CW for RAMCOA, hallucinations, flashbacks
I get auditory hallucinations. I canโt hear. People cofronting with me can make the connection to our residual hearing better than I can, but thatโs not what it is. It sounds like itโs coming from outside. People yelling, screaming, calling our names. Sometimes my own name, but thatโs always whispered. Itโs mostly PTSD, snippets I or a system member heard before.
Iโve been hearing the angels and demons (also headmates). Thatโs most of how I communicate with people from those layers. I think it comes from my training, to view programmers as gods and headmates as spirits. I like them better than the flashbacks.
I donโt know what to make of it. I know itโs not external because I physically couldnโt pick it up. I donโt remember if it was always like this, but it feels normal.
Diversity of experience I suppose. Hearing voices as a Deaf girl is strange in concept, but I only want to change the trauma bits. The restโฆ well, maybe I can teach the others to sign.