Hello! I am creating a Notion Template for systems/plurals!

I focused on plurality in general, but there are some things that are more relevant to people with CDD (such as level of amnesia and dissociation).

You can remove and add to the front end by simply clicking buttons (please use the buttons; they are automated to keep the correct settings).

You can edit the templates for members, groups, etc. And I'll still create other options for journals.

And not only that, but they also do everything to portray themselves as victims of the story. We are the ones ignoring their needs, we are the ones making them the villains, we are the ones who are bad to their story. Yes, of course, they are always the victims of the situation. And because the community is predominantly white in the United States, it's obvious that they will have support for these narratives.

we're both introjects of a personal source that is very dear to our system, and we're in a relationship that i don't really know how to put into words. (we're girlfriends, though).

this account is for us to talk to each other, ramble about things we feel are important, and reblog insightful or silly system-related content. we may occasionally post comics of our shenanigans, if we can find a way to stylize ourselves that's different enough from our source.

we may mention other system members, though always under code names, and likely only briefly. one of us, C, is a personal protector for our host, so that will likely be talked about here. we'll try to tag who is posting, along with any other relevant tags!

TL;DR: Breaking for self-exploration purposes. Might end up being DID or not, might end up still plural or not. If it isn’t DID there will be posts about it eventually.

I don’t quite understand how browser Tumblr works, so forgive whatever this looks like. Been having a denial moment lately. The first week or so was mostly “What if I am not a system and my symptoms are a lie?” which was not helpful on account of making the symptoms worse. Unprecedented, I assure you. (This is the usual result.) Currently, it’s taking the shape of “What are the symptoms?” which has been more helpful but has required time both looking at real examples and not looking at any examples. This is probably gonna take a while.

It’s not a secret that our/my (gonna try singular today) presentation has imitative features. The problem is that it isn’t just imitative features. I have a lot of symptoms that don’t group well together that I’m fairly certain I’m not making up.

I do still watch myself behave in ways I have Opinions about, but that are not necessarily shameful. I still can’t make time linear or remember what I have evidence I’ve done but wasn’t me. I relate to the sense of not-me. But I also don’t look much like the people with CDDs in academic texts. I wonder if I have enough of that phobic avoidance to sustain compartmentalized selves (self-states, parts, the not-me others). If I didn’t just make up my trauma and twist around absorption/role-switching to get the confusion I have now. Basically I’m pestering my therapist about what else it might be and they are going “it doesn’t matter as long as you experience it”.

So I’m trying offline for a while longer. This’ll be the end of the queue, just to explain instead of falling off the face of Tumblr. I always did say that if I was wrong, I would want to be upfront about it. I’m not sure I am, and my not coming back isn’t an admittance of my imitating DID. It might be a while before I figure anything out. Or it might be tomorrow, who knows.

If I do decide this is not and was not DID, I’ll probably yap about that, too. There are not a lot of resources on Imitative DID besides telling patients in clinical settings they don’t have it and setting them loose (let me know if you(&) have something else, though) and might as well have someone do it. Also no promises on how that’ll affect my plurality (that’s a sentence).