Cats. I like to make that clear every once in a while. We have colony cats who were raised for woodland living, who prefer the cult and are most comfortable with that danger than domestic safety. They probably werenโt intended to be Warrior Cats, more loosely based on the feral colony in the area. Our mother was a literacy teacher, and reading was our best coping mechanism second to outright dissociation (fancy dissociation, guided style). She didnโt see the harm in letting us read the series, so we internalized some of the details. Those are Warrior Cats now, and have been for longer than not.
The reason I point this out is because I see a lot of talk about new media as rare or impossible to program with. This was fairly accidental as far as I know, a chance to elaborate that wasnโt specifically disallowed, but we also have a fair amount of recent media tied to our programming (especially on the modern side of the system). The more exposed we were to external narratives, the more our trainers twisted them to put them to use. Scripts and media introjects donโt have to be used at all in programming, but there is no one rule book outlining which are allowed. Different trainers and different groups will have their own methods. There is no wrong way to have been hurt.
Hey, odd question but does anybody have any research sources on programming/types of programs for RAMCOA? I'm/we're not questioning being a programmed system, I'm just kind of going down a weird research rabbit hole that you'd EXPECT to see in Aspen but lo and behold here I am...
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CW for RAMCOA, hallucinations, flashbacks
I get auditory hallucinations. I canโt hear. People cofronting with me can make the connection to our residual hearing better than I can, but thatโs not what it is. It sounds like itโs coming from outside. People yelling, screaming, calling our names. Sometimes my own name, but thatโs always whispered. Itโs mostly PTSD, snippets I or a system member heard before.
Iโve been hearing the angels and demons (also headmates). Thatโs most of how I communicate with people from those layers. I think it comes from my training, to view programmers as gods and headmates as spirits. I like them better than the flashbacks.
I donโt know what to make of it. I know itโs not external because I physically couldnโt pick it up. I donโt remember if it was always like this, but it feels normal.
Diversity of experience I suppose. Hearing voices as a Deaf girl is strange in concept, but I only want to change the trauma bits. The restโฆ well, maybe I can teach the others to sign.
what does Chi mean in terms of HC-DID?
is it acronym or something else?
(in reference to the other anon)
Chi is a type of programming, also known as callback or return programming.
Chi programs cause intense urges/desires to return to the situation(s) where you were programmed. It commonly involves urges to contact perpetrators, return to physical locations, or return to how perpetrators taught you to act/be.
oea/ramcoa is one of the more "abhorrent" forms of abuse. it's less to do with the trauma olympics aspect and more to do with the way oea acts are committed. but sometimes i wish more people understood it better.
i always feel terrible when i say that, because the only way to truly understand oea/ramcoa is to go through it. i wouldn't wish that upon my greatest enemies. it just really sucks when the trauma i've faced and the effort i've given to get where i am today get dismissed and even pushed under the rug. i've spent my whole life not being believed by the people who were supposed to protect me. what makes my trauma so unbelievable?
most people don't understand and they never will. i think one of the worst aspects of oea/ramcoa that a lot of us don't mention is the loneliness of it all. even if i do talk to other survivors, oea/ramcoa is such a broad term, and its practices are vastly different from each other. there's not really a single safe person who will get everything about my story.
i guess i just wish i had someone who could listen and understand. but i'm not provided that luxury and it hurts a lot more than i expected.
